Hello everyone,
Just thought I'd let it be known that this is a fanfiction written in two different POV's. By either Bella or Jacob. The POV's will be announced at the top of each chapter, so be sure and look out for it. I, Brittany, play the role of Jacob and the lovely Ms.Chantal plays the role of Bella. We do not own the Twilight characters, as much as we'd like to. They are Mrs. Meyer's and Mrs.Meyer's alone. Please, enjoy our storyline and if you read, it would be appreciated if you left a review. We like feedback. Thank you.
Jacob Black's POV:
It had been three weeks since I had returned to La Push. The last time I'd been home was the day I got the invitation to a wedding I would never attend. If I'm lucky, it had already happened and I won't have to hear about it any longer.
Just thinking about the girl I love getting married was bad enough, the fact that the groom was a leech made it even worse and hearing about it over and over again was unbearable.That is what had swayed my decision to leave in the first place. I had phased and let my legs take me as far as they would go, stopping at a small quiet town somewhere hours away from the place I was born. I had camped out in the forest there for the past few weeks, never bothering to change back from wolf to boy.
The only thing that brought me back now was my pack, my family. They needed me if no one else did.
I sighed now, as I approached the forest near my home. Billy would be in the mood to talk, but I won't have it. There was only one thing I wanted, and that was a nice long sleep in my own bed.
Upon reaching the front of my house, I noticed a familiar vehicle in my drive way. Bella's beaten up old dodge truck, that once belonged to me, stood parked securely in the gravel in front of my house. A growl formed in my chest. Why in the hell is she here?, I thought.
Quickly I phased back into human form for the first time in three weeks. The pain was unbelievable. I had forgotten how it had felt. I was overwhelmed.
Once the sharp pain had cleared I made my way to my window, undressed and without clothing. My nibble fingers fiddled with the glass window, wiggling it until it sprung open. With haste I climbed inside and scavenged for some clothes.
Once dressed I debated whether to stay hidden within my room or let my presence be known to my father and our company.
"Jacob? Is that you?", Billy's voice echoed down the hall. To late, I thought. "Yeah dad, it's me." I called out reluctantly. "Come out here, there is someone who wants to see you." Billy informed.
I quickly looked myself over in a near by mirror, fixing my rustled hair before stepping out into the hallway. Slowly I walked into the living room, where on the couch in front of me she sat, the girl I love, the girl I couldn't have.
"Hi Bella." I breathed.
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Bella Swan's POV:
I really had no idea why I was here.
I don't know what had led me here after trying on my wedding dress. It was kind of ironic that I was sitting here…after everything.
Billy had welcomed me in none-the-less, and had led me to the sofa.
I knew that Jacob was gone.
He hadn't been around in a long time. I knew I had hurt him.
But when he had escaped from his room, and made his way down the hallway, all I could do was hold my breath. I watched as he pulled his hand through his long, dark hair and glance at me with those dark eyes of his.
I wanted nothing more to run away—to hide from his all seeing eyes. Could he see how torn I still was over all of this?
How I wanted to be around him? How I had mistakenly fell in love with him…but now, it didn't matter…because I did love him.
"Hi Bella." He breathed.
It was so weird.
Why was this so weird for me? I knew Jacob better than any one else in the world.
I knew his pain. I knew his joy. I could read him like a book, and I'm sure it was like-wise for him.
"Hello Jacob." I whispered, glancing down at my hands. My bracelet that he had given me was still around my wrist. I hadn't come to terms with taking it off. I couldn't.
He was still my Jacob.
My wolf.
No matter how much trouble it got me in.
I had cried.
I had hurt…but I couldn't give up on him.
I couldn't walk away this time as easily as I had done in the past.
I couldn't walk away, leaving him to lay there and think about his wounds—though, he had. It was obvious by his face.
"What…are you doing here?" He questioned. I knew he had told me to wait for him to call me—or to wait…
But I hadwaited long enough. Didn't he see that?
Could he tell that I had waited…waited for anything from him? From Billy?
But nothing.
I glanced at Jacob and sighed. "Do you want me to go?"
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Jacob's POV:
She watched me with unreadable eyes, taking me in from head to toe. In that moment I wished I had her leeches power. I wanted to see into her mind, to hear what she was thinking. Not that it would work on her anyhow.
"What. .are you doing here?" I asked, closing my eyes against the pain of seeing her so close, but at the same time so far away.
"Do you want me to go?" she questioned. Did I really know the answer to that? A part of me said yes, but an even bigger part of me screamed no. I clinched my teeth together and answered, "No."
I looked at Billy now, trying to fixate my attention on anything but her soft, pale face. It would only hurt me more if I examined every part of her that wasn't mine. "How did you know I was here?" I asked him, my voice guarded.
"The pack, they heard your thoughts." he clarified, not looking at me. I growled, angry that they had the nerve to report my arrival. That's how she knew to come today. I shook my head, pinching the bridge of my nose.
"I'll leave you two alone. You need time to talk." my father said, wheeling himself out of the room.
I looked at Bella now with strained eyes. "So, why are you here? Gunna tell me you're pregnant?" the words spilled acidicly from my lips. I regretted them the minute I said them. After all, this wasn't her fault. She couldn't help the fact that she didn't love me enough.
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Bella's POV:
His words pierced me.Pregnant?
I wanted to stand up and slap him. How dare he ask me that?
Didn't he know that Edward and I could never…
We could never have children?
Didn't he know that the only children I had ever imagined…were his?
I watched Billy close the door behind him. He must have heard Jake's question, and knew that my anger would spill over uncontrollably.
But it didn't.
I bit the side of my lip and shook my head.
"No. I'm not." I whispered.
Why was I so sad?
I wrapped my arms around myself, suddenly cold. Suddenly feeling so alone. The sun in Jacob was covered by the clouds that I had brought over him. I looked at him, noticing that he wouldn't look at me.
Eye contact was out of the question.
"Jake…" I managed, pushing back my tears. I could not cry in front of him. No matter how badly I may have wanted to cry, and have him hold me in his warm arms.
Would I admit then that I missed him?
Would I admit then that I had thought over and over again about my "options?"
Was it wrong to love someone so much…but love someone else just as much?
"Bella…why are you here?"
I noticed he had tried for a third time, and I still hadn't answered.
"I miss you." I suddenly burst. I couldn't hold it anymore. Tears were streaming down my face.
Why did I have to be so vulnerable? Why couldn't I just tell him that I wanted to see him…without crying?
"Bella…" He started—I saw his hand extending a little; perhaps he wanted to reach out for me, but he stopped. "Please don't cry."
I wiped my tears, trying to cover my embarrassing moment, but I suddenly felt his warm fingers on my cheeks, wiping the water from eyes away.
"I hate it when you cry." He whispered.
His face was so close to mine.
"I miss you Jake." I repeated again, looking into his dark, brown eyes and he half smiled at me. "I miss you too Bella. More than you know."