This is most-likely going to stay a one shot. Bella's thinking late one night about life after the wedding.

I'm new at the whole fanfic thing so go easy on me

DISCLAMER: The amazing stephenie meyer owns everything twilight. though what I wouldn't do to own Emmet for a while...

BPOV

I sat, lightly perched on my windowsill, waiting. I knew it was only a matter of minutes before I was in his arms. As I looked out into the dark star-lit sky my mind began to wander to the blur of wedding preparations that had consumed my life for the past three weeks. I could never have fathomed the amount of precise decisions and preparation it took to plan a wedding, well not just a wedding. The way Alice put it this was going to be a wedding Forks will never forget. A month ago, if you had asked me if I wanted crème napkins to match the pale pink seat covers I would have laughed. Now I could recite every shade of pink and set a formal dinner table in three minutes flat. This was quite a feat in my eyes, but Alice found my lack of knowledge in the bridal area increasingly alarming. Alice had been anything but abstemious with wedding plans, after several failed attempts to rein her in I gave up. Only putting my foot down at doves being released at "I do", and ice sculptures of Edward and my self.

I knew Alice was having fun and that made me happy, but the most important thing was it made Edward happy. It seemed as if most of my time was spent with Edward, not that I minded of course. Besides, you only get married once, and if I was leaving the human world I was going out with a bang.

Leaving the human world.

Shivers coursed up and down my spine. I knew I was ready, I was about to bind myself to Edward in more ways than just marriage, and being a vampire was part of that. An inevitable choice I would soon have to face. The more I thought about it the more I realized I was ready to be bitten, more than ready to live a life of darkness and follow the ways of the Cullen's. I was mentally prepared for the excruciating three days of transition.

Only one doubt still rested in my head, was Edward ready to forever silence my heart?

"Where are you," I whispered into the darkness. I sighed and set my back against the cold, hard shutters. I knew my skeptic was absurd, but I couldn't help notice the clouded sadness that crept into Edwards's eyes whenever changing me was brought up.

Then suddenly he was there. I could feel him before I saw him; the goose bumps on my spine spread throughout my whole body, and my heart skipped a beat. All my doubts and fears vanished as Edward lifted me into his arms and whispered "Bella my love" His cool lips brushing the tip of my ear. I relaxed into his arms as he put me down on my bed and slid under the covers with me. I suppressed a yawn; he hummed lightly as he drew circles with his fingers on my shoulder.

"Why did you wait up for me? You knew I would be out late hunting." He frowned and propped himself up on one arm. I sat up on my knees so we were equal in height.

'I couldn't sleep." I said simply.

'And why couldn't you sleep?'

"I was thinking too much."

This seemed to amuse him. He smiled and kissed my nose.

"Thinking about what my Bella?"

I was silent and lowered my eyes to my hands.

"It's all right if you don't want to tell me, I understand." He spoke softly.

I sighed and lifted my face to his.

"I've just been thinking about after the wedding a lot."

The lopsided smile I love appeared on his face. He laced his fingers with mine and leaned dangerously close to my face.

"I have too," he whispered seductively, his hand trailed lightly down my leg. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks, he smiled again causing my heart to stop completely.

"Not about that, I mean I have but-" I struggled for words as he kissed my collarbone.

"Are you ready for me to be a vampire?" I blurted gently pushing him away. He frowned and opened his mouth but I put a finger to his lips. Edward closed his eyes and inhaled, pressing his cheek to my finger. I knew it would sound silly once I said it, but I had to be certain. I simply had to know that his heart, how ever still and cold, was in this as much as mine was.

"I mean is there another reason you don't want to change me besides the fact that I wouldn't be human?" I took a deep breath after spitting it all out in one sentence. He frowned and cocked his head to one side.

"I'm confused" I took a deep breath. Just say it, I thought.

"Are you afraid you're not going to love me as much after I'm a vampire? Are you scared that once the small things you love about me are gone you won't love me as much? That once my heart doesn't beat any more and I don't blush and my smell is gone you will feel differently? Are you afraid I won't be the same Bella you fell in love with?" I stopped once again for lack of air. He was silent for a long time, I looked into his eyes searching for a clue to what was going through his head. His face was blank and emotionless. I felt tears swelling up in my eyes.

"Why aren't you saying anything?" I whispered, fear gripping my heart. Then in one swift movement a huge Emmet like grin appeared on his face, he threw his head back and laughed. Edward laughed a loud, booming, joyful laugh. I jumped at the sound and leaped up covering his mouth. He rolled over onto is back taking me down with him, laughing and clutching me to his side.

"Edward!" I hissed as I unsuccessfully tried to stifle his laughter. "Sush you'll wake Charlie!"

I sat up, crossed my arms over my chest and waited for his little giggle fest to finish. Slowly his laughter died down to a chuckle. He pulled me into his lap and pressed his face into my hair.

"Bella love," he mumbled into my split ends. 'I never knew you had such a good sense of humor." I frowned and swatted his arm.

"I was being serious." He abruptly stopped laughing and looked into my eyes. The scowl I had on my face showed him I wasn't stepping down.

"Bella," he sighed. Edward took my face in his hands and tenderly kissed my forehead.

"You silly absurd little girl, could you really think that anything that happens to you would cause me to lose my feelings for you? I already told you nothing can compare to the way I feel about you, as you would put it, you're a dream come true. Bella this is only the beginning our relationship. I just got started loving you and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. Just got started lovin' you, James Otto I need you, I need you more than I need anything else in this world. You are the air I breathe, the sun on my rainy day, my reason for living, and my joy in existence." He stopped here to kiss the tip of my nose. I felt as if my heart had swelled up and was about to burst. I felt a sure of emotion rush through my veins. "That's why I don't want to change you, because I love you. You should know that by now. Besides love, I would love you even if an evil witch turned you into a toad tomorrow."

I giggled and laid my head on his chest, he stroked my hair.

"Did you really mean all that?"

Edward inclined his head towards me, I could feel his cool breath on my neck.

"Every word." With that I leaned forward closing the space between us. It was a soft sweet kiss that lasted longer than most. He placed his hands on the small of my back and pulled me closer to him. As always his stone lips pulled away before I was ready. He chuckled at the frown on my face and lifted me under the covers. I snuggled up next to him and he mindlessly played with my hair.

"Sleep now my Bella," He cooed. "I love you, forever and eternity."

"I love you too Edward," I sighed.

My last thought as I succumbed into unconsciousness was the face of an angel, running his teeth along my neck.

So there you have it, review pretty pretty please! I really mean it, if people like it enough i might continue it, but i'm not sure.

-Ashley