EARASED FUTURE

Chap.1.Usagi's decision

She couldn't take it anymore. She just couldn't. It was far too much for her to handle. She didn't even know if she should be depressed or angry.

She chose the later.

Anger was better in that situation. Crying wouldn't get her anything. She had cried enough tears as it is, anyway. Usagi wasn't sure anymore if they deserved her tears. This time they had gone too far.

Rei just couldn't seem to keep her big mouth shut. The others didn't protest as Rei accused her of just being too lazy to hurry up and help them. How come they call for her help first and then scold her after she saved their asses?! She was the Moon Princess, she didn't have to put up with such things.

Then there was that little ungratefull brat, Chibi-Usa. This whole shit is her fault, anyway. If she hadn't come they wouldn't have the Black Moon after them. Usagi wished for a moment she hadn't saved her as she did countless times.

And not to forget, Mamoru. How many times did she have to tell him that she loved him for that man to understand? Didn't love her anymore, he says. Doesn't want to be with her just because of a 1000 year old past, he says. What the Hell is wrong with him? She doesn't love him because he was Endymion or she Serenity, she loved him for who he was now, she loved Mamoru Chiba, her Mamo-chan.

Then Usagi started doubting herself again.

What if Mamoru never loved her? What if he felt he HAD to be with her because of their past? What if he thought that she wasn't worth loving because she just WASN'T Serenity that he knew?

Well, she indeed wasn't Serenity he once knew, she was Usagi Tsukino and Princess Serenity of the Silver Millenium was a part of her but not HER. If Mamoru couldn't love her for Usagi then she shouldn't love him either.

Maybe the Senshi thought the same?

Rei didn't ever bother to hide her dissapoitment that Usagi was their Princess and she let her feel just how little she thought of her, and how much she disliked her. The others seemed to just pity her.

Pity! She would show them just how pitiful she was! They were the ones that should be pitied, not her! Without her they would have all died 1000 deaths by now. But did they ever say Thank you, Usagi? No, they didn't. She risked her life helping them do their job and never once got a simple Thank you! Instead she was made fun of how clumsy she is, what a bad fighter she is and how they always have to save her! Even if she is the one doing the saving!

She didn't have to do that. She didn't have to be Sailor Moon. She didn't have to fight.

As she found out she was the Moon Princess she could've just let them fight for her, let them face Beryl alone and stay death! She didn't have to fight Kunzite, face Beryl, almost get killed by a brainwashed Mamoru and die herself for using the Silver Crystal's full energy to wish for them to be reborn.

But she did anyway.

She fought with them and risked never seeing Mamoru again by getting killed. She stayed Sailor Moon and endured seeing them ALL being thought of being the Moon Princess because they were all ahh soo much better then her.

It was time to remind them of who she really is. It was time she let them do thier job. Let them fight without her. Let them see just how much they needed her to survive.

Usagi turned around to watch them. They were all fussing over Chibi-Usa, not even bothering to ask her if she was ok.

Usagi clutched the right arm. There was a deep gash just above her elbow and it was bleeding pretty strong. Not to mention that it hurt like Hell.

But they didn't care. They never cared.

Usagi tuned her back on them and took a few steps. This got their attention. Amy called out to her :

"Hey, Sailor Moon! Where are you going?"

'Away from you,' she thought bitterlly but didn't say anything just continued walking.

Then she stopped again an fingered her brooch.

That little brat wanted the Silver Crystal to save her mother. Well, then she could have have it. Maybe her mother would then teach her a few manners.

She ripped the compact off her chest and detransformed. She looked at it and then closed her eyes. Taking a deap breath, Usagi turned around to face them, the brooch clutched in her left hand.

She opened her eyes. They were all looking at her. Releasing the breath she had been holding, Usahi flung the brooch in Chibi-Usa's direction. The girl caught it and stared at her.

Before the confused Senshi could say anything, Usagi turned around and said:

"You can have it. I don't need it. Sailor Moon doesn't exsist anymore." With that she began walking again.

Then she reached her left hand up and undid her odangos, causing golden hair to fly around her like a curtain of sunshine.

Then she added, just loud enogh for them all to hear:

"And neither does Usagi Tsukino," and took off running home.

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The next morning found Luna telling the Senshi that Usagi was leaving for France. That very day.

TBC

Please let me know what you think.

Jasmin