Here's the second, and last, chapter of My Not So Random Drabbles. Hope you like it. Please R&R :D

All the feelings that I get

But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it.

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

Everything About You-3 Days Grace

Her life had become a vicious cycle. She hated it, she hated him. But she still loved him. Which just made her hate it all the more.

How could she still love him?

He's broken her heart before, but this time it wasn't just broken. It was shattered. Shattered into such tiny pieces she wasn't sure if it would ever stick back together.

She hated him so much for doing this to her. Hated him more than her mother, her father and all the other people who'd ever put her down and made her feel like crap put together.

But then, if she hated him so much,

Why did she still love him?

We we're thinking we would never be apart

With your name tattooed across my heart

Who would have thought it would end up like this?

Where everything we talked about is gone

And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back

Before it all went wrong

Before The Worst-The Script

She couldn't help but wonder how this had happened.

It was working this time, she really thought this time it wouldn't end.

Or at least, she had never pictured it ending like this. Never imagined he would do this.

She knew she had to go back, but she dreaded seeing him. Just thinking about him brought a horrible mixture of emotions: anger, sadness, insecurity, confusion. Seeing him would only make it worse.

He would say he was sorry. She knew that was all he could do, but it wasn't enough.

No matter how much time passed, it would never be enough.

I'd take another chance, take a fall

Take a shot for you.

I need you like a heart needs a beat.

But it's nothing new.

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue

And you say 'sorry' like the angel

Heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize.

Apologize-OneRepublic

She walked into the hospital nervously. It was her first day back since he'd told her.

As she walked further in she received constant apologetic looks. She just kept her head down and walked.

But then she saw him. He was leaning against the nurse's station lost in thought.

At that moment she was fighting so many emotions, part of her wanted to go up and hit him, scream at him for what he'd done, but part of her wanted to go up and say that she forgave him, that she loved him no matter what.

She'd still do anything for him, she'd probably give him another chance eventually. She needed him. As much as he hurt her she always would.

He looked up and his facial expression changed completely when he saw her, a mixture of shock and remorse written across his face.

'Elliot…' he began.

'No.' she said simply.

'Elliot. We need to talk. I'm so sorry.'

As she'd predicted. 'Sorry'. She turned to face him. Tears stinging her eyes, she felt like she was radiating anger.

'It's too late.'

An ounce of peace is all I want for you

Will you never call again?

And will you never say that you love me

Just to put it in my face?

Hate Me-Blue October

A few weeks passed and they developed a routine:

Every day he would try and get her to forgive him, every day she would completely blank him, or give him a few venomous words.

Until one day he shut her in the doctor's lounge with him.

'We need to talk about this.'

'No. JD we don't. You cheated on me, and I'm never going to forgive you for that.'

'OK. I get that. I don't expect you to, I just want you to be OK.'

'Well frankly JD, that's never going to happen. You broke my heart. You said you loved me and then you did that! I really loved you and you just shoved it in my face.'

She gave him one last dirty look and stormed out, slamming the door behind her. But as soon as she was outside she collapsed against the wall and began to cry.

I can see mountains floating over the ocean


When I'm with you


I can see stars burning brighter


When I'm with you

I can see you and me


And I don't want to lose that

And I don't want it to go


I don't want to lose what we had

I don't want to see it all fade

Forgiving-Lost Chain

She was sick of being angry at him now, sick of having to think of some harsh words every time he tried to talk to her.

He had tried so hard to make it up her, she knew it would never be the same, but maybe, she could try to at least be civil and get things back to a relative norm. Hopefully things could get a little bit better. Hopefully it would stop hurting so much.

'Hey Elliot.' JD muttered, walking quickly and keeping his head down to avoid a tongue lashing.

'Hey.' She whispered softly back, smiling at the feeling it gave her just to speak to him again.

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me

And I can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me

And I'm painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Falling Slowly-Glen Hansard

'Elliot?' he asked hopefully as she left the hospital that day.

'What?' she sighed impatiently, she really couldn't be bothered with his apologies anymore. When would he get that she could never truly forgive him?

'Look, it's been months of me apologizing and you've only forgiven me a little bit, so I'm not even going to bother saying sorry.'

'Good, Because it won't work'

'Look, it's just, I love you. I know what I did was beyond stupid but I will always love you. And I know you'll never ever forgive me but, could you try and move past it. Could we try again, while we've still got time?'

'But JD, I'm still so angry with you, I'm not sure I can just move past it.'

'I know. It'll take time but could we at least try? Please?'

'You know I've never been so hurt but, no matter what I still love you. So I can try, note the word try, to move past it.'

'Really?' JD said excitedly and tried to kiss her.

'Not quite there yet.' She said as she pulled back, but she gave him a slight smile.

I love happy endings :)