Title: Unfair as fair may be

Summary: For the first time Remus Lupin has friends. But what'll happen if when his feelings spiral out of control? Hopefully the story is better than the summary. My first SLASH fic. Eventual Remus & Sirius

Rating: PG (I'm not too dirty…I think…)

A/N: PLEASE READ THIS!!!! Like I said, the slash is eventual. I'm gonna do chapters by years in Hogwarts. Well, I guess that this wasn't that important…Oh, well. I hope you like the story. Please R&R!!! Gratzi! Gracias! Thank you!

The small boy grunted with exertion as he pulled his trunk, thumping, up the stairs into the school train.

"Do you need help?" The boy, one eleven year old Remus Jonathan Lupin, spun to face the speaker, hand moving to his wand in case it was another troublemaker bent on hurting him because of what he was. Like it was his fault. However, the face that watched him was only filled with sincere concern and curiosity. Remus pondered for a moment.

"Yes, please. I would greatly appreciate it and be in your debt if you assist me in moving my trunk to…" he faltered, "um, somewhere…" His attempt at sounding polite and formal failed dismally when he realized he had nowhere to sit. The helpful boy must have realized his dilemma and offered him a spot in the compartment he occupied that Remus happily accepted. After Remus' trunk was carefully stowed away, he took a seat near the window, the helpful boy sat across from him. An awkward silence fell thorough out the compartment.

"I'm Sirius Black." The boy said stretching his hand out for Remus to shake. He grasped it lightly.

"R-R-Remus L-Lupin." Was all he said because his heart was contracting with fear. His mother had told him about the 'most ancient and noble house of Black'. She told him how they all had the right idea. How he should be ashamed of what he was because the precious Black family wouldn't approve. He drew his legs up to him like a wounded animal at the thought of his parents. Sirius watched the boy, worried.

However, Sirius took this opportunity to observe his new friend. The boy was small, much smaller than an eleven year old should be. He had light brown hair with subtle blond highlights. Sirius was entranced by the other boy's eyes. They ere filled with intelligence but also fear. They had a mix of blue, green, gold and gray all mixed together to create a storm in his eyes and a flurry of color every time he blinked. He had a slightly rounded chin that was strong and stubborn and an average, slightly pointed nose. But the thing that troubled Sirius the most was the scars that littered the boy's skin.

Suddenly the compartment door slid open startling Sirius out of his reveries and making Remus jump like the Advada Kedavra spell had been fired at him. It took a moment for Sirius to see who it was, but when he did, he jumped up with a joyful yell, arms outstretched to the newcomer.

"James!" The two exchanged brotherly hugs. Sirius turned to Remus who had unsuccessfully tried to shrink into the shadows.

"Remus, this is James Potter. We've been best mates since we were the size of house elves." They grinned at each other. "we've been causing trouble since about that size, as well. James, this is my new friend Remus Lupin." James and Remus exchanged pleasant nods before Remus went back to staring out the window. As the train continued on to Hogwarts, Remus listened idly to whatever Sirius and James were talking about. However, his thoughts were on what Sirius said. Friend. No one had ever called him a friend before… This happy thought carried him all the way through the trip and across the lake to Hogwarts. However, his mood diminished considerably when he entered the castle behind the strict woman with the tight bun. She led them into the great hall past all the other students. Remus swore that they all had their eyes trained on him. That they all knew his secret. Suddenly, he took notice of a battered wizard's hat atop a three legged stool and began to wonder why it was there when a large rip, acting as a mouth for what should be an inanimate object, opened and it began to sing. It sang of how all should be friends with one another and of how prejudices should be forgotten and of how at first, even the creators of Hogwarts had had no prejudices against one another. When its song ended, the woman held up a scroll that Remus had failed to notice before.

"When I call your name you will come up and put the sorting hat on. It will put you into the house that you will excel in." She paused, opening the scroll, "Avery, Donald!" The boy settled the hat onto his head and a moment later, it shouted that he was to join Slytherin. After two more first years, (Alabaxter and Bartolomew who both joined Hufflepuff) it was Sirius' turn. He sat on the stool, shifting nervously.

"Hmmm…" a small voice said into his ear. "How odd…" Odd? Sirius thought. "Yes, odd…" the voice continued, "a black who not only doesn't want to be in Slytherin, but doesn't belong there either… Well, in that case, GRYFFINDOR!!!!!" Nearly fainting with relief, Sirius took off the hat and ran to the table that had erupted with cheers ignoring, or perhaps not even noticing the Slytherins muttering with one another. 3 Ravenclaws, 2 Slytherins, and 2 Gryffindors later, it was Remus' turn. He as well was sorted into Gryffindor as was Sirius' friend James.

"Who d'you think she is?" James asked Remus and Sirius during the feast. He was staring unabashedly (one might say rudely) at an attractive red headed girl sitting a bit farther down the table.

"Lily Evans." Remus answered, helping himself to the apple pie in front of him.

"How do you know?" James demanded eagerly, "Do you know her?"

"No, Jamsie." Sirius interrupted. "He was paying attention during the sorting ceremony. She's a first year like us." Remus nodded the affirmative, mouth stuffed.

"Lily Evans…" James repeated slowly, as though tasting the name and finding it very good, indeed. Sirius rolled his eyes.

"Great. Now we'll have to deal with this obsession for the rest of our lives!" He exclaimed, groaning. Remus suddenly got scared. He had come to the conclusion that Sirius, unlike the rest of the Black Family, was a decent person and Remus wanted to be his friend. But now, however, he was terrified that Sirius wouldn't want to be his friend because Remus had gotten him angry.

"I'm sorry," he said quickly, "I-I didn't mean- wait, we?"

"Of course 'we'! You're our friend Friends always listen to the insane and pointless thoughts and obsessions of other friends."

"Oh, right." Was all Remus could say with an insane joy bubbling up inside of him making it hard to not through his arms around Sirius.

Remus lay in bed later that night listening to the snores of the other three boys sharing his room. Sirius lay in the bed next to him while James lay in the bed across from him and the trio's new friend, Peter Pettigrew, lay in the bed across from Sirius. As he listened to the other boys sleep, he thought about how much their friendships meant to him. And, even though Remus felt that by now he should've been reassured that they were his friends, he worried over what would happen if ever they were to discover his secret. No one of sane mind would ever want to be friends with a werewolf.

Four months later, most of Remus' insecurities had been destroyed. He knew that he had the three best friends in the world and if they ever wondered where he went once a month, they never asked, respecting his privacy. They had almost immediately formed the marauders, a band of mischievous pranksters with many a flawless trick to set Hogwarts on its ear. Ideas were constant flowing in the group always being run by Remus as he was the most logical and could usually point out a flaw in the plan. On one sunny (but cold and wintry day) the marauders were huddled in the common room discussing a possible prank they would like to pull. After it was all planned out, Sirius suggested that it be pulled on the full moon in two days and was met by pleased affirmatives by both James and Peter. Remus, however, paled considerably.

"You guys go ahead. I think that I'll just sit this one out." Sirius looked at his comrade curiously.

"But why, Remus?"

"Because," Remus said slowly, hating having to lie to his best friends, "Because my mum is very ill. I need to go see her."

"Oh."

However, the marauders knew that their friend was hiding something and followed him as he left the school under James' invisibility cloak. Instead of heading for the train station, he started off across the grounds towards a tree that seemed to be waving its branches wildly despite the lack of wind. Remus took hold of a large stick a poked a dark knot at the base of the tree and the branches stopped moving. He then disappeared down a hidden tunnel, the marauders continued after him. At the end of the tunnel, they watched as Remus stripped his robes off and sat down on the floor, shivering and completely naked. Sirius stepped out from under the cloak, startling Remus.

"Mate, what are you doing?" he asked. He stepped back, startled, as he glimpsed the feral look in Remus' eyes.

"What are you doing?" Remus moaned. "Why did you follow me? You need to leave now! Hurry, before I…"

"Sirius!" James stuck his head out from under the cloak. "He's a werewolf! We need to leave!" Sirius looked back at Remus.

"Mate?" Remus nodded, a mix of emotions in his eyes. Sadness fear, rage, regret. "Don't worry, Remus. We're still your friends. I promise." Relief flooded the boys face.

"Thank you. But, please, go. The transformation will begin soon." The boys left not knowing that this secret being uncovered had destroyed the last of Remus' paranoia and made his problem almost bearable.

Alright. I know that wasn't too good. I hope that the other chapters will be better. I hope you liked it! Again please review. It will be very much appreciated! Thanks!