Disoriented Emotions

Summary: Around the time Ritsuka starts to question his relationship with Soubi, Ritsuka's mother goes too far with the abuse. Soubi forces the sacrifice to move in with him and Kio doesn't like it one bit. Yuiko has conflicting emotions on whether or not to confess her love. Within all this, Ritsuka is feeling pressured to lose his ears.

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Ritsuka's situation was irritating Soubi to the fullest. Seeing the younger boy go to school each day with the bandages covering his wounds and bruises hidden under layers of clothing was making his heart ache. He couldn't take knowing that it was Ritsuka's own mother doing this to him and that he had no control over it.

Countless times, the blonde had begged for Ritsuka to abandon his mental mother and come to stay with him, but the sacrifice had always turned him down. He had retorted with saying he would be no better if he left her alone as he felt when Seimei supposedly died.

This would not stop the university student from continually reminding Ritsuka that his home was always open to him. Ritsuka was sixteen now and had become old enough to make his own decisions. He had become a mature young man and had grown in height. He could now reach Soubi's chin. His hair had grown out some, about an inch or so. It was nowhere near Soubi's hair length. The only sign that Ritsuka was still a child was the two velvety neko ears perched on the top of his head and his tail, which swished with his mood.

Soubi had yet to take his ear and would never do so without the sacrifice's consent. He would never force him to do something he didn't want to and Ritsuka knew this.

Soubi leaned against a concrete column near Ritsuka's high school entrance waiting for the boy to be released from school in about ten minutes or so.

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Ritsuka fidgeted in his seat waiting for the bell to sound and for the classes to be dismissed. He really should have been paying attention, but it wasn't like any of the other students were paying any attention either.

Yuiko sat on his left as she had always sat in every class they had together since the sixth grade. She was reading a fashion magazine hidden well inside her textbook. She delicately flipped the pages trying now to rip one by accident.

Yayoi sat on his right, his gaze set on Yuiko with his chin on his palm. He was still obsessed with the pink haired girl, though Yuiko didn't seem to share or return the feeling back.

Ritsuka tapped his foot impatiently. His line of vision went out the window seeing a blonde adult with a cigarette between his teeth. The sacrifice was joyful and slightly irritated. Happy because Soubi cared enough to come to see him, but irritated because Soubi thought he needed him to walk him home everyday at his current age.

"Ritsuka, are you coming?" He felt a tap on him shoulder and looked up to see Yuiko smiling at him. Ritsuka nodded, not realizing that the bell had sounded while he was day dreaming.

"Yeah," he replied to her question as he got up and gathered his things. Yayoi waited at the classroom door. The three exited the building chatting about random stuff and how their days went.

Reaching where Soubi was standing, the blonde greeted Ritsuka with a, "Hello Ritsuka," The younger boy snatched the cigarette from Soubi's mouth and threw it on the sidewalk. From there he proceeded to stomp the cancer stick out with a passion.

"I thought I asked you to stop smoking! One day it is going to kill you!" Ritsuka's voice was angry. His face was red with madness.

"I am. That's only my second one in a week. It takes time to break a habit," Soubi said matter-of-factly.

"Hi, Soubi-san! Are you going to be able to join me and Yayoi at the arcade?" Yukio jumped into the conversation. Yayoi just shy stood in the background.

"I'm afraid not. I actually have to finish a painting." Yuiko sighed and then hooked arms with Yayoi and dragged him off.

"Do you really have a painting to finish?" Ritsuka asked in an unbelieving voice. From all the calls Soubi seemed to get from Kio about his projects, Soubi never did anything until the last minute. He doubted today changed anything.

"No. I just wanted to spend some time with you and only you." Soubi replied with a suggestive wink behind the lenses of his glasses.

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Arriving at Soubi's apartment, Ritsuka felt a little nervous and antsy. With the lie that the blonde said to get rid of Yayoi and Yuiko and that wink when he said he wanted to spend some time alone with him, it was to be expected. Soubi had the tendency to just kiss him without a moments notice. It was awkward of course, but he wouldn't say he complained. He just was a little confused by the action.

Right this moment, the blonde was preparing tea via tea kettle in his small kitchenette. His beautiful locks bound in a band, holding it in a high ponytail. His glasses rested on the bridge of his nose. To be truthful, he was looking absolutely sexy and Ritsuka was well aware of it. It was the reason for the sudden blush that crossed his face.

Though Ritsuka was still confused about Soubi and how he felt about the blonde, his mind still lingered on how much he meant to Soubi. Even when Soubi constantly reminded the younger boy of his love for him, a sudden decline in intimacy had occurred recently. Ritsuka was almost positive that at his current age, Soubi would try harder than ever to take Ritsuka's ears or at least get in more than the occasional peck. He was confused at what had caused Soubi's state of disinterest. Was Soubi really not interested in him anymore?

"Ritsuka." Ripped from his thoughts, the neko boy looked up to see Soubi with two cups two cups of tea in his grasp. Taking a seat next to Ritsuka, he handed a cup to the boy. Ritsuka accepted the cup and took a sip. Soubi placed his own mug on the small, oak coffee table before them.

"Soubi," Ritsuka started. Thinking now was as good as any time; he decided to ask Soubi about what was on him mind. "Why don't you seem interested anymore?"

Soubi was slightly taken back from this question. Of course, he, himself, knew the answer to this question. Since Ritsuka had never acknowledged his advances and feelings, he attempted to stop forcing himself on the high school boy. Maybe, just maybe, Ritsuka actually wanted to make this a relationship.

"Of course I'm interested. You don't have to worry." There was that glint again; that glint that meant that Soubi was up to something.

Soubi's hand wrapped around the cup in Ritsuka's hand and placed it on the table. The younger boy had a confused look plastered on his face. The elder man pushed Ritsuka gently back so he laid on the couch as he hovered over him. Their eyes met and the violet eyed boy's brow was furrowed. Soubi smile and their lips connected.

Ritsuka's eyes widened at the sudden intimacy as Soubi's tongue ran across his bottom lip. The boy gasped, granting Soubi entrance to his mouth.

To Ritsuka, this experience was all very new to him. He just let his instincts take over as his fingers wove into Soubi's hair and he began to kiss back. He removed the band that held the blonde's hair up and ran his fingers through the soft and silky lock.

When both needed air, they broke the kiss and Soubi moved his lips to Ritsuka's neck. He sucked and bit a trail down until he found the spot where Ritsuka gave the most response. The boy moaned at the attention his neck was receiving. He loved the sensation he was getting.

"Sou-chan, I knew you were a pervert, but this is going a little too far!"

Soubi was thrown out of his trance and looked up to find Kio standing by the door with one hand on his hip and the other occupied with a bag. His eyebrow was raised in an expression that said 'you should be ashamed of yourself!'.

Ritsuka, whom Soubi was still straddling, turned bright red. He could rival a tomato. He shoved Soubi off him and stumbled over to get his bag. "I've got to go,'" he mumbled before running out the door.

"Hentai!" Kio said before retreating to his own bedroom. Soubi had a shock and confused look on his face. It changed to a slightly irritated look.

"Thanks a lot Kio."

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Ritsuka lean against a wall outside of Soubi's apartment building. He attempted to catch his breath after sprinting out of Soubi's apartment and down all those stairs.

What had happened back there? Why had he let Soubi do that to him? Why did it feel so good and somewhat right? He was more confused than before.

Of course he knew Soubi cared, especially after what he just did. Now, he really didn't know what he felt for the blonde. What were these feelings he felt and that spark that jolted through him when they kissed.

He gazed into a shop window on his way home and he saw his reflection looking back at him. His neko ears were perched on his jet black hair. His violet eyes that contrasted with his peach skin. His slender neck that now had several marks on it. Were those hickeys?

Ritsuka hand automatic went to cover his neck to hide the marks Soubi had left behind. How was he going to hide this from his mother?

Zipping up his hoodie, and pulling the hood over his head, he gave a satisfied grin for successfully hiding the love bites. Looking down at his watch, he ran off. Curfew was in a several minutes.

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"Ritsuka-chan, what's up with the scarf? It's not that cold out?" Yuiko asked. Ritsuka, Yayoi, and she were sitting in their classroom because they had arrived early. Ritsuka had come to with a scarf covering his hickey, which he was especially hiding from his two friends. He didn't know how they would react. They would probably think that he had a girlfriend or something.

"Uh, nothing." Ritsuka responded, not making eye contact. The other two just shrugged as more kids entered the classroom.

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By the end of the school day, Ritsuka was pretty exhausted. The scarf was still around his neck and he had avoided all questioned about it. Right now, he would have loved to crawl in bed. His plans were change when he saw Soubi leaning against the concrete column. He had been sure that he would have been mad that he had run out the day before.

"Hello, Ritsuka. Why do you have that scarf?" Ritsuka growled at Soubi as he grabbed the older man's arm and dragged him off. He waved to Yayoi and Yuiko as they walked off.

"Soubi, you know exactly why I'm wearing this scarf! If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have anything to hide!" Ritsuka hissed once they were out of earshot. He pulled the scarf off and showed Soubi what he had done.

Soubi laughed and then said, "I apologize. You can punish me or order my not to do it again if you'd like."

"No." The truth behind his response was that something in the back of him mind told him that he didn't hate what Soubi had done the day before. He liked that contact.

"So what do you want to do today?" Soubi questioned.

"I don't know. I guess go to your place since we're already going in that direction. Plus, I want to avoid my mom. I don't want to know what she do if she saw your handiwork." With that said, they continued in the direction of Soubi and Kio's shared apartment.

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Soubi stood in the kitchen, preparing ramen for Ritsuka and himself. He knew that the boy liked the simpler things and ramen was almost as simple as it got. As Soubi cooked the meal, his thoughts moved to the day before. Why had Ritsuka asked about his halt in intimacy and then push him away when they were getting somewhere? Why had he run off? It didn't add up.

When the ramen was ready and he added the seasoning, he turned to bring the food to the table. Ritsuka was sound asleep on the couch looking completely at peace. The blonde smiled and walked over to watch the defenseless boy.

"Soubi," Ritsuka moaned in his sleep, which automatically caught Soubi's attention. "Don't stop. I don't want you to stop." Soubi raised an eyebrow at this.

Kio had entered the room just in time to here Ritsuka's sleep talking. He looked at his roommate. "Well, maybe he really does care about you, Sou-chan." Kio stated.

"Yeah, maybe it isn't unrequited," Soubi said. He didn't see the hurt flash in Kio's eyes as he left the room to the sanctuary of his own room.

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A/N: This is my first Loveless fan fiction, so please review. I have the story planned out and the real plot will come out next chapter.