Title: Kiss
Author: youkohieifan
Fandom: Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicles
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Kurogane/Fai
Qoute: 'The kiss was the only convincing part.'
Notes: Yaoi, spoilers for Acid Tokyo arc.
Red eyes stared at the man across the room, the eyes saw how the man thought no one was paying any attention to him and how sad the blonde looked. He knew that sadness, had exprienced it once, long ago, had relived that overwhelming chasm of grief when he saw how his companions had suffered, how they still suffered.
The blonde across from him had finally come out of his thoughts to realize that he was being watched. The pursed lips were replaced by an overly bright smile, but for a long time now, Kurogane had seen the cracks in the gesture. Fai faltered under the only one who truly saw through him, he averted his own gaze, not trusting what his remaining eye would reveal to the ninja.
Fai tried a little bit harder to convince Kurogane that he's smiles were real, he even tried harder to tease the man. Yet the ninja would pierce through the cracked mask and see his true face. It worried the vampire, it worried him more than anything else had, but he knew it was inevitable.
Kurogane was the second person to ever go to such lengths for him, the first to ever care for him in a way that had Fai frightened and lighthearted all at once. The blonde knew what those looks meant, knew things that Kurogane had just recently realized himself.
Fai smiled again at the man, happy for once that the children were gone. Red eyes continued to bare down on him. Suffocating him with thoughts he was too tired to deal with at the moment. He rose from his seat, Kurogane followed him to their shared room.
Both sat on the itchy covers of their too small bed. Fai cursed it, because it forced them to sleep too close to eachother at night. The ninja sat beside him, holding his wrist up in an offer. Fai looked at the limb, eyes narrowing as he hated how he now craved the man's blood, it too brought up too many thought's he wished he didn't have.
Fai wrapped a hand around the lightly scarred wrist, pushing it gently against the faded covers. He smiled again, Kurogane glared. Using his free hand Fai cupped the side of Kurogane's neck, leaing in to sink his newly acquired fangs into tan flesh. Kurogane grunted at the sharp sensation of Fai's fangs imbedded in his neck.
Both could fell the hot blood trickling down the ninja's neck. Fai drank greedily, lapping at the few drops that escaped. He could feel Kurogane shiver around his touches. Fai was remorseful that this was as close as he could ever be to the man, and Kurogane saddened because he knew that things woul never truly be the same.
Fai finished, using his saliva to heal the puncture wounds he had caused. Neither looked at eacother, their bodies still close enough to were they could feel eachothers body heat. Fai lowered his hand from the other's neck, as if feeling burned by the small contact.
Blue eyes met red as they stared at eachother, an awkward silence filtering between them. Both fidgeting at the incomfortable situation. Yet had dared to move away from there close proximity, not wanting to break whtever it was keeping them there.
Kurogane reached slowly for one of Fai's pale hands, holding it aloft in his own. The mage stared down at the intwined fingers thinking that this was too close, that it was far more intimate than drinking the other's blood had ever been.
Kuorgane was the one to intiate the first move. He had brushed his lips against Fai's, pulling back quickly in a sudden bout of fear and uneasiness. Fai stared with a wide eye, not truly knowing how he should act to his first kiss, but he knew how he wanted to react to the ninja's offer.
For once, he supposed, he would give in to what the man beside him wanted. Fai reached for Kurogane, the taller man's shirt crumpled in his hands, as the ninja was pressed firmly against the blonde. Kurogane was moved on top of the smaller figure, both were lost to desires that, before this moment, had been nothing but late night dreams and whispered hopes.
Hands touched everywhere, leaving not an inch of skin untouched or unloved. Red eyes scanned the unmarred flesh beneath him, remembering the look of it as his harsh breath's washed over sensitive skin. Kurogane would commit this to memory, because he knew afterwards that this was all it would be.
Fai's own heated breath mingled in the cool air as he stared at the man above him, both would regret this later. He knew this wasn't right, knew they should have waited until everything was resolved, but for now he wanted Kurogane and Kurogane wanted him, so what did it matter?
Arched backs and muffled cries and it's over, both collapse bonelessly onto the itchy bed. It was all over, both had done something that terrified them. They had changed and with both of them curling towards the other, sweat drying on cooling skin, they knew that neither of them could want this, that neither of them could fall in love.
Neither could afford to fall in love, despite what the thoughts they both had that whispered otherwise. Fai closed the gap between them, returning the kiss Kurogane had given him. The ninja returned the second kiss willingly. It was the mage that broke what should have been a tender moment.
Fai lifted himself from the bed, gathering his discarded clothes and dressing. He walked back towards the bed, he didn't look behind him as he lay down. Kurogane was lying on his side, staring at the wall, not wanting to look at the other.
Fai curled in on himself, wanting badly to turn around, but he had caused enough damage already.The ninja waited until he could hear the soft breathing of the blonde, before turing around. He stared at the man's back, wandering if things would ever get better between them.
He rolled onto his back, staring at the cracking ceiling above them, his hand touched deftly at his dry lips, a thoughful look washing over him.Kurogane would later halve to admit stubbornly that the kiss was the only convincing part.