Authors note

My first fanfic, please tell me how I can improve, I know the story sucks, it didnt quite go how I planned, and it doesnt really make sense.

Set after Exit Wounds

Jack and Ianto just sat in Jack's office. Jack sat on his chair, and Ianto sat on the edge of the desk facing his lover. Neither of them looking at the other. Both avoiding the others gaze. They sat in silence for what felt like hours. It was Ianto who finally broke the silence.

"How do you do it?"

"Do what?"

Ianto paused as he thought of a good way to ask his question, but there was no good way.

"How do you cope with losing so many people?"

He looked at Jack, who was just staring at him. He could see the pain in his eyes, it wasn't something most people would ever see. The captain was good at masking his emotions, but with Ianto he felt he never needed to.

Jack sighed deeply. "It's not something you ever get used to, even when you've lived as long as I have." He chuckled and looked away from the younger man. That was his way of dealing with things, just pretending they don't hurt as much as they do.

Ianto hung his head and stared at the floor. Another painful silence.

This time it was Jack who spoke first.

"I'm sorry." He whispered looking back up to Ianto, who was still staring at the floor.

"What for sir?"

"I should have been able to stop this from happening," Ianto sharply turned his head to face Jack, "or done anything to change things." Jack turned his head away again.

"Jack," Ianto lifted Jack's head to face him, their eyes met, "there's nothing you could have done, this wasn't your fault."

"But I-" Ianto silenced Jack by kissing him softly, he didn't seem to mind.