Chapter 3
Conrad's POV
So, the 'thing' Yuuri was so confused about was my brother…
I sighed. He's been telling me his feelings on the matter and how, just recently, the Great Sage has confessed to have some attraction towards my brother and he was feeling confused onto his feelings towards Wolfram. He also mentioned that there's no more time since Geika was going to take Wolfram away by Christmas, which is tonight at midnight…
I might ask for pardon for thinking this, but Yuuri's being an idiot. If he didn't care, if he didn't have feelings for Wolfram, then he wouldn't even be confused in the first place, right? Geika's probably right that Yuuri is too prejudiced. Now, I'm not quite sure where I should entrust my brother to…
Yuuri has feelings for Wolfram, I can tell, but he's still yet to realize it, and when he does, it might already be too late. If he wants Wolfram, he needs to realize it now.
"Conrad? What should I do? I…"
I sighed and put my hand on Yuuri's shoulders, "Yuuri, you should forget any prejudiced thoughts on the matter and think. Do you or do you not love my brother? Are you prepared to lose him to Geika? Will you be sad if you lose his attention to somebody else?" and so on. I continued to ask other questions…
"Yuuri, do you love Wolfram as a fiancé?"
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Yuuri's POV
"Do you love Wolfram as a fiancé?"
Conrad was cruel, leaving me with such a question. He left to give me time to ponder. Murata gave me until midnight, but by that time, it might already be too late… too late…
If I think that it'll be too late and I know I'll feel regrets when that happens, isn't that enough proof that I have feelings for Wolfram? That I'm afraid to lose him to somebody else? I sighed. I need to be more convinced…
I lied on the bed and thought about the times I had spent with Wolfram. Now that I thought about it, Wolfram was the only one; he was the only one giving and giving his share. I never did anything but push him away. I never gave him the reason to hold on and yet…
…there he was…
I would miss it, his attention, if it were to be given to somebody else but that's not all… I thought about that time when I saw him with Murata. I felt… jealous? Was it really jealousy? Is it jealousy when you want to strangle the person who's standing beside him instead of you? If it is, then yes, I was jealous.
Conrad said to remove my personal bias and think about how I feel… how I truly feel… without any concern whether Wolfram is man or woman… without thinking of it… It's hard since I was thought it was bad for two men to be together, that was the principle I've lived all my life, am I willing to change that? To forget it for him?
Do I love Wolfram as a fiancé?
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Wolfram walked in the corridors with Murata. He's already changed into his blue uniform and has just finished training his troops.
"Ken, you said that those lights would be prettier at night. How so? The sun's gone…" Murata just smiled at the prince's naivety on the matter. "It'll be prettier, precisely because the sun's gone…" the sage said as he led the blonde prince through the garden once more.
They reached the spot where they stood just a few hours ago. Wolfram's eyes widen at the sight. He smiled at the Great Sage, "It's beautiful…" he said as he marveled the bright lights that now surrounded the two of them.
'its beauty pales when you stand there…' the Sage thought as he led Wolfram to a bench nearby, and there, they sat together.
It was a cold night, they noted, but they were close together so…
…it really wasn't that cold…
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Yuuri's POV
It's already dinner time, and a private ball was organized by Günter. It was just us so it was easy to spot those who weren't there and my heart sank… Murata and Wolfram…
Where are they? A frown was plastered on my face, I know, but I can't help it. How the hell can I make my move when he isn't even here!? I did… I realized after a long day of thinking, that yes, I do… I love him as a fiancé…
I never thought I'd feel like this… I always thought that I'd be looking forward to the day I rid myself of Wolfram but now… I feel afraid… I'm scared to lose him to someone who can easily take him away… I remember them kissing and I winced. I don't want that moment to come…
'…once I have him, you'll never have him back…'
If so, then I won't let you have him, Murata… Just where are you!? A hand placed itself onto my shoulder. I looked up and saw Conrad. He smiled, "So you've thought it over?" It was more of a statement than a question but I still nodded. "Wolfram…" I whispered.
"You can go look for him, Yuuri…" he said and I stood up immediately. "Thank you…" I said before running at top speed to wherever my feet took me. It's not like I actually know where they are. Let's just hope they aren't in one of the rooms…
No, I don't think Murata's like that, and Wolfram wouldn't betray me like that, right? After all, we're still betrothed to each other even if I failed to show my acknowledgement. I grimaced as I ran through the dark corridors.
'Wolfram, I promise I'll make it up to you, the times I failed to acknowledge you, and the times I rejected you… I'll show you how much I love you everyday…
…I'll give everything…
…I'll do anything…
…just please…
…please tell me I'm not too late…'
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Murata's POV
"So, what made you decide to spend this Christmas Eve with me?" I asked as I looked at the mazoku prince. He was still gazing at the Christmas lights surrounding us in the garden. His head lowered in a sad smile, "Nothing… I guess, I just wanted to… run away from reality for a while…"
I remained silent, waiting for him to continue, "I guess, I'm just preparing myself to let go of Yuuri… I've been holding on far longer than I should have…" I closed my eyes, there're only a few minutes before midnight… I smiled at him, sincerely.
"You don't need to worry. I'm here to catch you after you let go…" I said as I pulled him closer. He leaned onto my embrace, "Why? Why can't Yuuri be like you? Why can't Yuuri be the one who tells me those things?" he said silently. "I guess because we're different…" I said softly.
I heard him laugh bitterly, "Yeah, you're right… He'll never be like you… he'll never hold me like this as he feels disgusted just by the thought of being my fiancé…" he said with sadness in his tone.
"Wolfram…"
Will you make it in time, Shibuya?
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Only a few minutes more…
"Wolfram..." I called softly as I cradled his face in my hands once more. I brushed his locks away from his eyes. He looked beautiful… I know it's spiteful of me but I do wish, I know that I wish… that Shibuya would not make it, so Wolfram would be mine… but the side of me that is Shibuya's best friend, is preventing me from making any more moves than I already am…
Hurry, before I give up on you, Shibuya…
"Ken, what's wrong?" his voice asked as I looked into his deep green eyes. It was enthralling, everything about him… "Nothing…" I heard my voice say.
I leaned closer; I saw his green eyes closer as well. I smiled, "Wolfram…" I muttered. His eyes softened as he muttered my name. His breath was touching my face. "Ken, I…" he trailed away. I nodded, "You're not sure if you can give Shibuya up just yet…" I said as a statement and he shook his head.
"I can… I'm just not sure if it's the right thing to do…" he said as he cast his eyes downward. I took his chin and made him look at me in the eye. I breathed slowly… and made my confession…
"I love you…"
I'm sorry Shibuya…
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Yuuri's POV
I ran, even though I was already out of breath… I continued to run… I needed to find Wolfram! There's no more time left! Only a few more minutes! I need to find them!
I ran through the place I found myself that morning…
…the place I saw them kiss…
I winced at the thought. Even if it was just for a custom… It was still a kiss… I looked around and saw some kind of light emitting from somewhere nearby. I walked as I tried to catch my breath, towards the source of light. I walked a bit further more…
My eyes widen as I saw thousands of Christmas lights attached to the plants in that area. It was beautiful. My eyes widen more as I saw Murata's face inches from Wolfram.
"I love you…" I heard him say. My mouth fell open as my heart pumped harder. He confessed… He…
"Wolfram…" I muttered as I revealed myself from the shadows. Both of them looked at me. Murata looked at me nonchalantly, I couldn't care less of the reason right now… but Wolfram looked… sad… what's wrong? He's never looked like that when he's around me before… but now…
My breath hitched, "Wolfram…" I said again as I pulled him out of Murata's embrace and into mine. I hugged him tightly, "Wolfram, I'm… I'm sorry… I never realized… I didn't…" I was panting really hard; my heart was beating faster than I thought it could ever beat. I didn't know what I was saying…
"Wolfram! Please tell me I'm not too late…" I said finally with a sob of desperation. Please tell me I'm not… please…
I heard him breathe deeply, almost like a sob… "Yuuri…" he whispered. I hugged him tighter, "No! I won't… I won't let you go…" I said and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face… Was I too late? Has he given up?
"I'm sorry…"
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Wolfram's POV
"Wolfram! Please tell me I'm not too late…" he said with a sob. Was he crying? I closed my eyes and bit back tears… why now?
"Yuuri…" I muttered softly, careful not to break down. He hugged me tighter, "No! I won't… I won't let you go…" he said with a hint of desperation. I took a glance at Ken and I saw him smiling at me… he looked at me with a smile…
…a sad smile…
It made me lose control and cry… "I'm sorry…" I muttered as I pulled away from Yuuri. I walked towards Ken. "Wolfram… please…" I heard Yuuri say. I ignored him… I can deal with him later…
I hugged Ken and he hugged me back, "I'm sorry… I couldn't let go…" I muttered, I sobbed a bit. I can't believe I'm hurting the only one who extended his hand, the only one who understood… but I couldn't… I just couldn't let go of Yuuri… "I'm a spoiled brat after all…" I said as tears stained my cheeks. I don't care if it's embarrassing or what anymore…
I felt him shake his head in disapproval. "No… you deserve this… everything…" he said softly with a crack in his voice. I hugged him tighter… I'm so sorry… "You should go and calm him down. I think he took it the wrong way…"
I looked around and saw Yuuri on the ground, crying. My eyes softened, that wimp… Ken is the one who's supposed to be crying like that… I turned to Ken and hugged him again. "Ken, I'll be here for you too… Please, let me repay you…" I said and let go of him…
…thank you…
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'I'm sorry…'
He muttered softly as he pulled away from my embrace. "Wolfram…please…" I said but he walked away from me and hugged Murata. My heart sank even deeper than before. I couldn't hold myself. I fell on my knees… I couldn't believe my ears…
I was too late… Murata kept his promise…
How stupid was I? How could I have not seen Wolfram when he was standing right in front of me? Why was I so prejudiced about this whole thing? How could I have not realized until it was too late? How can I be such a fool!?
'I'm not a prejudiced fool like you, Shibuya.'
He was right, I was a prejudiced fool. But I overcame it… I changed my beliefs in this short span of time… I accepted everything… I never really thought I could lose Wolfram to anyone until Murata rubbed it in my face. Wolfram had such a firm hold, I never thought he would let go…
But he did…
'…once I have him, you'll never have him back…'
Please…
…let me have him for one last time…
…Shinou…
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"Yuuri…"
I looked up to see him smiling at me. I felt tears well up even more. "Wolf…" I couldn't even finish his name. I sobbed. I hugged him tighter than I ever thought I could. "Wolfram…"
"Please…" I muttered, "Please tell me that I'm not too late… That you're still mine…"
He hugged me back, "Always…"
I felt my heart leap and my tears flowed more, "I love you…" I said as I held his face in my hand. I drew him closer…
"…I love you too…"
…and we kissed…
It felt amazing, being with him like this. I wasn't too late, and I'm happy for it… Something cold touched my cheek and we pulled apart as we looked into the night's sky.
"It's snowing…"
"Yeah"
We looked at each other, "I'm glad you realized… I was seriously thinking of giving you up…" he said as he smiled at me. I pulled him for another kiss, "Don't ever think about it…" I said. I don't want to lose him… ever…
I'll never let go…
…never…
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Murata's POV
"I'm sorry…"
He muttered and I knew it wasn't for Shibuya. I closed my eyes as I knew he was crying. He went towards me and hugged me. I hugged him back…
"I'm sorry… I couldn't let go…" he muttered, "I am a spoiled brat after all…"
I shook my head, "No… you deserve this… everything…" I said softly. I let him go, "You should go and calm him down. I think he took it the wrong way…" I added. Shibuya made it just in time. Wolfram hugged me again…
"Ken, I'll be here for you too… Please, let me repay you…" he said as he let go. I smiled sadly… There's no need to repay me… Just be happy…
…that's all the payment I need…
'I thought you wouldn't let go as soon as he became yours?' Shinou's voice echoed through my head. I smirked a bit. Shinou…
"He was never mine… never…"
Yes, he was always his… always… even if he let go, he would've returned if Shibuya willed it. There was actually nothing to be worried about. He was so dense as to not realize that…
'Well, you fulfilled your promise… at the very least, my sage…'
"Geika, is it really fine?" Yozak asked.
I looked at the sky; the snow looked beautiful as it glistened with the light from the Christmas lights…
I smiled, "It's fine. I completed my mission…"
Shibuya, you better take care of him or I won't hesitate the next time…
"Let's not bother them… you too…" I muttered to the two figures hiding behind the shadows.
"Geika…" Gwendal and Conrad greeted.
"Saa, it'll be a cold night tonight…"
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Yuuri's POV
Here I am now, standing with the person I thought I lost for good. I looked at him and I smiled. I'm glad I wasn't too late… He looked at me, "Are you really sure?" he asked uneasily. I frowned.
"Of course I am… it took me a great deal of effort to realize it though, but I'm sure…" I said as I drew him closer once more… I smiled at him, and he sighed with a smile…
"Just don't let go, alright Yuuri?"
"Never…" I muttered, "Merry Christmas, Wolfram…" it was indeed a season to spend with the one you love… I never would've experienced this now if it weren't for him, the person I wanted to strangle, I noted. I need to apologize somehow.
I looked at Wolfram, and we kissed once more…
On second thought, that can wait…
…thank you, Murata…
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a/n: What the!? I actually made this fic in ONE DAY! WHAT!?
Anyways, I just did this now and so, I don't know if it's well-written and I actually don't think it is… I'm still confused and it didn't turn out the way it should've again… Sorry if I disappointed you!
R&R…