Part 2
I put off telling anyone for another week, Wallace knew not to ask any questions, he had been my friend long enough, and no one else knew that there where questions to ask. Tensions had been rising in Neptune after the incident on the bridge, and Logan was in trial, now really wasn't the time to tell him that I was having someone else's baby, and I was, I thought about it, and I mulled over the options, and I was having the baby. I couldn't see myself spending nine months carrying something, someone, inside me and then giving them up to someone else; and I was positive that I couldn't go through an abortion, I knew that it would haunt me for the rest of my life, and I really had enough haunting me, I didn't need to personally add to it.
So, I waited, I wanted the right time to tell Logan, for his trial to be over, for everything to be settled again. I waited to tell Weevil, because he had just lost his best friend, and I didn't know how to tell him that on top of that I was going to make his life harder, because in the end, I know him well enough to know he will want to help with the baby, even though I plan to give him a choice. I wait to tell dad because I know that this will kill him, he has been waiting for me to graduate so that I can go away to college and become something wonderful, and I don't know how to tell him that I'm stuck in Neptune and it'll be hard for me to graduate high school.
I lay in my bed watching the ceiling of the apartment and listening to one of Southern California's rare summer thunderstorms, and thought about how I was possibly going to care for this baby. I found myself rubbing my hand over my still flat abdomen and wondering what it will be like. Tears slipped down the sides of my face and mingled with my hair that was loose on my pillow, which was how Meg found me.
"Veronica, I know I've been a jerk to you, but I didn't have anyone else I thought I could talk to." She walked timidly into my room, not turning on the light, but turning down the CD player, which had been playing Virgin Suicides for the past week, which I think was what lead dad to flee the house.
I whipped the tears from my face before sitting up and looking at her, "Sure, Meg, what do you need?"
"Veronica, I'm so sorry for being so offal to you, I just blamed you for the whole thing with Duncan, and the truth is I was really angry with Duncan, and you where an easer target." Meg looked so lost, and apologetic, and scared, like she wasn't really sure how to say what she really wanted to say. "Veronica, I'm pregnant."
I couldn't have been more shocked, Meg, who was possibly the purest, most chaste and virtuous girl in school was pregnant, not that I could really say anything, since I was in the same boat. "Well, at least I'm not the only one."
Meg just looks at me, not really sure if she heard me correctly. "What?"
"Yep, I'm pregnant, I found out about a week ago, course I don't think anyone at school will be surprised I got knocked up, you on the other hand will turn some heads."
"I was so angry with you, because I had just found out, and then Duncan broke up with me, and I hadn't even told him yet, and I think he's still in love with you." Meg jumbled all her words together trying to get them all out at once, like she just had to get them off her chest before we could move on. She took a deep breath, and then asked more slowly, "What are you going to tell Logan?"
"Oh, but there in lies the problem my friend," where Meg was actually dating the guy who got her preggers, I didn't get to boast that, I was trying to run away from the guy I was dating, by hooking up with the nearest and most available guy, who also happened to be a friend of mine, and I really hoped that that friendship could be patched up, since he wasn't really talking to me now that he found out I was still with Logan, I'm a bitch. "I have to tell Logan that I am pregnant, and the fun part comes when he asks me how I could possibly have gotten pregnant, because we're not having sex. He may even make a funny joke about how kissing can't get you pregnant, that's if he doesn't try to strangle me or cry."
"Will I be a total bitch if I ask you if you know who the father is?" She flinched away from me, looking ashamed for even asking the question.
"No, that would be a perfectly valid question, since I just told you that my boyfriend isn't the father, and yes I know who the father is, and the answer to that question is just going to make Logan the happiest man alive, because not only did I cheat on him, but I cheated on him with the same person that Lilly cheated on him with, Weevil. And that is a whole new problem, because Weevil isn't really talking to me right now, actually he's more like ignoring my phone calls and shutting doors in my face." I stare down at my hands, and start to pick at my finger nails, which over the past week has become a bit of a habit of mine that I really need to break.
"What are you going to do?" Meg asked like she was looking for guidance, which I felt entirely unqualified to give, but I was going to give anyway, she had asked, and I saw no reason not to tell her what I was going to do.
"I'm going to be me, I'm going to hold my head up and tell everyone that I'm pregnant, I'm going to start with Logan, since I know he's going to be devastated, but once he breaks up with me he'll move on, then I'm going to beg Weevil to talk to me long enough to tell him, and let him decide if he wants to have anything to do with me or the baby, which I plan on keeping, and then I'll work from there, telling dad, who will die when I tell him that I'm having the baby of the leader of the PCH bike club, then I have to tell all of my friends, minus you, since you know." I look up at her, and she looks panicked. "What about you, do you have a plan?"
"My plan went as far as coming over here and telling you, and maybe asking you to hold my hand while I tell Duncan."
"I think I can do that, and I know this sounds really unlike me, but would you come with me when I tell Logan, I kinda want someone with me, cause I don't think I'm going to want to be with him alone when he finds out who the father is."
"I would be happy to help." She smiled at me for the first time since before Logan's party, the party which had started this whole thing. "And hey, we can be pregnant together, it'll be good to have someone to go through this with, we wont have to walk through the halls at school alone and pregnant."
"Yeah, that was kinda the part I was dreading the most."
"Me too, at least you have experience ignoring insults and dealing with people being mean to you, I tend to cry."
"Well, no more crying, we have to be strong, we're going to have babies who are going to look up to us, I don't know about you, but I want my kid to be like me, I want them to be able to hold their head up high no matter what life throws at them." I was suddenly not as scared about this whole pregnancy thing, the idea of having a comrade, another pregnant person, who could stand with me made the whole thing feel much better. "So, what do you say we tell Duncan tomorrow, and then work on Logan the next day? Where just waiting for a verdict in his trial, it should be all over by then, and if he's cleared of charges, I wont feel so bad about telling him what a horrible girlfriend he has."
"We can do Duncan tomorrow, and you're not horrible, you made a mistake." Meg was always so sunny, sometimes I was bothered by this trait, but at that moment, I really needed it.
"It wasn't so much a mistake, as a conscious choice; one day when you're older I'll tell you all about it." Meg threw her head back and laughed.
"Do you promise, mommy?"
"Yeah, little too soon for that."
"Sorry."