Chapter 1

A seventeen year old brunette popped two white pills in her mouth and drained a glass of water. She sighed, refilling the cup with tap water and some ice. She then retrieves a tablet from a small blue package and tosses it into her drink.

The teens chocolate orbs watched the tablet slowly dissolve. She brushed her waist-length hair out of her eyes, before polishing her second glass of water off. The memory of how Mikan got the pills played in her head.

Flashback

"I do not need anger management, and I do not need to take pills from anorectic people!" A certain fourteen year old yelled, slamming her hands on a desk.

"Yes, Mikan, you do! Ever since the incident you… have gotten angrier at the world." Mikan's older twin sister argued. Mikan glared at her angrily.

"You need the pills because you barley eat. You throw up anything you do eat, if you decide to." Mikan's best friend, Hotaru, said with a stoic face.

"Miss Sakura, I know this is hard, but from now on take your pills. As your therapist I demand it, it is a method of getting you better!" A twenty-five year old blonde announced, pushing a bottle and package towards the girl.

"Damn it all. Whatever, I don't care anymore." Mikan announced, stuffing the pills into her pocket. She then stood up and talked out of the office, slamming the door behind her.

End of Flashback

"Money, love I never wanna give you up, you‚'re like a million dollar rush running my brain." Mikan's sang, vibrating. She flipped it open, pressing to accept the call.

"What's up, Hotaru?"

"Take your pills in tablets, now."

"I already did, I am not a kid, I can remember to do it on my own."

"Whatever, that once you fainted after forgetting."

"That was a year ago. Anyway, what did you want?"

"You're coming to my school."

Mikan spat out her water. "What did you just say!?"

"You are coming to M.G. A., Musically Gifted Academy."

"No way in hell, who told you to sign me up!?"

"Hotaru didn't do it, I did. And you have talent, learn to use it!" A voice Mikan recognized as her sister's said.

"I don't want to! I get a say in my life, Akio!"

"Hotaru and I will be there tomorrow, pack your bags. Mikan, please… do this not for me, but you. It's all my fault that you stopped being you… I wasn't there when you needed me most." The dial tone played.

Mikan's POV

My sister's words rang through my head.

"Do it for you."

"I wasn't there when you needed me most."

"Needed me most."

"Needed me."

I frowned. I knew it wasn't Akio's fault at all… I did need her that night, but she shouldn't be blaming herself.

I know I changed a lot since that happened… I bet she thinks it's all her fault. I sighed, and went to my room to begin packing.

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"MIKAN, WAKE UP! BAKA! MIKAN WAKE UP! BAKA!" The alarm clock yelled. I threw it against the wall, successfully breaking it… again.

I sat up in bed, yawning before going into the bathroom. I took a quick shower, brushed my hair, blow-dried it, rebrushed it and brushed my teeth.

I threw on a black spaghetti strap with a black shirt with the words 'rocker girl' on is in bold, blood red letters. I wore a denim skirt with a chained belt and some black leggings. I topped it off with a pair of high boots and some mascara and lip gloss. I didn't really care for make-up, but my sister always complained about me not caring about my appearance, so I decided to look presentable.

I heard a loud knocking on the door, and slowly went to open it.

"Mi-chan!" My sister said, jumping on me. I guess I should tell you what she looks like. Well, her eyes are a light honey color, and usually sparkle when she's around me. Her hair is black and she usually either gets blue or green highlights, right now it is blue.

"Hey A-chan, hey Hota-chan." I said, not showing any expression. Did I mention I never smile or show emotion. I haven't for three years. Well, actually I do show two emotions. I show blood-thirsty emotion and I show anger. Hence why I need my anger management pills. I also, very rarely, show sadness, but only around certain people. Hotaru, Akio, Nonoko, and Anna.

"You owe me two hundred-fifty yen for coming to get you." Hotaru replied. I rolled my eyes, digging for my wallet. I pulled out to money and handed it to her. She quickly counted it and stuffed it into her pocket.

"Come on, let's go! The limo is waiting!" Akio exclaimed, dragging me outside.

"Why is it a limo? And, let me get my suitcases." I said the same stoic expression as Hotaru.

"It's a limo because I can afford it, and come one, the driver will get it when we're out!" Akio said, still dragging me.

"Let me at least get my guitar case, you know I hate anyone touching it. It was from her after all." I said, running back into my apartment and grabbing my guitar case and another bag with my laptop, mp3 player, and cd's in it. Two of the cd's were made by me, the others were of good artist.

I then ran back outside to the limo. The driver went into my apartment and grabbed my bags…

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After half of a day drive we arrived in front of an abnormally large school. Gosh, is this for people with uber talent like me, or people with uber money like Hotaru?

I saw everyone gathering around the school gates to see who would come out of the limo.

Everyone stood back as the school gates opened and the limo drove in. Me, Hotaru, and Akio stepped out of the limo, and half the boys had hearts in their eyes. The girls looked at us with envy at all the attention we got.

"Look, some a new slut is with Akio and Hotaru!" A girl shouted. Some laughed, but the boys started drooling. I ignored the girl and walked on. The comments continued but I didn't care. They were just jealous.

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A knock was heard on the door of my dorm room. I went over and opened it, only to see Anna, Nonoko, Hotaru, and Akio. Anna and Nonoko squealed, hugging me tightly.

"How have you been, Mi-chan?" Anna asked, looking at my stoic expression.

"Fine…" I replied. Anna frowned. She was probably thinking something along the lines of why I wasn't smiling.

"Mi-chan… are you not happy to see us?" Nonoko asked, looking a bit disappointed.

"No, I am happy." I replied, with the same expression.

"Then why aren't you smiling, like the bubbly old you?" Anna questioned.

"Because I am not the old me." I said, frowning a bit.

"Yep… she's on her period now." Akio joked.

"Shut the hell up, Akio. I just changed after the accident!" I yelled, banging the wall with my fist.

"I thought you took your anger management pills." Hotaru said, raising an eyebrow.

"I did." I muttered.

"Everyone report to the Main Attendances Hall for this years opening speech!" A voice over the intercom boomed. "I repeat, everyone report to the Main Attendances Hall for this years opening speech!"

"Come on." Hotaru said.

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Me, Hota, Akio, Noko, and Anna were all in the attendance hall, chatting quietly.

"Minna, attention up front!" The voice of the principal called from the stage. I rolled my eyes, looking at him.

"I am going to introduce our teachers now. You will be taking two main classes, so pick two! First is Narumi with the guitar!" A gay looking blonde in pink pranced onto the stage. I wanted to be in the guitar class… damn, I'll have to put up with that gay ass.

"Next are vocals, Serina-sensei." This time a blonde female came on the stage. She stood next to Narumi, and slung an arm around him.

"I am the vocals teacher, and this idiot is my little brother. If he annoys anyone, he'll answer to me." She announced. She seemed normal enough, she may be strict though. I think I'll take vocals.

"Misaki-sensei is for drums and keyboard." A mid-aged man walked out. And then he… kissed Narumi on the lips. WTH! That was so damn disturbing. Yep, he must be gay.

"Naru's taken!" He called out. Anna grabbed my arm, most likely scared by the couple.

"Ahem… Okay, and the last teacher is Jinno who takes care of everything else." A man with a stick in his hand and a toad on his head walked out and kept his distance from the rest of the teachers. He was smart, don't go near them…

"And those are the teachers of choice. Now, sign up for two and go to there classes starting tomorrow. Everyone can go have lunch now." The principal fled from the stage, eager to get away from Narumi and Misaki. I don't blame him…

Students piled out of the room quickly. I stood and began walking with my four friends… if I count my sister as a friend… to the cafeteria.

Halfway to the cafeteria I heard someone call everyone's name but mine.

I turned to find four boys standing together. One had dirty blonde hair and dark eyes, another blonde hair with azure eyes, and another blonde-brown hair with bright eyes. The last had Raven locks and crimson, cold eyes.

"Your friends?" I asked, my face remaining expressionless.

"Sort of." Nonoko said.

"No way." Akio said.

"I don't know…" Anna said.

All different answers? That is… special.

"Yep, we're there friends! You new? My name is Koko, and I can show you around." The one with the blonde-brown hair said, smiling at me widely. He pushed passed Nonoko and paced a hand on my shoulder, trying to be charming or something. I raised my eyebrow, total playboy here.

"No, I can find my way around myself. And just so you know, the play boy act, not working." I said, slapping his hand off my shoulder. I kept my stoic expression, and he raised an eyebrow at me, wondering why his little act didn't work.

"Koko, back off, this is my younger twin, and you better not touch a hair on her pretty head." Akio said, pushing Koko away.

"You have a twin?" The boy with dirty blonde hair asked. Akio nodded. "By the way, My name is Yuu." I just looked at him, and nodded.

"This is Ruka." He said, pointing to the boy with azure eyes and a bunny on his shoulder. He stepped forward and put his hand out, smiling.

"Keep your hands to yourself, bunny boy." I said, glancing at him. He pulled his hand back, a bit shocked. A girl would kill to touch his hand.

"Natusme, introduce yourself." Akio snapped.

"You just told her my name. But I can provide some entertainment for you hot little sis." The boy with raven locks said.

I angrily stepped forward. "I can provide everyone some entertainment, a fist on your face, you ugly bastard!"

"I don't think those pills work." Akio said, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"Pills?" Yuu asked, raising an eyebrow.

"None of your damn business. Akio, don't talk about those. Unless I want them to know about my… condition." I said, glaring at my sister.

"Apologize, now." Natsume said, glaring at me.

"For what?" I growled.

"For calling me and ugly bastard." He spat.

"Okay. I'm sorry that you are and ugly playboy bastard who hands out with a bunch of I think I'm all that lowlifes, and I'm sorry you think you can get whatever you want and have an abnormally large ego." I said, turning away and walking.

Natsume grabbed my wrist tightly and spun me around.

"Let go." I growled, glaring at him. He snaked his other arm around my waist and pressed his lips against mine.

Memory's flooded into my mind. I pushed him away and fell to the ground. Memories started playing in my head.

"No! Mi-chan, don't remember that time!" I hear Akio shout. I slowly shook my head, placing my hands over my ears. Everything went black.

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"MIKAN!" I heard Hotaru's voice shout. I slowly opened my eyes, and saw my friends and the four boys leaning over me. I was laying down in the middle of the hallway.

"I remembered that time… everything." I whispered. I saw Akio's face grimace as she helped me into a sitting position.

"It's okay Mikan, you can cry all you need." Anna said softly.

"No I can't." I whispered. Akio looked at me sadly.

"Why?" I heard Koko ask.

"Because her tears are dried up." Akio whispered. "After that time she can't cry anymore."

"Akio! D-don't you dare mention that to them!" I said, glaring at her.

"Why did she faint?" Natsume asked, hands in pockets.

"It's because you, Hyuuga, made me remember things that I was suppose to forget. And I had forgotten very well until you kissed me, you sick bastard. I really appreciate it, because now I have to hate living more than before and curse my existence." I growled, forcing myself onto my feet. His eyes widened slightly, but immediately shrunk again.

"And what exactly did you remember?" He asked, leaning against a wall.

"None of your business." I said, and ran off to my dorm room, skipping lunch.

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