Broken
Chapter 1: Comfort
Here I am, sitting on my bed, crying. It's the only thing I can do at this time. He's gone, he's gone, he's gone, he's freaking gone!. I loved him with all my heart, and now he's …….dead. I should of saved him, I saw him being beaten to death! But why did I not do anything to prevent it?! "Oh Silver" I whisper to myself. I feel so lost without him, and now that he is gone, I have fallen into a dark pit of despair. No hope for life, nothing.
I hug my pillow, my tears dripping onto it. I think back to before any of this had happened, before the pain and torture came, before the abuse, before the sadness and hurt. Life was good, before any of this.
I smile, thinking about how much fun Silver and I had together. But happy thoughts only forced me back to this dark present.
"Mephiles" I say his name with pure hatred in my voice. How I hate him. He did this, all of this, he hurt us, beat Silver, beat me, caused a death. How I hate him. I wish death upon him, he deserves not to live, but to die, painfully, horribly, many daggers stabbing through his flesh, many bullets going through his head, making the blood splatter, crows pecking at his eyes. How much I would love to see all that happening to him.
Being put in prison for life is not enough, he should feel so much pain! Even if the men in that prison made him their bitch, well that would still not be enough!
"It's not fair!" I scream into my pillow. So much pain I feel in my heart, it's unbearable.
I hear my bedroom door creak, followed by a voice that rings a bell, but no face can be put on it. I look up, my tears rolling down my now matted furry cheeks, I saw the black and red stripped hedgehog Shadow. Why he was here I do not know, but he closed the door and slowly walks over to me, his crimson orbs showing no sing of sympathy or compassion, just anger.
I shivered, his gaze frightened me, even when I buried my head back into my pillow, I would still feel his eyes burning into me.
"How are you feeling Blaze?" H asked. His voice harsh and uncaring. I then felt an extra weight on my bed. I looked up to see those blood red eyes still watching me. I felt very uncomfortable, he kept watching me, I did not like it at all.
"Well?'' He asked again, his voice still had no change of tone.
"I-I'm alright." I answered "It's dark in here. Very unlike you, I thought you like the light" He said, his voice sounded as if he was angered . True my room was quite dark, I refused to see the light, for there was no light in my life anymore, therefore I did not wish to see it.
His eyes travelled around the room, as if looking for something, then they landed back to me. He looked right into my eyes. I did not like it, he keeps looking at me, I do not like it.
A whimper escapes my lips as he looks at me, I then just hide away in my pillow again.
I still feel his gaze upon me. I then jumped slightly as I felt a gloved hand upon the back of my head. I shook fearfully, it's just like what Mephiles had done before he attacked me, I was afraid that Shadow would hit me. I don't know why, but when he talked he sounded angered, the way he stared at me scared me.
I then felt his hand move up and down the back of my head.
He was rubbing my head?
I looked up at him, black eyelids had covered his crimson orbs.
"Sh-Shadow?" I whispered. He opened his eyes, and I was once again greeted by those crimson eyes. He looked down at me, I shivered as I only saw anger and hatred in his eyes.
'Have I done something wrong?' I questioned myself. Was it me he is angry with?
"What?!" He answered back, hatred in his voice.
I was afraid to answer, I feared I would end up physically sore. I shivered again, tears beginning to form in my eyes again.
I hid in my pillow again, I feared this hedgehog now. But he was still rubbing my head, as if giving some comfort.
I then felt his fingers running through my hair. What was he doing?
I wrapped my arms around my pillow tighter and leaned forward, until my upper body came in contact with my bed.
Now laying on my stomach I turned onto my side, and curled into fetal position.
It was silent. I heard nothing only my sobs and whimpers. I still felt the dark hedgehog sitting beside me.
I cried out when I felt arms wrapping around my waist, and pulling me up. "Shadow?" I whimpered. But his only reply was "Hush!"
I sobbed silently, I did not know what was going to happen.
He pulled me into his arms, and turned me around so that my face rested in white chest fluff.
Once again I felt his hand stroking my hair, and his other arm wrapping itself tightly around my waist.
"I know how it feels" I looked up at him, a questioning look upon my face. "I know how it feels to lose someone you love." His voice was softer than before, it was not harsh at all.
I looked up at him, like a five year old looking at parent wondering what a certain word or phrase meant.
"Wh-who did you lose, Shadow?" I answered. His hand that was stroking my hair made it's way to my waist, and wrapped itself around me.
He pulled me in closer to him, I felt his chin then rest upon my head.
"I lost a dear friend of mine. Maria was her name. So sweet, kind caring, beautiful, only wanting the best for everyone. She was so young"
I had heard Rouge and Amy talking about a Maria, and something about an accident and an ARK, or something very close to that, I wonder if this is the Maria Shadow Is talking about.
"What happened to her?" I asked between sobs. "The professor began work on the Ultimate Life Form Project, AKA me. I was the creation that was intended to benefit humanity. The government and its military organizations became uneasy, believing that it could be a potential threat to Earth, and so attacked the ARK. Maria was shot in the chest by one of the soldiers. But before that I was put into some kind of container, and just when she was shot, I was launched towards this earth."
I looked up at him, his eyes were closed.
"I-I-I'm so sorry Shadow."
Those were the only words I could muster up, I did not know what else to say, this Maria sounded so nice, and she was killed.
"It's like someone has pierced a hole in your heart, seeing a loved one die in front of your eyes. Very unpleasant."
He sounded so calm and cool. Was he not upset, talking about that poor girl.
"You lost Silver. He was a fool." How dare he! Silver was not a fool, he was nieve I'll admit but that's what I liked about him.
"He was not a fool." I whimpered, looking into the red eyes of the male hedgehog.
"Whatever you say cat!" He shouted. His voice filled with venom.
I shivered at that. He was mad. At me? A sob escaped my lips, and I squirmed, wanting to get out of his grip, which only tightened.
"Shadow, l-l-let go." I said, no confidence in my voice what so ever. "Shadow le-" I was cut off, and he turned my whole body around, so that I was facing him.
I did not look at him, my head hung low. I then felt his hand underneath my chin, forcing my head up, making my own yellow eyes be in contact with his own crimson ones.
In his eyes I saw only hatred. Hatred for me?
"What have I done to anger you Shadow?" I said, almost choking on my tears. "Why would I be angry at you?" He said, answering my question with another question.
His voice became soft, as well as the hatred in his eyes.
He let go of my chin, and pulled me into a loving embrace.
I had never known Shadow to show compassion to another, strange.
He then whispered to me "This amount of hatred I feel is not because of you. I feel it for Mephiles. I wish him the same amount of pain he put you through. And personally, I do not think a prison sentence is good enough, even if it is for as long as that demon lives."
It wasn't just me that had been hurt, but he killed Silver! He does not seem to notice Silver is dead. It saddens me. "Silver" I sobbed as I buried my face into his shoulder.
"Oh and, um, I wish death upon him also. To pay for Your boyfriends death."
That's it, he did not care for Silver at all! How dare he not give a damn!
"You don't care do you?!" I cried. And he held me tighter. "You talk as if Silver had never died! As I was the only one hurt, but he's dead! Your so disrespectful Shadow!" I cried, weakly hitting his shoulders with my fists. I doubt I was actually hurting him, for he just seemed to tighten the embrace more.
I felt his breath at my ear, his warm breath lingering around my ear.
"I care of course, but he is not the one suffering from such heartache, he's is in a better place while you are here, suffering from horrible memories, so much pain you feel, and he feels nothing. You suffer he does not. So why should I worry about him, when it's you whom I should care about."
He was right, my heart aches so much, I do no know how I can stand it anymore.
"Shadow" "Hush! Rest." He moved back, so his back was resting against the wall.
Once again I was resting on his chest, the side of my face buried into the white patch of fluff upon his ebony coloured chest.
He wrapped his arms around me protectively, and he whispered one or two reassurances, but not much attention did I pay, for I was so relaxed in his strong arms, I felt sleep soon take over me.
And this was the first of many grief filled days, but I am glad Shadow was with me today, I felt lost and alone, and when he came in, I'll admit I was fearful, but he made me feel at ease.
But I only wish that this pain I feel will go away in time. For if it does not, I-I-I'll have to find a way out…………………
End of Chapter 1, hope you enjoyed it.
More on Silver's death in next chapter.