Ah, Hello! Watashi wa Randomosity desu! But you can call me Ran-chan! I hope you enjoy my story! Before you begin, here are a few things you should know . . .

1) This is a Yaoi story. Allen x Kanda to be exact...

2) All names and places are spelled according to the Manga version...

3) All characters are as they appear in the Manga so Allen is 15 and Kanda is 18...

4)I will make a point of answering all questions you have about my story, so ask away!

5) One more thing, this story is more 'T+' even though that rating doesn't exist... I will try to rate each chapter though. This story may contain swearing, violence, and hot guy on guy make-out scenes... You've been warned!

This chapter is rated T for use of the 'F' word. \('o')/

I don't own -man. It is owned by the people who own it.

Now please enjoy...

Broken When I'm Open

"To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt."

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Allen staggered into his room. He was finally back at the Black Order after a three week long mission with Kanda. Needless to say, they got into a fight and hadn't spoken since. They had needed to travel by ship to get to their destination and Allen (already being relatively clumsy by nature) had some difficulty adjusting to the rocking motion of the vessel. He had tripped and collided hard with a near by Kanda and they had both fallen down a flight of stairs. Allen replayed the scene in his mind...

"Dammit, Moyashi! Get the hell off me!" Kanda yelled.

"I-I'm sorry Kanda!" Allen said as he hoisted himself up with the assistance of a nearby railing.

"Che. Why are you so damn stupid?!" Kanda stood with as much composure as he could muster.

"It was an accident! You shouldn't have been walking so close to an open stairwell!" (it was a lame comeback, and Allen knew it.)

"How dare you try to make this my fault! Maybe if you weren't such a fucking idiot people would be able to stand being around you for more than five consecutive seconds!"

"I..." Allen wasn't sure how to respond. He knew that wasn't true. Almost everyone at the Black Order who met him liked him. But for some reason Kanda's comment threw him off and his words caught in his throat.

"Just stay away from me! I don't want your cursed aura anywhere near me!" Kanda spat out the words and stormed off cursing under his breath.

Allen felt a tear about to roll down his pale cheek but he blinked it back. He would not lose. He would not show even a hint of weakness, especially in front of Kanda Yuu.

"Just stay away from me!" those words echoed in his mind. "...Jerk..." Allen thought and drifted off into a well-needed sleep.

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Allen awoke early the next morning. He yawned and rubbed his eyes sleepily. He glanced over at the clock sitting on his bedside table, 7:45. He yawned once more, shuffled out of bed and walked toward his dresser feeling a bit light-headed. "I must still be tired..." he thought reaching for his usual articles of clothing; a pair of gray pants, a white button up shirt and a red ribbon for around his neck.

Once dressed, Allen made his way absentmindedly to the Cafeteria. He hadn't eaten dinner the night before because the kitchen had been closed by the time he'd returned from his mission. The Cafeteria was quite busy now, which was to be expected considering the time. Most people at the Black Order came down for breakfast between 7:30 and 9:00. Allen moved toward the end of the line, his stomach growling impatiently. He was looking forward to one of Jerry's delicious home cooked meals (ten times the regular portion size of course). His mouth started watering as he pondered what he would ask for, but his thoughts were interrupted by an all-to-familiar voice...

Allen peeped his head out of the line. Kanda was at the ordering window having some sort of argument with Jerry... "It's about damn time!" he heard Kanda shout. "He must be in a worse mood than usual..." Allen mused to himself.

Kanda grabbed his tray. He had ordered his favourite, soba. He started walking to a table when he spied Allen looking at him from the line.

Allen turned away quickly, a slight blush crossing his cheeks. "He saw me! Dammit!" Allen shut his eye's and hoped the obviously angry exorcist would just ignore him, but he wasn't that lucky.

"Oi! Baka Moyashi! What are you looking at?!"

Allen's heart started beating faster. He opened his eyes and turned toward the face of doom staring him down. He felt his stomach drop. "A-ah. Good morning Kanda! How are you doing today?" Allen said as calmly and as pleasantly as he could.

"Heh. Going to order your usual mountain of food? Maybe if you ate less and disciplined yourself more you wouldn't be such a useless brat."

Allen's eyes dulled and his smile faded. He turned away. Why did Kanda's words hurt so much?! He couldn't explain it and he felt a sad pang in his chest.

Kanda scowled and walked away. "Baka Moyashi..." he thought. But deep in the back of his mind he knew what he had said was unnecessary. Being a parasite-type, Allen had to eat more to support his innocence. He pushed those thoughts away. "...Baka Moyashi..."

Allen moved steadily up the line lost in a daze. He still felt light-headed and his vision was getting a bit bleary...

"-len. Allen. Allen!"

"H-huh? What?" Allen stammered.

"What can I get you Allen? It's your turn to order!" Jerry giggled. "The usual?"

Allen gave Jerry a weak smile. "Um, ye-" Allen stopped. "Maybe if you ate less and disciplined yourself more you wouldn't be such a useless brat." ... "Uh, actually I'll have a bowl of granola and some toast." Allen finished.

Jerry remained silent waiting for Allen to continue but no more requests came. "Allen, is that all you want?!" Jerry asked startled. "Are you feeling OK?" Jerry reached out a hand and hovered it in front of Allen's forehead. "You feel warm, Honey!"

"Oh! I'm fine, really!" Allen beamed. He didn't want to worry Jerry. "I'm just not that hungry today, that's all! Ha ha... ha..." he trailed off. He really had lost his appetite for some reason. Jerry seemed to buy it and handed him his order.

Kanda finished his meal and decided to start his morning training. As he was leaving the cafeteria he noticed Allen was just sitting down. He suddenly felt a wave of guilt wash over him. Allen had a small breakfast, a very small breakfast. "He must have taken my comment to heart... maybe I should..." Kanda took a step toward Allen but his pride stopped him short. "Am I... concerned?" The thought enraged him. He mentally kicked himself and walked hastily out the door and straight into Lenalee.

"Oh! Kanda!" she gasped. "Please report to Komui's office immediately. You have a mission." And with that, she scooted past him into the cafeteria.

"A mission?! I've only just returned from my last mission!" Kanda grumbled and started to his supervisors office. He opened the door (not bothering to knock) and slammed it closed behind him. He didn't even try to hide his anger. "First I have to wait half an hour for my breakfast because that idiot Jerry 'forgot' about my order and now this?!" he mentally seethed.

"Oh! Kanda! Beautiful morning is it not?!" Komui laughed and gave him a 'thumbs up' sign.

"..."

"Huh? What's with you?" Kanda's rage radiated off of him and Komui could feel it. "Did it just get colder in here? What could have possibly peeved Kanda-chan off so early in the morn'?"

Kanda winced at the girly suffix added to the end of his name. He drew Mugen from its sheath and pointed it threateningly at the idiot before him. "What. Do. You. Want?!" Kanda enunciated each word angrily.

"Ah yes! You have a mission! I will explain the details as soon as Allen gets here." Komui said gleefully, unswayed by the ticked off, sword bearing exorcist.

Kanda stiffened. "Moyashi!?"

Just then, a light knock came from the other side of the door. Allen slowly entered, he felt hot and his head was spinning so he clutched the door handle for support. "Ah! Komui! Sorry I'm la-GAH! Kanda?!" Allen immediately straightened his back and tried to look as alert as possible upon noticing the scowling Japanese staring into him with hateful, loathing eyes.

Komui grinned and pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose with his index finger. "Allen! Glad you could make it! You two have another mission!"

Thank you for bearing with me so far! This is my first shot at Fanfiction... or even writing out of school... but I am in English Honours so hopefully I don't suck too bad!

Please tell me how I can improve! Review~nya?

*Authors Notes* I live in Canada and we spell some words with an extra 'u' e.g. 'honour'. Just so you know! Also, almost all italics are thoughts, in case you missed that.

Interviewer: Ran-chan, are you questioning the readers intelligence?

Ran-chan: Of course not!The readers are all-knowing! *Bows head to readers. Gives cake to those who review* (Btw, The cake is a lie.)