They determine that the credibility of their own bodies is about as low as the credibility of apperance,

and as a result, in an apperantly good mood,

they let go of there surest possession.

-- For what do we think is more secure than our bodies? --

- - - -

I held that flower in my hand with every intention of crushing it, to crumble its beauty and watch it wither in my hand. -- How can this worthless flower be graced with so much when i had been striped of everything. My life, everything...everyone...my mother.. gone, and this...this plant...IS A PLANT WORTH MORE THAN A HUMAN LIFE. -- I tighten my hold on the worthless fiend ready to crush it and ready to do the same thing to all the other flowers in this stupid garden as soon as i had finished with this one. All of them dancing in the wing, mocking me, ' look at what you'll never have. ' Bastards, all of them, they don't deserve this much love.

' you shouldn't do that '

- - - -

Beautiful, but strange. That was my first impression of Shizuru. I had often asked myself why she chose me,she was beautiful, smart, kind, and elegant. She was the picture of perfection one that many man would kill to be with, one that anyone would do anything to be. She was like a goddess walking among mortals, showing kindness to all who aproached her. But unlike most gods there was no vengefullness and smiting of sorts, at least that was what i thought until the carnival happened. That was when i saw the other side of her even though it really wasn't her, no, Shizuru wouldn't do that, my Shizuru wouldn't do that. In a way I'm thankfull for the carnival, it opened my eyes and showed me how deep her feelings for me went . I admit that it scared me to no extend but then again, I loved her too. Not in the same way that she loved me, no, I wasn't ready for that...at least...not then.

- - - -

' meet me '

I whispered hoarsely in her ear; my voice shaking and my mind reeling like crazy as her body writhe beneath my own, her nails digging into my back scraping its surface leaving marks in their wake. I lifted my head to look at her face, her eyebrows were furrowed together in confusion.

' tomorrow...' I tell her asI let out the moan i was supressing and increase my rocking angaints her. I could tell we were coming close by the way she clung to me as if her life depended on it, and the sound of her moans as they became louder and louder after each thrust. I wanted to finish telling her where to meet me but the urgency to finish the task at hand overpowered my will to finish.

I buried my face in the crook of her neck as my vision was engulfed in blinding white light, and my body shook uncontrollably as we both climaxed.

Collapsing on top of her I try to regain my strength while her hand gently strokes my hair. We're both silent, enjoying the aftermath of it all as we are many nights after making love,no words were needed as our hearts were the ones who expressed everything that wasn't said. The feeling of peace whenever i'm with her, engulfed me and slowly while she stroked my hair i drifted off to sleep.

' Natsuki? '

' where we first met '

- - - -

I stood there watching the flowers as i waited for her to come. Memories of those times were i used to envy this delicate flowers came to me. Looking back know and seeing the life i live right know i can't help but laugh a little and think that perhaps it is now the flowers that envy me; because even though many people do loved them i know that its not real, not the way Shizuru loves me. The thought of her warms me up inside as the night air and the fragances of the flowers it carries remind me of her, --delicate and beautiful just like a flower.-- I run my thumb on the surface of the small wooden box in the right pocket of my jeans, the contents of it an evidence of my love for her and also proof that she will soon be mine.

A rustle in the leaves behind me takes me out of my thoughts.

" Shizuru? "

I call out into the darkness scanning the area infront of me trying to make out her figure. I take a step forward when i did't get a respond but stop immediately when i hear someone approaching.

--This isn't right... i've heard that sound before...there's only one thing that makes that kind of noise when it walks.-- I take a step closer to confirmed my suspicion and was met by a pair of blood red eyes unlike anything i've ever seen before. The hate and rage inside those pools ofblood froze me in my spot making my breath catch in my throat and my blood pump through my veins like crazy. Relization finally hit me as the animal leap at me, mouth agape and baring fangs.