My boyfriend broke up with me this Thursday 26 July and he is my first love so I feel kind of worthless now. When he broke up with me I felt like I was being stabbed in the back but when I received the anniversary gift ten minutes later, it felt like he pulled out the knife, lay some salt on it, shoved it back and twisted it. I seriously can't take it, knowing that sure, we'll be friends, but nothing more. cries T.T
I decided to write this dark really dark one shot just to get some emotions out. It is from Sailor Moon R when Darien broke up with Serena, but it is not your normal break up shot. Please read it and comment.
Disclaimer: We all know who owns Sailor Moon
Serena fell to the floor and Darien looked away from her. She couldn't believe it. Darien Shields, the love of her life, had just broke up with her and he never wanted to see her again. She tried to hold her tears back, but she knew she was failing, so she got up and gave a weak smile.
"I guess this is good bye then" she said and left. She didn't see the tears in Darien's eyes as he watched her back.
Serena stumbled forward and found a telephone booth. She got inside and sank to the floor and let her tears fall.
How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear
Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
This one's forever
Should never have to go away
Serena looked out the window in the booth and sighed. At least the gods of the weather was on her side. The rain was pouring down and she actually hoped that thunder would come.
What will I do
You know I'm only half without you
How will I make it through
Serena got out of the booth and ran home. She ignored her family and ran up the stairs and fell down on her bed. She wept silently into her pillow and it slowly got soaked. She heard the door open and she glanced up, angry at the person who entered her room.
"Hey, idiot Serena! Dinner is ready!" Sammy said. Serena sighed and shook her head. Sammy seemed shocked, but left his sister alone.
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me
Serena sat up and looked at her communicator. She opened it and Raye's concerned face showed.
"Hi, Serena. I was wondering if I could come over? I'll bring some ice cream to cheer you up." Serena just nodded and Raye hanged up. She changed out of her school uniform and into her pajamas.
Raye peeked into Serena's room and she got only more concerned. Serena was just sitting by the window and holding the first rose Darien ever gave her. The rose had died a long time ago, but Serena had kept it.
"Serena?" Raye whispered and entered the room.
The moon princess turned around and looked at her. "What is it, Raye?"
"How are you?" Raye asked and sat beside her princess.
"Shall I tell the truth or shall I say what you want to hear?" Serena asked and looked out the window again.
Serena was out walking. She was extremely hungry, but her appetite had disappeared the moment Darien said it was over. That was five days ago.
I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you, I know they can
Just light will guide you
And your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north
Serena bumped into someone and she muttered an apology. She heard a familiar voice saying her name and she looked up. It was Darien.
Look in my eyes
And you will see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me
Serena looked away from Darien and ran. She didn't where she was runing, she just couldn't take the pain of being close to him and him acting like a total stranger.
Darien looked after her with an hurt look and shook his head.
I hold you close
And shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
There's nothing that I would not give and more
Serena looked at her letters, one to her parents, one to her scouts, one to Rini and the last one to Darien.
She looked at the gun and she knew that no one would find her until her family came home. Her hands was bloody from her slit wrists and she grabbed the gun. She loaded it, placed it in her mouth and fired.
Her brother was the one who found her bloody body and he immediately yelled for his parents. Irene fell to the floor and grabbed Serena's right hand. Ken noticed the letters and opened the one addressed to them.
"When you are reading this, you will undoubtedly found me. I am sorry for having killed myself but I just can't live with this pain anymore. When Darien broke up with me, he destroyed my heart and I didn't see any reason to alive.
I love you all and I'll see you heaven one day.
Love Serena"
Rini called Darien and the scouts and they came over after the corpse had been taken away. Rini opened her letter, but she never read it as she disappeared from the world as Neo Queen Serenity was dead. But Sammy picked up the letter and read it.
"Dear Rini.
I am sorry I wasn't a better scout and that I wasn't able to save your mother. I am sure there is a better Sailor Moon just waiting out there.
Love Serena"
The scouts opened their letter and Amy read it out loud.
"Forgive me scouts for taking my own life. I just doesn't belong here. I am the last princess of the moon and now that line of the proud rulers of the moon has ended. I lost my will to live when Darien broke up with me. I do not know what more to say but this:
I love you all and I'll see one day
Love Serena"
Darien opened his letter and cried.
"I love you for ever" was all the letter said.
¨
Darien was visiting Serena's grave. He laid down a single blood red rose and wiped away some tears. "I love you, Serena. I pray that you can hear me."
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me
¨
Thank you for reading this one shot and if my ex boyfriend ever reads this I'll pray he understands how I feel.
Song: If my tears could bring you back to me
Come what may, finale
Serena1234
Under is something to my ex boyfriend if he ever reads this story.
Good bye….
I love you still, but you don't answer those feelings, so now I can only love you as a friend. In my heart I hope we'll get back together and I also hope that 26 July was just a bad dream. Unfortunately it isn't and it really hurts. You taught me how to love a person and for that I am grateful. Being without you is giving me so much pain and when you told me that it was over, I felt my heart shatter to a 1000 pieces. All I want to be is the girl who is falling asleep in you arms, not caring about anything in the world except how I feel right there with you.
But I do hope that deep inside you do still love me, no matter what.
Never knew
I could
feel
like this.
It's like I never seen
the sky
before.
Want to vanish
inside your kiss,
every day I'm loving you
more and more.
Listen to my heart
can your hear it sing.
Telling me to
give you everything
Seasons may change
winter to spring.
I love you
till the end
of
time.
I love you for ever…
Love Charlotte