A/N: Hey guys, I know I said I wouldn't write anything new, but I couldn't help it. This story is actually a little personal though. I mean I know I may not be the best writer, but I'm putting a lot of emotions that I have into it. It's starting off pretty slow because I'm not sure where I want to go with it. This is where I need opinions. Do you want a happy ending or a sad ending? Like I think I have a general plot idea, but I'm not sure. And incase you were wondering, the story isn't about Ryan's college life, it's more about his loneliness and how's dealing with it. Anyways like I said, it starts off pretty slow, so please bare with me here. And I need to know, do you want a happy or sad story?

Disclaimer: I don't own them. And if I did, pretty much all conservative parents would shoot me.

I can't believe how fast these four years have gone! It just seems like yesterday we were freshmen! But I'm glad to say it's finally over. Whatever you do in life, I know you'll succeed. Keep in touch man and best of luck to you in the future.

- Troy Bolton

Ryan read it over again and again. It brought tears to his eyes. It seems like it was yesterday when they graduated, when in fact it had already been a year after. He remembered how depressed it had made him. Knowing he'd never see Troy ever again. It was hard liking someone who didn't like you back. And the fact that he was already destined to be with someone made it even harder. Gabriella was lucky, she had brains, beauty, and the man of Ryan's dreams.

He couldn't help but wonder if they were still together, that and couldn't help but wonder how everyone else was doing. Taylor and Gabriella had decided to both go to Princeton, Chad stayed home at the local community college, Sharpay and Kelsi had both gotten into NYU, of course Sharpay had made Kelsi here roomate, he never found out what had happened to Troy though, and as for himself, he was enjoying life at UC Santa Barbara. The campus was beautiful and not only that, but it was right on the beach.

Finally putting his yearbook away, Ryan stepped out on the balcony of his small apartment and took in the breeze from the ocean. It calmed him. Letting the pain of the past slowly ease. If there's one thing Ryan regrets, its not having closure in his life. To this day, he still wishes he told Troy how he felt, regardless of whether Gabriella was with him or not. Even if he face rejection, it would have been an end to all of this.

Ryan took another glance at the beach and decided he'd go take a walk on the sand. If there was one thing that would clear his mind, it was walking. It gave him a chance to gather up all his jumbled thoughts and sort them through. He was glad to know he didn't have any classes for the day either. It was a day all to himself, pretty much everyday was like that.

The boy was lonely, I mean of course he'd get a call from his mother every other day or so, but other than that, he didn't really have any friends out here. Maybe a few acquaintances, but that was really it. And he and Sharpay had grown distant over the past year. They were practically on opposite sides of the country. Even though he kept telling himself he hated high school, he really did miss it. If he could do it all over again he would, maybe he'd change a few things, but other than that he really just wanted to have someone. When it all comes down to it, he was just more lonely than he wanted to admit.

Pulling his cell phone out of his pocket, he checked the time. 2:37pm. What was he going to do today? He'd finish all his homework the night before and he didn't know anyone well enough to hang out with. Really he was starting to come up with the conclusion that college life was depressing. Going through the numbers in his phone, he decided to call someone he knew would cheer him up.

After a few rings, she finally picked up.

"Hey Ryan. What's up?"

"Nothing much really, just bored. And thinking. A lot." He answered back.

"Well that's never good. You were thinking about him again weren't you?"

"Yeah, I don't know, I mean it just really bums me out you know? All I really want is closure."

"Maybe you should write him a letter explaining how you feel…"

"I thought about that, but there's one problem Martha and it's that I have no idea where he is."

"Well what I meant was, write it back home. Just address it to him, I'm sure he'll get eventually."

"That's not a bad idea actually. Martha you're the best."

"I know, I know. But if you ever decide to switch teams, you know who to call." She laughed.

"Don't worry babe, you're the first on my list. So how's school?" He asked.

"Ugh, stressful as always. You wouldn't happen to know the difference between phenotypes and genotypes would you?"

"No, but I do know that I'm glad I'm not taking whatever the hell your taking."

"Lucky you. Anthropology is so boring. I hate to cut this short Ry, but do you mind if I call you back later tonight?"

"That's fine, but if you don't I'm going to Twin Cities and kick your- hey what's with the laughing in the background?"

"Well apparently Annie, my roommate, was talking to one of her friends online and she showed the guy a map of the United States, which was labeled might I add, and he couldn't seem to find Wisconsin. Then he asked if Minneapolis was a city or a state. "

"You know even though none of that makes sense, I'm sure the guy's reason for not knowing is completely justified. I mean Wisco is like in the middle of nowhere. But I'll let you go now. Don't have too much fun."

"I'll try not to- Annie will you please put it on something good… and something that's not 'The Oc" and what's with the red pants with the dragon on them?- sorry Ry, Anyways, I'll call you later tonight."

Ryan laughed and closed his phone.

He really did wonder about how Troy was doing and where he was. Maybe he should get to writing that letter.

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Dear Troy,

I don't even know how to start this letter. Ever since I first laid eyes on you, I thought you were by far the most beautiful creature to walk this Earth. You were always nice to me and even though we weren't the closest of friends, you stood up for me whenever someone put me down for being who I am. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I love you. I've always loved you and I don't know what your reaction will be. To be honest I'm not even expecting a response from you, I just need to let you know how I feel. I just want closure Troy. Even if it means rejection which I totally understand. I'm sure you and Gabriella are still standing strong. I wish you the best Troy Bolton.

Love,

Ryan Evans

Ryan felt a little more at ease with the situation. He had Troy's address in his phone, so mailing it out wouldn't be a problem and hopefully he could put this all behind him. After putting the letter in the envelope, he licked it, and threw it in the mailbox.

"Where are you Troy Bolton?" Ryan asked aloud staring up at the night sky.

At that moment, a shooting star came shooting down to Earth, and Ryan made his wish.

Oh and yes he was talking to Martha Cox. Originally I had it as Kelsi, but I changed my mind because I hardly see Martha Cox in stories. BTW brownie points to anyone who can point out the fanfic author that made a cameo.