A figure sat alone in a dark room, listening to the voices and footsteps of his friends below. The figure looked around the room, seeing all the familiar belongings and remembering the past. He desperately wanted to join them but he couldn't force himself to fake it anymore. He wished he could smile and mean it but he just can't.

"... Why? Why do I feel like this?" The figure sighed to himself. Lifting himself out of the corner, he stood one last time in that room with those belongings, like saying one last goodbye to them. The dark figure then turned away from everything familiar and left the room never once looking back.

"Yo Hiyono! Where's Ayumu tonight?" A voice spoke over the pound of the music.

"I don't know. I think he might be up in his room. Said something about not feeling too well." Hiyono said looking in the direction of the voice. The voice, who happened to be the overly confidante and extremely cocky Kousuke Asazuki, was Ayumu Narumi's best friend. They had grown up together and are even taking the same classes at university.

"I think I'm gonna go up and get him. He spends too much time in there as it is."

"Alright Kousuke!" Hiyono nodded.

Kousuke headed up the stairs. Upon reaching the top, he took a left toward Ayumu's room. The door was slightly open and Kousuke peered in. The lights were off and Ayumu was nowhere in sight. He looked down the hall to see the bathroom light on. Kousuke turned and headed for the bathroom.

After knocking on the door, "Yo Ayumu! What're you doing up here? You should come down and hang out. It's a real party down there!" Kousuke paused; waiting for a reply but when he didn't receive one he knocked again, "Ayumu, are you in there? Hey, are you listening to me? I'm talking to you, don't ignore ME! Ayumu?"

Kousuke knocked again and again didn't get a response. This bothered Kousuke for Ayumu would always answer when it was him, so he decided to pick the lock. After high school, Kousuke had lived on the streets for a few years, this was before Ayumu smarted his ass up, and he learned a few... interesting things that helped him survive, picking locks was one of them. He jiggled the door handle a couple of times until it opened, Kousuke peered in slowly until he realized what he was looking at and throwing the door open he rushed to the side of his best friend.

Blood dripped from the edge of the tub onto the floor, the rest was soaking into the shirt and pants of his best friend who had slit his wrists and left himself there to die. Kousuke ripped the only towel off the rack, shredding it into two and wrapping each tightly around one of Ayumu's bleeding wrists. Lifting him carefully out of the bloody tub, Kousuke carried Ayumu back to his room and laid him gently onto the soft bedding. Kousuke checked to make sure there were no other wounds and then grabbed his cell phone from his pocket, after dialling 911 he proceeded to wait for the ambulance to arrive. Constantly, watching and checking over his injured friend, afraid of the worse.

It's been three days since Ayumu had tried... and Kousuke hasn't left his hospital room once, he won't even speak a word to anybody, I think he's waiting for Ayumu to wake up. Hiyono sighed to herself, staring through the glass window of the hospital door; she could see Kousuke sitting in a chair at the edge of the bed. Why? Why didn't you tell me, Kousuke? I'm still in shock over the whole thing. I remember a banging at the door and then the paramedics came bursting in. None of us knew what was going on until Kousuke came down the stairs with Ayumu in his arms. There was blood all over both of them, it was even dripping onto the floor and Kousuke wouldn't tell me what had happened. He just followed the paramedics out to the ambulance, going with Ayumu to the hospital. I asked one of the paramedics which hospital they were taking Ayumu to and our mutual friend Eyes drove me to the hospital in my car. I had to find out what had happened from one of the doctors so I'm guessing that Kousuke had to of told the paramedics what had happened and that's how the doctor found out.

"Wake up… you gotta wake up, Ayumu." Kousuke said into his hands, pushing his tinted yellow glasses into his eyes. "You know I'm nothing without you."

"You're going to break your favorite glasses if you keep doing that." A hoarse voice whispered.

"Ayumu! You're Awake! Are you okay? How are you feeling?" Kousuke's head snapped up.

"And you shouldn't say things like that, you aren't nothing." Ayumu forced a slight smile, despite the pain in his wrists. The cuts were deep and they had had to be stitched up. The doctor had told Kousuke any deeper and he would have cut his tendons, then he probably wouldn't have been able to use his hands anymore. Both heads then turned to see the door slamming into the wall. Hiyono came charging into the room with the doctor in tow.

"Ayumu are you alright? What do you think you were doing? Are you stupid or something?" Hiyono screamed, slapping him across the face. "You could have died!" A shaking hand reached up and gently rubbed the red mark on his cheek. Ayumu averted his gaze, staring at the sheets. "Well… Ayumu say something! Why won't you answer me?!?"

"Come on Hiyono, let's let the doctor do his thing then we can have our turn to talk with Ayumu." Kousuke said, slightly shoving her toward the door.

"But… but…" She sputtered, not even having a chance to reject.

"After." He said, shoving her the rest of the way out as the door clicked behind him.

Hiyono lead Kousuke down to the cafeteria where Eyes sat at a table sipping a cup of coffee. Considering that it was five in the morning and none of them had gone to sleep yet, he needed the caffeine, especially when dealing with a very upset Hiyono. Eyes glanced up from the magazine he was flipping through as Kousuke grabbed one of the chairs and sat down beside him. Hiyono walked over to the cafeteria counter and took one of the trays and after receiving her food she slowly moved back toward the table.

"So Ayumu has awoken then?" Eyes said calmly, knowing that it was the only explanation for Kousuke having left Ayumu's side.

"Yeah, the doctors are with him now." He nodded.

"When I get through with him the doctor's going to need to take another look at him." Hiyono huffed plopping down in the last chair. "And you Mr. Inconsiderate, not telling me what was happening! I can't believe you would leave me in the dark about my own boyfriend!" She stated loudly, pointing her finger at Kousuke.

"Would you just shut up for a bit? You're starting to give me a headache." Kousuke said, leaning his head in his hand.

"EXCUSE ME!!! How can you be such a jerk?" She shrieked, slamming her hands down on the table.

"Quite easily." Kousuke smirked. Hiyono just stuck her tongue out in response.

"Enough you two, we are in a hospital." Eyes took another sip of his coffee. "There are more interesting things we could be discussing, like why did Ayumu try to kill himself?"

"How the hell should I know?!" Kousuke said, crossing his arms and getting quite upset. He didn't like hearing about his friend doing something like that.

"Take it easy. I didn't mean to hit a nerve but the fact of the matter is that Ayumu did try to kill himself and I for one, as his friend, think we should find out why." Eyes said, in that confidante British voice of his.

"Well I'm going to find out right now." Hiyono said standing, sliding the chair across the floor.

"Wait for me, you idiot!" Kousuke got up and jogged to catch up with Hiyono at the elevator.

Back in the room, the doctor was just finishing examining and rebandaging Ayumu's wounds. "I made you an appointment with a psychiatrist. Don't worry, he's very good at what he does." The doctor looked down at Ayumu. Ayumu just glanced away. "It's obvious that you need one. And not talking isn't going to help you get better."

There was a knock at the door and it opened to reveal Hiyono. "How's it going? Are you just about finished, doctor?" The doctor could see Kousuke standing just behind her for the bright red hair was Kousuke's unique identifying trait.

The doctor nodded his head, "Yes we're all done here." He walked around the end of the bed towards the door, stopping in front of Hiyono. "I made him an appointment with a psychiatrist for tomorrow at 3pm. Make sure he goes."

Kousuke closed the door behind the doctor, he then proceeded to sit himself down in his usual chair next to Ayumu's bed. "Yo!" Kousuke said, his usual trademark statement and a two fingered salute, "So how are you feeling?" Ayumu said nothing, just turned to look at his best friend.

Hiyono slowly sat down in the other chair. "Ayumu… tell me? Tell me why you did this to yourself?" Those brown eyes lowered their gaze to the sheets. "Why won't you talk to me? You won't even look at me. Tell me why? Ayumu please." She begged, staring at the brown bangs hiding the boys' eyes.

"I'm moving out." A low whisper escaped Ayumu's lips.

"What?" Both Hiyono and Kousuke gasped at the same time.

Ayumu lifted his head to look straight into Kousuke emerald eyes, "I want to move in with you. If you'll let me?" He said hoarsely, his throat dry from lack of use. Blinking and in shock at the question, Kousuke didn't know how to answer.

"But why Ayumu? Why would you want to move out? I thought we were happy living together?" Hiyono's voice crackled as she tried to hold back the tears. "You still want to be with me right? You're not breaking up with me, are you?"

Ayumu refused to make eye contact with her, he continued to stare only at his best friend, "Will you let me? Will you let me move in with you Kousuke?" Ayumu's chocolate eyes seemed to plead with Kousuke's emerald ones.

"Sure! Why not, you did help me out when I was in that rut way back just after high school. Besides you know I'm always gonna be there for ya, right Ayumu?" He said almost asking, shrugging his shoulders with a smirk.

Hiyono looked back and forth from one to the other, "Have you forgotten Kousuke, that you only have a one bedroom apartment? Where is Ayumu going to sleep? How is he going to get better sleeping on the floor?" She huffed, frustrated with the both of them.

"Ayumu can take my room; I'll sleep on the couch, it does pull out into a bed after all. No big deal Hiyono." Kousuke glanced over to Ayumu, who was refusing to avert his gaze from him.

"I can't believe you two! Why can't you just tell me what's going on?" Hiyono screamed angrily, standing up. "Fine then, be that way! See if I care!" As she stormed out of the room, taking one last look at Ayumu before turning the corner.

"Geez, what's her problem?" Kousuke said grinning at Ayumu. A small grin crossed Ayumu's face, the first any had seen in a long time and Kousuke thought that was a good sign.

The next day, ten minutes to three o'clock to be exact, Hiyono came busting into the hospital room followed by Kousuke, waking Ayumu from a very peaceful sleep. He mumbled something about waking people when they're in the hospital recovering, Ayumu then rolled over to face the far side of the room.

"Wakey, wakey!" Hiyono sang cheerfully, skipping up to the edge of the bed.

"Go away." The figure said, pulling the blankets up over his head.

"Come on, time to get up! You have that meeting today." She grabbed the blankets and yanked on them. Ayumu, who was still holding the blankets, winced loudly as they were ripped from his hands, "Oh, I'm so sorry Ayumu! I didn't mean to hurt you." Hiyono said, reaching out and touching his shoulder.

Moving out from under her touch, "Just go away, I don't want to see any nut case today or anyone for that matter."

"Come on man, it's the doctors' orders. You gotta go." Kousuke said, trying to reason with the bundle under the covers.

"I don't care what the damn doctors think. They're just as crazy."

"Get up! Don't make me drag you there!" Hiyono stated firmly, putting her hands on her hips. Ayumu laid still for a moment before rolling over and uncovering himself. Mumbling to himself, Ayumu sat up. Kousuke helped him put his housecoat on before the three of them left the hospital room and headed down the hall towards the psychiatrists' office.