1Title: Don't You Feel It Too?

Pairings: Kankuro/Kiba, Neji/Hinata, Shikamaru/Chouji, Gaara/Lee, one-sided Kankuro/Shino (will change later)

Rating: PG for now, may go up

Warning: Angst for poor Shino & language, that's about it for now.

Shino watched kiba and Kankuro out of the corner of his eye, they seemed so happy together. Shino sighed very softly, so much so that no one heard as he turned to walk away, it didn't matter no one would notice anyway.

He had been dealing with it everyday for the last year, the yearning and unrequited feelings he had for the older boy. Of course no one knew, no one even suspected because if there was one thing Shino was good at, it was hiding his feelings. He walked through town as he felt the kikaichu thrum through his body. They had been very unsettled since Shino had begun feeling the absolute loneliness of being such an outcast. Sometimes he would hear the others talk about him, call him a bug, or worse, he'd be called inhuman. Usually things like that just rolled off his back, hell, Kiba made it his duty to call Shino some name or other, but lately it had been harder. Actually, it had been unbelievably hard to keep up his 'no-care' attitude with the one person he began to really care for would never even look at him. He was extremely grateful for his glasses, they hid everything and that was a blessing.

He walked down the street and turned into the woods walking to his favorite spot by the river. It was really a beautiful place especially at this time of the day when the sun was just above the horizon. Shino sat down near the bank of the river and allowed himself a small smile as one of his female Kikai crawled over his finger. He had learned a long time ago to appreciate the bugs that inherited his body, while they ate his chakara and disgusted many people, he learned that they were his life, and most times they were all he had.

Shino looked out to the water and watched as a few fish darted back and forth. It was a nice place to go when everything was getting too much to bare. He couldn't understand why he felt the way he did, it was confusing. He never even knew he could feel something so sharp and painful. How was it that a boy who had tried to kill him years ago was now the one person who wouldn't leave his thoughts? Shino sighed as he drew some patterns in the dirt. Kiba and Kankuro had started going out and at the same time it seemed that Shino had disappeared faster than usual. Hinata had started going out with Neji and she was ecstatic so she was only around for training. Kiba on the other hand was around constantly, or maybe it was Shino who decided he couldn't leave. He was very adamant on seeing Kankuro, he figured if he couldn't be with the older boy then maybe seeing him, even with someone else, would curve his appetite some. Of course it never worked, as he sat and looked at the happy couple, he would scream on the inside, beg for just one moment the boy from Suna would just look at him.

The Aburame shook his head as he thought of his own bleeding heart. He couldn't let anyone know, ever, he had to be the cold, aloof, silent Shino everyone expected. He couldn't be a boy that was affected by being unwanted and sneered at for the insects he cherished, he couldn't cry. There was that same rotten feeling in his chest again as he thought of the looks and the outright insults. He was a good person, sure he was quiet and maybe he liked bugs just a little too much for most people's liking, but he was never a monster, no matter what mothers told their children as they briskly walked in the other direction.

There was a slight noise to his left and Shino froze. The person, no people who were coming were far enough away for him to leave, but at that moment he just didn't have the strength to move. His heart was empty even with the Kikai running around in circles over his organs. He heard laughter and closed his eyes behind his ever-present glasses. Why did they have to follow him, what did he have to do to just be left alone.

"Hey Shino! I was wondering were ya went!" Shino didn't bother to turn as Kiba ran up to him, Akumaru right next to him. The dog boy plopped down next to his teammate and sniffed at him. Shino's eyebrows lowered as he felt the insects in him begin to stir.

"Don't do that." Shino saw kiba grin and then look over to Kankuro who stayed near the trees. Of course he wouldn't come near Shino, the only few who did come near him were either to polite to run screaming or to damn nosey. Kiba leaned back and looked up at the darkened sky.

"Why are you over here anyway? You kinda just left when we were done practicing. Man, you didn't even say goodbye!" Shino grunted slightly and looked out towards the water, he didn't have to explain his misery.

"Hey Kiba, C'mon babe, lets get going, he doesn't want you around, he's just too polite to say anything. Plus, we have to meet up with Gaara and that crazy youth kid for dinner." Kiba groaned as he sat up and streched.

"I'll tell ya bug-freak, you sure as hell gave me a few bruises, I'll get you back tomorrow!" Kiba jumped up and ran towards Kankuro who was grinning. Shino decided he'd seen enough and stood to leave. He just wanted to go home and go to sleep, it seemed the only time where he was able to get out of the circle of hell he lived in. It was the only time he wasn't in pain.

He walked slowly and stiffly like normal, what was it that Kiba said? Oh right, he walked like he had a stick permanently shoved up his ass. As amusing as it was to most people, Shino found it rather offensive. Just because he stood tall and proud, didn't mean that he should be made fun of for that too. As if being known as a freak wasn't enough.

He walked away to the sound of laughter and barking. Was it going to be this way? Was everyone around him going to live their lives to their full potential happiness while Aburame Shino sat from the sidelines and listened to the hum of the insects around him. Well it made sense at least, Shino was the strong silent type, he would help anyone who needed it but when it came to actual friends or wanting to be around the boy who had bugs taking up his insides, no one was willing to go that far. But that wasn't even the worst part, who would ever learn to love a hive? Who could put their own fears of bugs aside and be there for him? There was absolutely no way he could be loved, and with that thought racing in his mind Shino walked home by himself just wanting to sleep and dream of a time where he would not be ostracized.

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TBC

A/N: Ok so this is my newest fic that I am working on. I believe this will become a Kankuro/Shino because recently I fell in love with this couple. Also please be patient with me, I am working on three fics right now that are multi-part so updating might be kinda slow.

Anyway I love feedback and if you want me to continue I will otherwise I'll just leave it for now. Hope you enjoy it!