Story summary Light finds out he has feelings for L. problem is he doesn't think it will work out. Soon he finds out it could. LEMON/LIME yaoi (lightxL slash)

Chapter summary light realizes he has feelings for L but he tries to hide it. Not the smartest idea.

CH.1

L took another bite of cake, looked up and started talking to matsuda about another theory he had about kira. His thick black hair messy as could be like always, his beautiful black eyes darting from matsuda to light, his pale skin brushing past his dark hair. Light couldn't help but look something about L made light content. He smiled.

"What do you think light" L asked

Light stared into ryuuzaki's eyes not even realizing he had been asked a question.

"Light!" L said loudly

Light blinked shook his head and looked up past L's eyes at his forehead seeing if he could look past what made L so irresistible. "What" light asked.

"I asked you what you thought" L said a little irritated that light wasn't paying attention, but also a little worried because light had never spaced out before during a meeting.

"Uh" light started " 'crap I don't know what he said I'll have to wing it' well it's a pretty good Idea you should try it." Light smiled crookedly as he looked at L hoping he would buy it.

"Alright then you heard him let's try it out" L said to the investigators

L looked back at light but he was gone. He was definitely not himself. L got up and went to look for him.

His first thought was the bathroom and he was right. When he reached the door he could hear light.

Light kicked over a garbage can and walked over to the mirror. "Calm down light, pull it together." Light knew L was outside the door and wasn't about to let him know that he was kira, but that wasn't the only problem now he had some sort of feeling for L. Light breathed in deeply and opened the door

L standing against the wall look up at light.

"Ryuuzaki?" light looked at him with a false confusion

"Are you alright light-kun you weren't yourself during the meeting" L asked him

Lights eyes widened just for a second before he answered "I'm fine just a little tired I had a lot of homework last night and didn't get much sleep."

That night, light was still not himself. He couldn't stop thinking about that meeting. He couldn't do anything but think of L, he couldn't even eat. "I'm going to bed" he told his mother as he walked upstairs. Maybe a little sleep would calm his nerves. Problem was he couldn't sleep either. He laid in his bed and the same feeling during the meeting ran through his head as he thought of L. this was no normal feeling. It was the same feeling he felt for misa only extremely stronger. Love. He loved L, his mortal enemy. He looked at the time 3:06 am. He closed his eyes hoping, now that he knew what the feeling was, he could go to sleep. Nothing happened he opened his eyes and looked at the time again 3:15 am. What was wrong. He thought about how beautiful L was and how much feeling he had for him. He couldn't think of anything that would keep him up. He laid in his bed, eyes wide open until 7:00.

He got out of bed and got dressed. Luckily he didn't have to go to into the IPO today. He decided to visit misa. Who was already at his house when he opened the door.

"Misa?" he asked

"Misa-misa decided today would be a good day to hang out with light" she said "does light want to hang out with misa?"

"Sounds good" he replied with a smile

They walked around town. Light was hoping to find a place to eat but every time he saw food he wasn't hungry anymore. Misa was hoping to find a good place to shop.

"Light is very quiet" misa said as she turned to look at light "is something wrong with light"

Light shook his head and replied "no everything is fine" he said as he smiled again

"Good misa misa doesn't want something bad to happen" she smiled and started to walk again

Light looked at her while she walked he still cared for her but something was different. He didn't feel the same since he found out he loved L.

"This place is perfect " she said as she pointed toward a clothing store "can misa-misa go in"

"Sure" he said as she ran into the store

Light walked in after her and stood over by the window while watching her pick out 30 different things to try on. After they were done light decided to try to see if he was hungry yet, but he wasn't. Just the thought of food made him almost puke. Since light wasn't hungry he and misa decided to walk around a little more.

By the end of the day light was out of cash and misa had enough clothes to last her forever.

As light walked misa home he couldn't stop thinking about L. he had to figure out a way to get this thought out of his mind so he could eat and sleep.

Finally they were at misa's house

"Good night" misa said. Then leaned in for a kiss

Light kissed her as she wanted, but it felt strange. He was hoping it would make the feeling for her stronger but it didn't actually it made it worse. He felt weird kissing someone who he liked but didn't love.

He pulled back "good night" he said as if in a hurry. Misa entered her house and light walked home alone.

As he walked home he did think of an option he had so he could eat and sleep. He could tell ryuuzaki how he felt, but that was out of the question. If L was straight it would be extremely awkward. And if he wasn't then how would he confront misa. Both ways didn't work out for him.

As he got into bed he stared at the ceiling knowing he wasn't going to be able to fall asleep.

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5 days had past. Light still hadn't been able to sleep or eat and he had to go into IPO today on request from L. he got dressed slowly. He felt horrible his hair was a mess and his face was as pale as a ghost and he was really shaky but he wasn't going to let all that stop him.

As he entered the doors everyone looked at him. He thought it was because he was 15 minutes late but that wasn't the only reason. As he sat down L started the meeting.

It was a normal meeting it didn't take very long. Except for light who thought it took forever.

When the meeting ended L stood up to go get some coffee, but light stopped him.

"ryuuzaki…can I t-talk…to…..you for ..A second" light said between his slow shaky breath.

"Okay…" L replied

They walked into a different room where none was. L could tell he wasn't okay he could barely walk or for that matter stand.

"Alright light you have my attention what is it." He said in a very concerned tone

He closed his eyes for a second scared of the reaction L was going to make after this. "I can't take it anymore" he started. L looked at him confused, but suspicious. "I………I love you." Light finished.

L widened his eyes at what light just said, until light started to wobble and then fall to the floor from lack of energy. L ran over to him to feel his pulse. 'He's still breathing' he thought to himself. "Help, help I need help in here." L screamed.

Yagami and Matsuda were the first to run in. they immediately noticed light on the floor and L beside him.

"What the hell happened" Yagami screamed.

"No time for explanation call 911" L said

L didn't know what to do this had never happened to someone he loved more than family.

Soon an ambulance was at the front door of the building getting light in the back.

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L waited in the waiting room.

Soon a doctor came out telling him and the others they could go back to see light but he still wasn't awake.

L walked in with matsuda, Yagami, and the rest of lights family behind him. He sat down and looked at light as lights mother sobbed next to him. Light had many machines around him telling his blood pressure, heart rate, breathing ability, and all sorts of things. It was a little weird.

It was hours before light woke up. Everyone was gone except L who was asleep in a chair next to him. He thought of what happened. It wasn't a dream he had told L how he felt. What was going to happen now?

L started to lift his head. Light looked over to see him rubbing his eye.

"Raito-kun...you're awake." L said in a relieved tone

Light didn't say anything he just stared at him.

"About what you said earlier." L started.

Lights eyes widened. He wasn't ready for this.

"I feel the same."

Stay tuned for chapter 2