This is a onesided Jude x Caitlin oneshot...or is it?

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It was a secret she had been keeping for months. No body knew that she had these feeling but her. It was one of the reasons that she practically threw herself at every other cute guy in the mall. It was one of the reasons she claimed that every single guy could be "The One". She was trying to forget him, well not him persay, but her feelings for him. She thought he was cute, adorable even. They way he talked, the way he dressed, his whole attitude on life. She loved everything about him.

But he had a girlfriend already, one that he really liked, and in her eyes she could see that he and his girlfriend were practically soulmates. She couldn't do that to him, she couldn't ruin his first real relationship. She was his friend, and no matter how much she wanted him...she wouldn't step in between them. So she kept her feelings hidden behind an airhead, boycrazy attitude. She looked everywhere, hoping to find a guy that would drive loving thoughts of her cute friend out of her mind. It was hopeless.

She dated boys that were cuter than him, smarter than him, boys that noticed her as dating material. Some of them were so romantic, they tried to get close to her but somehow she always pushed them away. Others were jerks, cheaters, or rich snobs. When she looked back on all of the guys she had dated, she was ashamed of herself most of the time, for the way she used or was used by those boys. There had been a few guys, like Talon, that she really tried with. She was was convinced that somekind of bad karma from another life was coming back for her, because nothing ever worked out.

When her secret love started having problems with his girlfriend, she tried to help out. She saw it as the only possible thing she could do. When his girlfriend started hanging out with the goths, changed her name, and started wearing black he was scared. He just couldn't understand how someone could change that dramatically over the space of one night. He still wanted to be with her, no matter how much she'd changed, so he asked her to help him become a goth just like his girlfriend. She did a miracle and turned him into a whole other person on the outside, her heart ached on the inside for what he was willing to go through for his girlfriend. Pretending to be be something that he was not was something he was against. But he did it anyway.

It didn't work out, and it always seemed as if his girlfriend had used the goth excuse to break up with him. She told him that she just wanted to go out and meet new people...but of course that was girl code for wanting to meet new boys. His girlfriend was just maturing faster than he was, gone was her airheadedness (a/n I KNOW THAT'S NOT A WORD) she was on to bigger, more serious things.

He was still a forgetful, confused, relaxed skater boy, and she needed more than that. She needed space without being tied down. What Starr had dumped him for, Caitlin still loved him for. Even though she was maturing to in her own ways. She found herself listening more intently to what he said, watching him when she should be handing out lemon drinks...there were even a few times, those rare moments where it was just the two of them at the lemon, when if felt to her like they were bonding. But as soon as their other friends showed up, it was like the connection disappeared.

Jude moved on after Starr dumped him. It took him a while, but he did. When the two first broke up, Caitlin didn't even think about the fact that she know had a chance with him. It wouldn't be right for a friend to do in his time of need. Besides, he might just used her as a rebound without even realizing it, and the last thing she wanted to do was confuse her poor friend more. And then, when she wasn't expecting it, he started dating again. Oh just random girls, some she met, some she didn't, but they never lasted as long as Starr had. Caitlin even suspected, that deep down, he still had feelings for Starr.

Caitlin could never sum up the courage to tell him she loved him, or to tell anyone else. It might have been nice to have some support in this department, but she knew if she told her friends they would try to meddle. And meddling never ended up well. As recklessly as she threw herself into relationships with other boys, she never feared rejection from them, what did she have to loose?

But when it came to Jude, her recklessness abandoned her, replaced by her damned common sence. So many things could go wrong, and she feared that rejection from him might break her. Not just her heart, but her entire being. So she loved her little blond skater boy from afar, day dreaming and acheing to tell him how she felt. She threw herself into more relationships, but never really tried. Sometimes her subconsious got rid of them for her.

"Hey Cait, whats up?" Jude glided up to the lemon on his precious skateboard. Flipping it up he caught it, and slumped down into one of the chairs. "One lemon soothie please and make it pronto." Caitlin smiled softly, "Okay Jude."

When she handed him his drink he looked up at her curiously. She almost melted when she saw concern for her in his ocean blue eyes. "Hey bra, is there...you know...anything wrong?" He asked her hesitantly.

Caitlin looked confused for a moment. "What do you mean Jude? I'm fine."

Jude shrugged, "I dunno, you just looked kinda down...did ummm...whats his name dump you?" Jude scratched his head trying to figure out the name of Caitlins last beau. Caitlin just thought it was so cute...but eventually she remembered to stop staring at him and answered his question.

"Yeah, I guess he just wasn't The One..." She trailed off, nearly hating the sound of that phrase. She must have spaced out a bit cause Jude waved a hand in front of her face to get her attention. "Bra? Bra...?"

"What?...oh Jude...sorry...for spacing out...I seem to be doing that alot lately..." She blushed at being caught up in her thoughts.

"Well dudette how about we go catch a movie? Board Warriors 4 is coming out today!" He was so enthusiastic that Caitlin felt she had no choice but to shut down the lemon and go see it. "Sure Jude, just let me shut down the lemon."

She smiled over at her innocent friend as they made their way to the theater. Yeah, her friendship with him was way to important to risk, not matter how much stronger than friendship her feelings were. She thought she might be okay if they stayed as close as they were

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Okay guys I hoped you liked it. This is ment to be a one shot right now, but if your really like it I may end up posting up 3 more chapters for it. One from Jude's POV, one from their friends POV, and of course the final chapter...will they get together? Maybe, it all depends on you.

See ya in a while maybe, in another story if not this one.

Icarus Out.