Holy cow! I AM alive! Guys, I am so sorry this has taken me so long to get out. You have no idea how many times I started it and ended up scrapping it again.

I know it's been almost a year, but I hope you guys enjoy this! I'm not sure when the next chapter will be up, but I will get it out as soon as I'm happy with it and get it back from my beta (who I'm sure is happy to be back to work lol)

Anyway, enjoy the sequel!

Abomination

Chapter One

-Carth-

Earlier that night

My conflicting emotions were not allowing me to sleep. Revan's even breathing next to my ear was the only thing keeping me calm.

On the one hand, I felt like the luckiest man in the entire galaxy. The war was finally over. Malak had been defeated by the most extraordinary woman in the universe - the same woman who would soon be Mrs. Carth Onasi, and we would soon be heading back to Telos.

I was more than a little eager to get back to my home planet. Not only to begin my new life with the woman that I loved, but to reunite with my son, Dustil. I had high hopes that we would be able to rebuild all of those years that had been stolen from us. It would be long, hard journey, but it would be worth it.

It seemed like all of the pieces of my life's puzzle was finally falling into place.

But nothing can ever go perfect for me.

I couldn't get rid of this horrible feeling that was plaguing me. I felt it when the Star Forge was destroyed.

But then, my worst fears were realized.

Revan had been talking in her sleep was what originally woken me up. When she started, I feared that it was the beginning of yet another nightmare.

"I'm so sorry, Carth."

"I have to leave."

"Please don't do this, Carth. I have to go."

When I finally managed to wake her and confront her about it, she didn't say a word. She simply gave me a look that chilled me to the core. It wasn't an angry one, but one of pure and utter sadness, mixed with loneliness and fear. Then she closed her eyes again and snuggled closer to me.

I couldn't sleep after that. My mind was working overtime. Was it just a dream? Was she really planning on leave? If she was, why?

I waited until I knew she was asleep before I got up quietly and went in search for T3. I found him in the cargo hold repairing some of the damage the battle at the Star Forge had caused. He beeped a greeting to me as I walked towards him.

"T3, do you know what's going on with Revan? Has she left any sort of recordings in your database recently that I should know about?" I asked, kneeling in front of the small astromech.

T3-M4 beeped a negative response.

I sighed and leaned against the hull of the ship, relishing in the cool feeling it gave my feverish skin. "I don't know what's going on, T3, but I've seen that expression on her face before. I just have this really strong feeling that what she was saying in her sleep wasn't just a dream.

"I don't know where she's planning on going, but it's dangerous. She's going to leave without telling me. I don't know why, but there's a chance she'll take you. If she does, I need you to watch out for her. She's strong, but she can't face everything alone."

The droid beeped at me curiously. But somehow I got the feeling the damn tin can wasn't telling me anything. Probably Revan's doing.

"Do what you can, T3. If she doesn't make it back, then I need you come back and find help. If not me, then other Jedi, the Republic..."

I felt tears threatening to spill over. I didn't even know if this was going to happen, but my gut instincts were telling me that it was. "I can't lose her! Even if she wants to be lost..."

-Revan-

"Where we headed, woman?"

The sound of Canderous' voice pulled me from my thoughts. We were both seated in the cockpit in our "borrowed" Republic ship in uncomfortable silence for nearly three hours and I had almost forgotten that he was even here. I had other things on my mind. "I'm sorry, Candy. What did you say?"

The older man rolled his eyes, annoyed. "I've been talking to you for the past thirty minutes and you haven't heard a damn thing I've said, have you?" he shot me an irritated sideways glance. "And don't call me Candy."

Sighing, I pulled my knees up to my chest and stared blankly out the window. "Sorry. I guess I'm a little preoccupied."

The Mandalorian shrugged. We sat in more silence for a moment, then Canderous cleared his throat. "You're thinking about what Republic will do when he finds out you're gone, ain't cha?"

I sighed, not really up for having this conversation. "It's going to kill him."

"And that's a bad thing?"

I closed my eyes and tried to force back the sudden urge to reach for my lightsaber. What the hell was I thinking when I asked Canderous to be my pilot? I decided to change the subject. "I think Dantooine would be our best shot. Perhaps I can find a lead in the Jedi Archives. That was the last place I encountered Kreia, at least the last that I can remember."

Canderous punched the coordinates into the computer and turned on autopilot. He turned his chair to face me. "Did you tell him about your son?"

I shook my head. "I couldn't."

"Why not? Don't you think that Republic deserves to know all of the details? I mean, hell, before you his dating record was as deserted as Malachor IV. If it were me, I would want to know how I let a catch like you slip out of my fingers." He paused and looked at my curiously. "If you were planning on leaving, why did you accept his proposal?"

I felt tears sting my eyes and my heart clenched painfully. "To give myself the strength and will to come back alive." I wiped the tears from my eyes as I stood to exit the cockpit. "I'm going to meditate."

I felt numb. I sat in my bed chambers, attempting to meditate and soothe my raging nerves. I missed my friends. I even missed HK. But I missed Carth even more.

We had only been gone for a couple of standard hours, but it already felt like an eternity. I closed my eyes and let out a trembling sigh as I realized the time, and knew Carth would be awakening very soon and would discover my disappearance. The only comforting thought that I had at the moment was that I wouldn't have to see his face.

That thought also terrified me. I wouldn't be able to see his face again for a very long time...

I may never get to see him again.

I had a long, dangerous journey ahead of me, which I had to face alone. Carth wouldn't understand, I knew. I also knew that he would try to find me, but evasion was my speciality. I couldn't allow him, or anyone else know of my whereabouts. It would only lead to their deaths. I wouldn't have that.

And little did Canderous know, as soon as we landed, I would have to ditch him as well. As much of a jerk as he was, he was my friend, and I wouldn't risk his life either. I just needed an escape route for now.

Suddenly, I could feel a tremble in the Force. Bastila was now aware that I was missing and was attempting to communicate with me. Which meant Carth now knew as well.

I felt my heart completely shatter in my chest.

"Revan! Where are you? Why did you leave?"

I didn't answer her. I remained with my eyes closed and tried desperately to get her voice out of my head.

"Revan! I know you can hear me. Answer me."

It was then that I had remembered that when Malak had captured Bastila, my bond with her had been shattered. If I could just figure out how -

"Don't even think about it!"

I couldn't help smile. If there was anyone who knew me better than Carth and Mission, it was Bastila. Damn her and our "bond." I closed my eyes and concentrated harder. I had to make this work. I couldn't risk being found. I couldn't risk the lives of my friends.

Finally, I could feel the connection begin to dwindle. Bastila's desperate voice was growing farther, and father away.

"Rev...please...reconsider..."

I took a deep breath. The last string of our bond was about to be cut and I had to force myself to do it. "I'm sorry."