Hallo!! XD It is I, Hollywing, again. This is just a little Ikarishipping drabble, suicidal, yup yup :3

I think I like writing suicide fics now XD But this one's a bit sappy.

To let you know, Dawn is the speaker, and she's pretending she's talking to Paul. The song written is Damaged by Plumb.

The characters are a bit OOC, so sorry :( Apologies.

"Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've ever know
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know...

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know..."

It's been a while, since you were gone. Two months and a week, to be exact. Yeah, I've been keeping count…It hurts so much to remember. I hope you're in a better place. I've taken traveling and contests to a standstill for the time being…I think I'll stay in Sinnoh for a few weeks...where your soul lies…

Why did you have to do that? Why did you pelt your body into the lake, keeping you head under the water until there was no air left for you to survive? Why did you cut your skin, repeatedly, marring it with a thousand scars? Don't you know how much it pained to see you try so hard to die? Don't you know…how much tears…and pain…after you died? I should know; I'm the one who found your body floating on the surface of Sendoff Spring!

I'll never forget when it all started. I'll never forgive myself for it. That time in the Pokemon Center, the one time in years that you actually talked to me…the first time you actually looked at me. And you said it. You actually remembered my name…

It was all friendly conversation…until Ash brought along the subject of a battle. You just couldn't help insulting his Pokemon, could you? You knew it would make him mad. You just didn't know that he'd bring up your past losses and all the pain you went through, your dead parents. Your temper just got way out of hand suddenly. It was so scary and terrifying, watching you turn from calm and content to screaming and cursing in fury. I'd never seen you act like that; it was too much for me to go on looking. All I heard was the automatic door shutting before realizing you were gone…the last time I heard your rough voice…

No need to worry? Huh. Yeah right.

You should know how much everyone missed you…Reiji would talk to anyone for days...Ash is taking all the blame on himself for making you suicidal…hell, even your Pokemon miss you.

Most of all…I miss you, so much! I feel hollow without knowing you're alive and well…I never got to say how much I cared about you, I was about to before you…died. Now I can only cry in front your tombstone, because it felt like my heart was lost. I thought I hated you after I witnessed how you taunted and tortured Chimchar to her breaking point where she'd go insane. I couldn't believe I could fall for such a monster, until I saw your softer side. You eventually became less ruthless, making it easier to love you. I wish I could just look into your night-black eyes, and tell you how I feel…

I guess I'll never know, if you feel the same…

"I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me..."

Goodbye, Paul...