Disclaimer: Sadly, I don't own the loveliest of mikos, Kikyou-sama, or any of the other characters
used in this work of fan fiction. I am making absolutely no profit from this tale, except for the joy
of writing it, and therefore I cannot be sued. Please don't waste your time trying to prosecute this
pathetic otaku. Oh, and I also don't own the lyrics used. They belong to REM.
Author's notes: This is my first work of Inuyasha fan fiction as well as my first attempt at a song
fic. I've used "Losing my Religion" by REM. I've read numerous fan fics on this site, but I was
disappointed by the small number of Kikyou-sama/Inuyasha pairings. I just thought I would
provide some of my insights about this. Kikyou-sama is my favorite character, and even though
she's been consumed by hate, I still like to hold on to the saying, "Love conquerors all." By the
way, all words between *...* are thoughts, and word between [...] are lyrics of the actual song.
Love Conquerors All
by Leeman
[Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up]
Kagome sat on the outer wall of the well pondering over her past self, Kikyou. *Why are you still
around? I am your reincarnated soul. We shouldn't be living in the same time.* She smirked
cynically. *If it weren't for that witch who brought your body back to life, and tried to instill my
soul in you, you wouldn't be wandering these lands now. We are two separate people linked by
one soul. Though, you have become clouded with the hate you felt at your death, and I have no
such hate in my heart. I truly pity you.*
[That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough]
As Kagome continued pondering over her ancestor, a tear fell down her cheek as an image of
Inuyasha filled her mind. *Kikyou, you still have his heart. After you two have been through, you
still hold his heart in your cold embrace. You wish to send him to Hell with you because you hate
him and because you love him. This is something that I cannot understand. I don't understand
your pain, either. You died thinking that Inuyasha had betrayed you, and it was the same with
him. However, he was reborn with an entire soul, and your soul was reborn in me. You are still
alive because of the hate left over. You feed off of the souls of the dead. You are nothing more
than a shell, and Inuyasha loves you despite all of this. You two have a bond that is too strong
for me to come between, and even if I was able, I would merely be a substitute for you. I cannot
live my life in that role.*
[I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try]
Inuyasha sat atop a large tree overlooking a field where Kikyou was gathering souls. His eyes
softened at her beauty even though he was looking at an empty shell. *I've seen you with the
children of several different villages. You're just like before. Your love of life radiates through
the depths of all the hate that now keeps you alive. I wish you would let me comfort you. I wish
I could turn your hate back into love as it used to be before that bastard, Naraku, ruined our plans
for the future. I loved you, and I still do. I know you're still in there, and I cannot walk away
from you. I will not give up on you.*
[Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up]
As Kikyou gathered her souls in the clearing, a tear fell down her cheek. She couldn't stop
thinking about him, and her conflicting feelings for him. *I love you so much, Inuyasha, but I hate
you at the same time. I want to spend eternity with you, but I also want you to suffer. My
dearest Inuyasha, I wanted so much to spend my life with you and grow old with you, but our
plans were shattered. I know now it wasn't your doing, but I can't let go of this hate. I love this
hate, and it keeps me alive. I love you, but I love hate, itself. How could I have become such a
creature? I am a parasite to this world, and yet I cannot leave it. I will not let go because of my
hate and love for you. I am truly a fool. I know you love Kagome. I cannot stand the thought of
you loving another woman, and I hate you all the more for it. I'm just so confused. I long to be
with you, to talk to you, to hold you. I long to see a look of love in your eyes like the days of
old. I long to have you sweep me up in your arms and fly across the moonlit sky. This isn't
possible because you love another, and I have become tainted with the seeds of hate. I'm sorry
Inuyasha. I truly am. I will always watch over you from afar. If I get to close, I may be tempted
to harm you. This is all I have left in this world. I am utterly worthless, and I look forward to the
day that I can pass on and leave you and this realm in peace.*
[Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much]
Kikyou fell backwards and landed on her back with arms up stretched. She gazed up at the starlit
sky as more tears fell down her cheek. *What happens if I were to take you with me to Hell? We
both would suffer endlessly, and for what? It's because of this damned hate that still flows
through my being that I have such urges. Why can't you love me like you used to?* She smiled
grimly and wiped her tears away, but they were soon replaced by more. *You can't love me
because I'm dead. I'm just an empty shell driven by hate. My life belongs to another now, and I
am left behind. You love her because she has my spirit, and I am left to watch you from afar.
God it isn't fair! I hate you! And, yet I love you still! Why does it have to be this way? Why
can't I just abandon this feeling of hate? Why do I need it so? It keeps me alive, that's why. I
hate this existence, and yet a part of me will not let go. My heart, if there is even one beating in
this shell, still longs for your embrace. When we kissed, I hid nothing from you. I poured all my
love and all my hate into that kiss, and I will treasure it forever. Kagome saved you from Hell
that day, and I am both grateful and angry that she did. I lay here in this field broken. There is
nothing left for me here, and yet I still live. Why dear God? Why?*
[I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try]
Inuyasha watched Kikyou with curiosity flashing in his eyes. *Why is she just laying there? She
hasn't passed on has she? Should I see if she's okay? I'm such a baka! I should just let her be,
but I can't. I love her too much. She still has some good in her, and even if she didn't, I cannot
forsake her. Kikyou, you're not my obligation. I shouldn't cross paths with you. Yet, even
though I know this, my heart can't leave you alone.* He sighs heavily and bows his head until his
chin touches his chest. *If it takes both of us to Hell to end your suffering, then so be it. I love
you so much that I would give my life for you. I know you're dead, but I still can't ignore you.
I'm sorry Kagome. I'll never forget you, but I can't be with you any longer.*
[But that was just a dream
That was just a dream]
Kagome stood up. She had to talk with Inuyasha. She had to let him go despite the volumes that
hear heart was screaming against it. *I want you to be happy, Inuyasha. I love you too much to
bind you.* She smiled sadly and trudged over to the tree that she had watched Inuyasha perch in
earlier. He was still there, sitting on a high branch. *My beautiful Inuyasha. I know you never
loved me. I know that you only thought of me as a Shikon no Tama shard detector, but I loved
you with all of my heart. I screamed at you, and I inflicted pain upon you when I sat you. I'm
sorry for all the troubles I've caused you.*
She watched silently in awe as he sat there deep in thought. The moonlight highlighted his
gorgeous features and made him appear much more like an angel than a half demon. Without
warning, he leapt high into the air and cut through the night air as scissors do paper. He was
more graceful than a harpy eagle slicing the highest depths of the deep blue abyss with its
powerful wings. He seemingly glided in the heavens as time slowed down for Kagome. She
would miss him so much when she leapt back through the well for the last time after she bid him
farewell this evening. All she had to do was catch him now. She could sit him, but that would
spoil the meaningfulness of her last goodbye. She broke into a run in the direction that he had
leapt, and she came to a clearing.
Inuyasha landed effortlessly before Kikyou, and she looked up at him. The moon was behind him,
and it gave him the appearance of a god in all of his glory. Her eyes softened, and a genuine smile
of happiness slowly crept across her face. "Kikyou, may I join you?" She nodded, and he laid
down beside her. Neither of them said a word as they watched the stars sparkle above and
listened to the song of nature play all around them. Finally, he looked over at her and smiled. He
saw that her hand was just inches from his, and he grasped it. It was cold as ice, but it was still as
soft as he remembered. Her mind went blank, and all she could do was lay there beside him in
silence.
Finally, Inuyasha sat up. Kikyou looked up at him questioningly and sat up as well. "Do you
remember those times when we would chase each other around grassy knolls and then lay down
and watch the clouds?" She smiled.
"Of course. I remember all of the time we spent together."
"Do you regret it?" Her eyes softened.
"I don't regret any of it."
"Me either."
"Why are you here with me now?" He was taken aback.
"I...I just wanted to see you again. I wanted to talk with you."
"Inuyasha..."
"I know you hate me. I know you want to send me to Hell with you, but that doesn't matter to
me. I still love you, Kikyou, and I have never stopped loving you."
"Would you follow me into Hell?"
"I would follow you anywhere. I want to ease your suffering, and if it costs me my soul, then oh
well."
"Inuyasha...I...I don't deserve to your devotion. I'm just an empty shell. I have no heart, no soul.
I'm just a being who exists because of hate. Why can't you see that?"
"I know what you are, but deep down, you're still my Kikyou. I've watched you play with the
village children, and I've seen you cure the illnesses of old men. You're still the same miko that I
fell in love with." She put a hand on his cheek.
"Thank you, Inuyasha." She leaned forward and kissed him. She sealed all of the hate radiating
throughout her being into that kiss, and Inuyasha neutralized it with all of his love. She broke the
kiss and clasped her chest. "I love you."
"I love you too, and I'll never leave your side again." They kissed once anew, and he wrapped his
arms around her. Their kiss was filled with a renewed passion as warmth began to creep through
her deathly cold shell. A deep hue adorned her cheeks after they broke this kiss, and Inuyasha
found himself aroused by her indescribable beauty. They kissed once more. The heat between
them was growing by the moment, and she parted her lips to deepen the kiss. Inuyasha let his
tongue explore her mouth for the first time, and they fell over together as a gentle breeze began to
blow.
Unbeknownst to the two lovers in the field, a pair of tear-filled eyes has witnessed their intricate
dance of the heart. *Goodbye Inuyasha. Please be happy.* Tears streamed down Kagome's face
as she slowly crept away from the field. She decided that it would be best to leave the large
chunk of the Shikon no Tama in the monk's sleeping hands before leaping into the well for the
final time. "I love you, Inuyasha, with all my heart, and I will never forget you," she whispered
before she began sobbing too deeply to speak.
Author's notes: I hope you enjoyed my song fic. This is the first one that I've ever written, and I
hope I did a decent job. Please take a moment to write a review. This is the only other payment
we fan fiction authors receive besides the satisfaction of weaving our tales. Domo arigato, minna-
san.
used in this work of fan fiction. I am making absolutely no profit from this tale, except for the joy
of writing it, and therefore I cannot be sued. Please don't waste your time trying to prosecute this
pathetic otaku. Oh, and I also don't own the lyrics used. They belong to REM.
Author's notes: This is my first work of Inuyasha fan fiction as well as my first attempt at a song
fic. I've used "Losing my Religion" by REM. I've read numerous fan fics on this site, but I was
disappointed by the small number of Kikyou-sama/Inuyasha pairings. I just thought I would
provide some of my insights about this. Kikyou-sama is my favorite character, and even though
she's been consumed by hate, I still like to hold on to the saying, "Love conquerors all." By the
way, all words between *...* are thoughts, and word between [...] are lyrics of the actual song.
Love Conquerors All
by Leeman
[Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up]
Kagome sat on the outer wall of the well pondering over her past self, Kikyou. *Why are you still
around? I am your reincarnated soul. We shouldn't be living in the same time.* She smirked
cynically. *If it weren't for that witch who brought your body back to life, and tried to instill my
soul in you, you wouldn't be wandering these lands now. We are two separate people linked by
one soul. Though, you have become clouded with the hate you felt at your death, and I have no
such hate in my heart. I truly pity you.*
[That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough]
As Kagome continued pondering over her ancestor, a tear fell down her cheek as an image of
Inuyasha filled her mind. *Kikyou, you still have his heart. After you two have been through, you
still hold his heart in your cold embrace. You wish to send him to Hell with you because you hate
him and because you love him. This is something that I cannot understand. I don't understand
your pain, either. You died thinking that Inuyasha had betrayed you, and it was the same with
him. However, he was reborn with an entire soul, and your soul was reborn in me. You are still
alive because of the hate left over. You feed off of the souls of the dead. You are nothing more
than a shell, and Inuyasha loves you despite all of this. You two have a bond that is too strong
for me to come between, and even if I was able, I would merely be a substitute for you. I cannot
live my life in that role.*
[I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try]
Inuyasha sat atop a large tree overlooking a field where Kikyou was gathering souls. His eyes
softened at her beauty even though he was looking at an empty shell. *I've seen you with the
children of several different villages. You're just like before. Your love of life radiates through
the depths of all the hate that now keeps you alive. I wish you would let me comfort you. I wish
I could turn your hate back into love as it used to be before that bastard, Naraku, ruined our plans
for the future. I loved you, and I still do. I know you're still in there, and I cannot walk away
from you. I will not give up on you.*
[Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up]
As Kikyou gathered her souls in the clearing, a tear fell down her cheek. She couldn't stop
thinking about him, and her conflicting feelings for him. *I love you so much, Inuyasha, but I hate
you at the same time. I want to spend eternity with you, but I also want you to suffer. My
dearest Inuyasha, I wanted so much to spend my life with you and grow old with you, but our
plans were shattered. I know now it wasn't your doing, but I can't let go of this hate. I love this
hate, and it keeps me alive. I love you, but I love hate, itself. How could I have become such a
creature? I am a parasite to this world, and yet I cannot leave it. I will not let go because of my
hate and love for you. I am truly a fool. I know you love Kagome. I cannot stand the thought of
you loving another woman, and I hate you all the more for it. I'm just so confused. I long to be
with you, to talk to you, to hold you. I long to see a look of love in your eyes like the days of
old. I long to have you sweep me up in your arms and fly across the moonlit sky. This isn't
possible because you love another, and I have become tainted with the seeds of hate. I'm sorry
Inuyasha. I truly am. I will always watch over you from afar. If I get to close, I may be tempted
to harm you. This is all I have left in this world. I am utterly worthless, and I look forward to the
day that I can pass on and leave you and this realm in peace.*
[Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much]
Kikyou fell backwards and landed on her back with arms up stretched. She gazed up at the starlit
sky as more tears fell down her cheek. *What happens if I were to take you with me to Hell? We
both would suffer endlessly, and for what? It's because of this damned hate that still flows
through my being that I have such urges. Why can't you love me like you used to?* She smiled
grimly and wiped her tears away, but they were soon replaced by more. *You can't love me
because I'm dead. I'm just an empty shell driven by hate. My life belongs to another now, and I
am left behind. You love her because she has my spirit, and I am left to watch you from afar.
God it isn't fair! I hate you! And, yet I love you still! Why does it have to be this way? Why
can't I just abandon this feeling of hate? Why do I need it so? It keeps me alive, that's why. I
hate this existence, and yet a part of me will not let go. My heart, if there is even one beating in
this shell, still longs for your embrace. When we kissed, I hid nothing from you. I poured all my
love and all my hate into that kiss, and I will treasure it forever. Kagome saved you from Hell
that day, and I am both grateful and angry that she did. I lay here in this field broken. There is
nothing left for me here, and yet I still live. Why dear God? Why?*
[I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try]
Inuyasha watched Kikyou with curiosity flashing in his eyes. *Why is she just laying there? She
hasn't passed on has she? Should I see if she's okay? I'm such a baka! I should just let her be,
but I can't. I love her too much. She still has some good in her, and even if she didn't, I cannot
forsake her. Kikyou, you're not my obligation. I shouldn't cross paths with you. Yet, even
though I know this, my heart can't leave you alone.* He sighs heavily and bows his head until his
chin touches his chest. *If it takes both of us to Hell to end your suffering, then so be it. I love
you so much that I would give my life for you. I know you're dead, but I still can't ignore you.
I'm sorry Kagome. I'll never forget you, but I can't be with you any longer.*
[But that was just a dream
That was just a dream]
Kagome stood up. She had to talk with Inuyasha. She had to let him go despite the volumes that
hear heart was screaming against it. *I want you to be happy, Inuyasha. I love you too much to
bind you.* She smiled sadly and trudged over to the tree that she had watched Inuyasha perch in
earlier. He was still there, sitting on a high branch. *My beautiful Inuyasha. I know you never
loved me. I know that you only thought of me as a Shikon no Tama shard detector, but I loved
you with all of my heart. I screamed at you, and I inflicted pain upon you when I sat you. I'm
sorry for all the troubles I've caused you.*
She watched silently in awe as he sat there deep in thought. The moonlight highlighted his
gorgeous features and made him appear much more like an angel than a half demon. Without
warning, he leapt high into the air and cut through the night air as scissors do paper. He was
more graceful than a harpy eagle slicing the highest depths of the deep blue abyss with its
powerful wings. He seemingly glided in the heavens as time slowed down for Kagome. She
would miss him so much when she leapt back through the well for the last time after she bid him
farewell this evening. All she had to do was catch him now. She could sit him, but that would
spoil the meaningfulness of her last goodbye. She broke into a run in the direction that he had
leapt, and she came to a clearing.
Inuyasha landed effortlessly before Kikyou, and she looked up at him. The moon was behind him,
and it gave him the appearance of a god in all of his glory. Her eyes softened, and a genuine smile
of happiness slowly crept across her face. "Kikyou, may I join you?" She nodded, and he laid
down beside her. Neither of them said a word as they watched the stars sparkle above and
listened to the song of nature play all around them. Finally, he looked over at her and smiled. He
saw that her hand was just inches from his, and he grasped it. It was cold as ice, but it was still as
soft as he remembered. Her mind went blank, and all she could do was lay there beside him in
silence.
Finally, Inuyasha sat up. Kikyou looked up at him questioningly and sat up as well. "Do you
remember those times when we would chase each other around grassy knolls and then lay down
and watch the clouds?" She smiled.
"Of course. I remember all of the time we spent together."
"Do you regret it?" Her eyes softened.
"I don't regret any of it."
"Me either."
"Why are you here with me now?" He was taken aback.
"I...I just wanted to see you again. I wanted to talk with you."
"Inuyasha..."
"I know you hate me. I know you want to send me to Hell with you, but that doesn't matter to
me. I still love you, Kikyou, and I have never stopped loving you."
"Would you follow me into Hell?"
"I would follow you anywhere. I want to ease your suffering, and if it costs me my soul, then oh
well."
"Inuyasha...I...I don't deserve to your devotion. I'm just an empty shell. I have no heart, no soul.
I'm just a being who exists because of hate. Why can't you see that?"
"I know what you are, but deep down, you're still my Kikyou. I've watched you play with the
village children, and I've seen you cure the illnesses of old men. You're still the same miko that I
fell in love with." She put a hand on his cheek.
"Thank you, Inuyasha." She leaned forward and kissed him. She sealed all of the hate radiating
throughout her being into that kiss, and Inuyasha neutralized it with all of his love. She broke the
kiss and clasped her chest. "I love you."
"I love you too, and I'll never leave your side again." They kissed once anew, and he wrapped his
arms around her. Their kiss was filled with a renewed passion as warmth began to creep through
her deathly cold shell. A deep hue adorned her cheeks after they broke this kiss, and Inuyasha
found himself aroused by her indescribable beauty. They kissed once more. The heat between
them was growing by the moment, and she parted her lips to deepen the kiss. Inuyasha let his
tongue explore her mouth for the first time, and they fell over together as a gentle breeze began to
blow.
Unbeknownst to the two lovers in the field, a pair of tear-filled eyes has witnessed their intricate
dance of the heart. *Goodbye Inuyasha. Please be happy.* Tears streamed down Kagome's face
as she slowly crept away from the field. She decided that it would be best to leave the large
chunk of the Shikon no Tama in the monk's sleeping hands before leaping into the well for the
final time. "I love you, Inuyasha, with all my heart, and I will never forget you," she whispered
before she began sobbing too deeply to speak.
Author's notes: I hope you enjoyed my song fic. This is the first one that I've ever written, and I
hope I did a decent job. Please take a moment to write a review. This is the only other payment
we fan fiction authors receive besides the satisfaction of weaving our tales. Domo arigato, minna-
san.