Hey guys! this is sadly the last chapter (cries)...this is a very sad moment because I really liked this stroy! So i hope you like the final chapter...Oh and dont kill me please! OK then read on party readers read on! ( Oh feel special because I feel like crap and i actually got up to update! which is a big deal usally when i feel like crap I dont get up for nothing! but I dont want to keep you guys waiting awwwwww!)
Chapter 12. (last)
My savior
RIN POV
The nerve of Sesshomaru! How could he go into my room and touch my shit! I ran to Yura's house and slept over their I cried the night away thinking about Sesshomaru and the way he kissed me. I wish I could go running back to him and beg him for forgiveness but not after what I did he would never forgive me. I moved in with Yura and we would get snoted everyday and just sit on our lazy asses and talk about random things like why was the sky blue or who invented cheese. Yeah that random I thought about Sesshomaru a lot but I thought I was doing pretty good with out him 3 months went by and I was still with Yura and my other friends one day I woke up early in the morning and went outside for a walk I walked to my old apartment and knocked on the door. No answer. I knock again and still no answer 'what the hell am I doing' i thought I ran away from the door and walked around thinking for about a good three hours.
SESSHOMARU'S POV
It had been 3 moths since rin left and I told kagome what had happen and she told Inuyasha and Sango who told my father. My father walked into my office one day and told me what he knew and he was happy that rin left
"son it was for the best…I want to invite you back to the family!" he said he also gave me a better position at work as vice president of the company and a much, much better pay. I excepted his offer for the job but I didn't want to be apart of the family. I missed rin I wanted her back but I couldn't force her to do anything . I noticed I became more cold to people and everyone was afraid of me. I moved out of the apartment and bought a house I took all rin's stuff to my house and stored them in a room. Now I was alone. With out her.
RINS POV
When I got back to Yura's place I sat down and thought about all the wrong doing that did I needed to clean up my act this was childish and I need to grow up I have to do it for Sesshomaru I owe him my life and this is how I repay him? Later on in the evening I would tell Yura that I was going back to Sesshomaru I had to. I would feel like a fool crawling back to him after everything that I said to him but I needed him I still love him I wish I could tell him my true feelings maybe I will…yes I will! I will go to the apartment and tell him that I love him. I smiled at the thought of being with Sesshomaru in him arms like the day that we were caught making out. A blush arose my face that memory was very embarrassing. I went up to the room I was staying in and took my lazy ass back to bed but before going to sleep I was thankful that I met my great friends
3HOURS LATER
" Rin!" yura said shaking me awake
" Wha?"
" Get up you been sleeping forever…naraku is down stairs waiting for you"
" Really? Why?" I said a little shocked 'what the hell did naraku want with me?'
" Hurry up rin!"
" Ok ok" I said getting up and walking down stairs
" Naraku you asked for me?" I said something about him gave me the crepes he was always nice with me but It was a little awkward when I was around him
" Rin lovely day isn't it?"
" Um…yeah I guess"
" Please come sit with me"
" S-sure"
" Rin…I have a liking towards you" he said as he pushed me down onto the sofa with pure lust in his eyes I didn't know what to say I was scared. Naraku was very strong he leaned towards me and held my arms down as he kissed my collar bone. I was disgusted I didn't like Naraku in that type of way
" Naraku get off!" I said sternly
"oh rinny relax" he said in a spine chilling voice taking one of my hands and roamed it under my shirt flashes of my father making me have sex banged in my head I felt my cheeks wet I will not let this happen to me again I will fight! I pushed naraku's hand away from me and tried to get away but he just grabbed my wrist and pulled me back with great force
" Naraku stop!" I said trying to escape again he pulled my hair back and kiss my neck I hit his shoulders and kicked my legs I guess I kick him where it hurt the most because he roared in pain
" You bitch" he said I took the time that he was in pain to try and run out the door but to my horror Yura was their blocking it
" Move" I yelled
" I don't think so miss Rin your going to give what Naraku wants" she said pushing me to the ground I looked up to only see naraku's twisted face
" No, no, no please not again" I pleaded
" Don't worry rinny it will be fast" Yura said going on her knees and kissing my forehead
" Get off !" I yelled pushing Yura to her ass
" Oh rin, I am going seek so much pleasure with you" naraku said pushing me on the floor he got on top of me I tried to get him off I started hitting him and pulling his stupid long hair but it was no use all my 'so called friends' helped him pin me down before I knew I was pantieless and he was thrusting himself onto me I screamed and cried and they all just stared I just wish I could see Sesshomaru walk though the door and save me. I let out one more scream before it was all over he got up and sipped him pants
" That was a good fuck" he said walking away I laid on the floor sobbing how could it come to this again!
" See rin that was fast" yura said running her hands though my hair and wiping my tears
" You bitch!" I yelled I pulled on my underwear and grabbed my jeans and ran out of the house now I had nowhere to go what was I going to do?! I ran to my old apartment I needed Sesshomaru I banged on the door but know one answered I banged on it again and when the door open I didn't see Sesshomaru but an old lady
" What do you want" she yelled
I was speechless he didn't live here anymore. I ran and ran, now I seriously had nowhere to go I walked around the city it was already night time and to top of the most perfect day it started to rain. I walked fast to the subway station to protect my self from the rain, I walked down the filthy hall and sat on the floor. from the corner of my eye I saw a sick looking man not sick as in I have a clod but sick as in crazy I didn't want to risk getting rapped again so I got up and walked to the restroom I turned on the light which was flickering and locked the door. The bathroom was all white well was white their was dirt everywhere and it smelled horrible the walls were growing some type of fungus and the sink was leaking. I looking at my self from the cracked mirror my left eye was swollen and I had red marks on my cheeks that I knew would soon turn to buries My hair was a danm mess and I had tear streaks and dirt on my face I started to cry 'how could this happen to me again I'm such a fucking idiot' I said to myself I punched the mirror causing it to break I held my bloody fist because of the pain and pulled my hair as I cried all my sorrows from my heart ache. I pushed my body against the door and slid down hugging my knees to think this is how a girl wants to spend her eighteenth birthday. This was the day that I so longed for to come the day I was suppose to be out of hells claws, I only ended up In it's stomach. I pushed my head up toward the door and stared at the blinding light.
If only I would have listened, if only I went to Yale, if only I didn't take that fucking drug I wouldn't be in the situation right now I cant believe the type of idiot I am' I wanted to have a better life and I was doing just that but I fucked up! And now I have nothing. All my life I wanted to prove that I was good enough to live and that I didn't deserve the way my father was treating me but that just took a 180 degree turn and slapped me right in the face, and now look at me I'm all alone in a dirty old bathroom beaten up and miserable then ever before. I cannot believe that when I was finally finding the light at the end of the tunnel I turned around and not only that but I lost him. And that's what hurt's the most the way I treated him was ungrateful after everything that he did to try and help me. I hurt that man and he was doing only what was best for me and I betrayed him I touched my lips brushing my fingers across them try to saver that kiss he gave me the night I turned my back on him that had me think so much Oh how I longed for his kiss but I'm not worthy of HIS kiss he deserve much better not some low life scum who will always be a low life scum girl, but just the thought of his tender lips on mine made me feel like the worst person on the planet how could I do this to him I'm so naive how could I even think those people were my friends? They just used me and I was just too stupid to understand that.
I wish I could go back to Him but he's gone… I lost my chance to be with him I should have fought to spend more time with him.The one that really cared for me the one who was my only friend when every one picked on me the one who I loved over all things the one who saved me…Sesshomaru…my savior.
I tried to kill my pain My God, my tourniquet
But only brought more (so much more)
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost
To be saved?
Am I too lost?
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
( Tourniquet by: Evanecsence)
THE END
Ok thats the end I know you guys are mad but I will be having a second part to this story..since it's summer I will be working on it. so please review I want to know what your final thoughts are and again dont worry I'm not going to leave the story like this I myself want to know whats going to happen to Rin and Sesshomaru...for the squeal theirs going to be some more drama but hey that's what life is right? so if you guys have any ideas about what should happen next please e-mail me or send in a review thanks so much I had alot of fun writing this till next time!
Yours truly
-Slayprincess