Alright, so I'm sure you guys read the summary and now want to murder me for implying incest, much less twincest. Listen: I do not support incest in this world, I have a brother and trust me, the idea of that makes me want to spew my guts out. However, I do enjoy a "forbidden love" story, and I felt Namixas needed more love from my end, so just try not to massacre me.

FULL SUMMARY: Roxas had a perfect life: he was popular, in love with the lovely Namine, and had a close bond with his sister. Where's the problem? His sister is Namine. At what times are you supposed to fight for love, and at what times are you supposed to fight against it? When is it a suicide, and when is it being a martyr? How do you know if what you're doing is right, when everyone else says it's wrong?

.:Chapter 1: My Darkest Secret:.

Roxas was sleeping on his bed, his room littered with magazines and old clothes. He kicked his plain white covers off in the course of the night, leaving his bare legs from the red shorts as well as the parts of his arms that his white T-shirt didn't cover. Thankfully, it was early September and still quite warm. Roxas slept on his left side, which left him facing his bedside table which only had a lamp, his alarm clock, and his black cell phone on it. The last of the items vibrated annoyingly, and when Roxas didn't awake to turn it off the ring tone activated on the highest volume: I fell into a burning ring of fire! I want downdowndown! And the flames went up higher! Roxas sat up quickly and glared at the noisy phone before picking it up, "If this isn't important Axel, I will rip your head off," he growled.

"Just making sure you're up Mr. Sunshine," Axel's cheerful voice responded from the speaker. "Don't worry, you can thank me later!" Roxas could faintly hear the crackle snap popping of Axel's Rice Crispies as he spoke, "By the way, how long is milk able to go after the expiration date?"

"Axel..." Roxas glanced at his clock before growling at his friend, "It's freaking 5 o'clock in the morning... I don't need to get up for two more hours!"

Axel chewed on the other side of the phone before talking, "Alright, a month after expiration is definitely a bad time for milk." Roxas was very tempted to throw his phone against a wall, and he would have if he didn't save his allowance for 5 months to buy it in the first place, and there must have been at least 100 bucks worth of music downloaded on it. "Oh, and it's 7:30 buddy, you might want to get moving."

Roxas's eyes widened and he glared at his lying clock, "DAMN IT ALL!" Roxas tossed the phone on the bed and jumped off, tossing his clothes off and pulling some off the floor to put on.

"I love you too Roxy!" Axel's voice resonated from the phone, before a click sounded to let Roxas know he hung up. Roxas glared at the phone, and ran to his sister's door across the hall

"NAIMINE! WAKE UP!" Roxas pounded on the door, and which opened moments later to show a sleepy Namine. Her hair was messed up from her long night's sleep and she was rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. She was wearing only a white T-shirt and some blue shorts. Roxas's eyes widened slightly at the sight, but he remembered that he had a really reason for coming to his twin's room, "Namine, we need to get ready and leave for school quickly!"

"Roxas..." Namine yawned and stretched, "it's only 5." Roxas silently cursed Axel, who was checking his fridge to see if he had any milk from cows that died sometime after the stone age.

"It's okay," Namine smiled brightly at her brother, who turned slightly pink in response. "This way, when school starts we'll be wide awake." Namine smiled again and closed her door to get dressed.

Roxas stared at the door for a moment before sighing and walking back to his own room, and closing the door. Roxas fell on the bed and stared at the phone, "Damn it Axel..." Roxas closed his eyes in an attempt to ignore the image of his sister burned into his head. The way her blue eyes were unfocused... the way her hair was messy from her fluffy pillow... the way her slender legs peeked out from her shorts. Roxas frowned and hit himself in the head, "What's wrong with you? Sicko..." Roxas sat up and turned on his computer, watching as the programs started up. Roxas frowned when he saw his buddy list on his IM'er empty, but then he remembered that no one else would be awake... with the exception of Axel who didn't even own a computer.

Roxas went to the Internet and read the news, but he could still feels the heat in his face. Roxas glared at his reflection in the monitor and forced himself to focus on the news. Sadly, humankind picked a bad time to not do bad things, so the most interesting thing in the news was the fact that some model was having an affair with a married director. Roxas sighed and fell back on his bed, hoping to make up for lost sleep.

"Roxas..." Roxas could hear his sister's soft voice as she knocked carefully on the door. Roxas smiled at the adorable behavior, and just imagined Namine on the other side of that door, leaning against it partially while not looking clingy.

"I'm decent!" He called out, watching the door slowly open. Roxas started to wish he didn't say that when he saw his twin. Namine was dressed in her usual white dress with blue sandals, and her hair was soaking wet against her equally wet skin.

Namine didn't notice Roxas's discomfort and smiled, "The shower's open. Since we woke up early, I can air dry today," Namine smiled wider and Roxas was praying to God that his thoughts weren't apparent... then he remembered that there was no way God was on his side in this mess.

"I took one last night," Roxas gave a sheepish smile and pointed to his permanent bed-head that had a lot to do with sleeping with wet hair. Namine nodded and left, closing the door behind her. The moment she was gone, Roxas's smile was replaced with an angry scowl, "I'm the worst kind of person," Roxas threw his head on his pillow, hoping to distract himself from the tightening in his pants. "Why did we have to be siblings?" Roxas muttered to himself, hating every fiber of his being more and more with each passing second.

...

Roxas walked on to the school grounds with Namine, his head moving back and forth in search for his soon-to-be-dead-best-friend Axel. "I'll get going now!" Namine smiled at Roxas and ran off. Roxas frowned slightly, he knew that although he was high on the totem pole of popularity at this school, Namine was pretty much invisible. Roxas could have lived with that, he would have even appreciated it since he hated popularity himself, but Namine had no friends outside of the teachers, who thankfully weren't perverts or anything like that.

Roxas's thought were interrupted when he heard a loud yell, "Roxy!" Roxas scowled when his friend wrapped an arm around his neck and pulled him into a strangle/hug. Axel grinned, knowing how annoyed his friend was, "Oh, come on Roxy! I was lonely this morning," Axel gave a fake puppy-dog pout which Roxas chose to ignore.

"You didn't have to take it out on me," Roxas growled, "and how many times do I have to tell you to not call me 'Roxy'." Roxas turned his head away from his friend and saw some other students talking to Namine. Roxas would have felt encouraged if it wasn't Larxene, Marluxia, and Demyx. Demyx was relatively harmless, but both Marluxia and Larxene enjoyed tormenting the younger girl. "Axel," Roxas turned to the pyro, "could you get Marluxia and Larxene to lay off Namine? It bugs me, you know?"

"No problem," Axel shrugged, "they just get bored easily." Axel grinned at Roxas, who was too busy keeping a watchful eye on his sister to notice. He didn't have any hard feelings towards the three, not even Larxene. After all, the 5 of them (Axel, Demyx, Larxene, Marluxia, and Roxas) hung out together often and such, but Roxas knew better than to actually trust any of them. Then again, having such a dark secret did make a person generally mistrusting.

"I'm going to class," Roxas muttered, going off to the science lab. He passed the group and called out to Namine, giving her an excuse to leave the group.

Axel walked over to the three, "Geez, you two really can be bitchy," Axel laughed. "Though I've yet to see whose worse, the sadistic yet promiscuous Larxene," Axel gestured at said female, "or the boy-molesting Marly!"Axel grinned at Marluxia, who glared at him in return.

"First off, I do not touch little boys," Marluxia sniffed, "I only like strong men..." Marluxia sighed in fantasy before continuing, "Secondly: do you even know what 'promiscuous' means?" Marluxia sneered at Axel, who just laughed it off. Even though to an outsider it seemed that the two shared a rivalry, they were actually really close, just as close as the rest of them.

Larxene sighed and crossed her arms, "I'll have you know I'm not 'promiscuous' Axel, I'm just a little..." Larxene smirked, "naughty."

"Oh please," Demyx laughed at Larxene's comment, "how can that be? Are you the newest thing: a virgin whore!?" The three boys laughed at Larxene, who just glared since she couldn't really respond to a comment like that.

Axel stopped for a second to remember what he was supposed to do before remembering, "Oh yeah, can you guys lay off Namine a bit? Roxas's getting a little peeved," Axel shrugged. "He's my main man, I just wanted to pass on the message."

"I thought I was your main dude!" Demyx laughed.

"No way, that'd be me," Marluxia smelled a flower as he spoke.

"I'm more of a man than either of you," Larxene teased, and they all laughed at that. "Anyway, I'll back off the chick, she annoys me but I'll live." Larxene shrugged and crossed her arms.

Axel grinned at her, "Thanks Lar-Lar," Axel winked and ran off, not noticing that the simply action made Larxene so red that she matched his hair.

Marluxia and Demyx noticed this however and grinned at each other before singing, "Axel and Larxene, sitting in a tree! K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" Larxene turned and shot them both death glares, which brought the happy tune to an end. "Seriously though," Marluxia smirked at Larxene, "I've never seen you decide to 'lay off' someone before, I guess when Axel asks it's much more important."

Demyx sighed and gave Larxene a sympathetic smile, "You know that it's never going to happen, right? He's into the dumb sluts." Demyx paused for a moment, "Actually, you might have a chance," Demyx laughed and avoided the punch Larxene threw at his head.

Marluxia turned serious, "All teasing aside, what exactly do you plan to do? You certainly aren't his type. Put more politely, he's into the pretty faces that have nothing behind them. Not to mention he's into petite brunets who seem innocent," Marluxia gestured at Larxene, emphasizing how she was none of these things.

"I forget Marly, how's your boyfriend?" Larxene snapped at Marluxia, who looked away with narrowed eyes. Okay, so being an outed gay high schooler who appreciated male teachers who were not gay didn't get you much of a sex life. "Listen, regardless of what you two say, I'm still closer to him than any of his flings could ever claim to be," Larxene sniffed, "Roxas may be his main man, but I'm still his only woman."

Meanwhile, Roxas was sitting outside the science lab as he listened to the mp3 player on his phone. Namine sat next to him, sketchpad out as she drew a flower bush that decorated the school; the details alone making the drawing impressive. "ROXY!" Roxas winced and glared at the one who said it. Surprisingly, this time it wasn't Axel, but a girl called Angel. Angel had dark red hair and bright green eyes, and she was overall a very pretty girl. At least, she was in the eyes of most. Roxas had a habit of comparing all girls to Namine, and none of them even could compare. Even the petite blonds with big blue eyes like Namine didn't have her aura, so this red-head was ugly in Roxas's opinion (thankfully he was too smart to tell her that).

"Angel..." Roxas sighed, "no one can call me that. Axel does it, but he also sleeps with his eyes open." Roxas turned up his music to drown out whatever flirty reply she had to that. To many, it seemed like Angel fell hard for Roxas, but it wasn't the case. Angel was actually Marluxia's girlfriend before he came out, and she was really more of an excuse to prove he wasn't gay. When he decided to let people other than his family friends know, he told Angel first and she never took it well. As "revenge" she dated both Demyx and Axel, and that didn't work out at all. So, since Angel wasn't going to go lesbian and date Larxene, the only friend left to get Marluxia jealous was Roxas, who neither had or wanted a girlfriend for obvious reasons.

"...so I have to go to English now, see ya later Roxy!" Roxas's eyebrow twitched in irritation but he gave a sigh of relief when she left. Namine gave Roxas a sympathetic smile before returning to her drawing. Roxas made a mental note to avoid Angel, as well as her giggly friends.

Axel ran up to Roxas and grinned, "That was pretty cruel Roxy," Axel laughed at Roxas. "She's not that bad you know. I mean, yeah she's as dumb as a 2-by-4, but she has nice tits. Not to mention, I think she actually likes you."

Roxas glared at Axel, "You know, I don't want advice from you. You're just looking for some free sex, why would I listen to you?"

"Hey, don't blame me," Axel held up his hands for silence, "that's all they look for, so I just give them what they want and nothing more." Axel scratched his head, "I've yet to meet a girl who wants me for me. Angel, on the other hand, really likes you."

Roxas thought of Larxene and sighed again, "You bring dense to a whole new level, there's no way I'd take advice from you." Roxas pocketed his phone when he saw Prof. Vexen approaching, Marluxia close behind him... for reasons you all can guess. Vexen unlocked the door and everyone started walking into the classrooms to their designated spaces. Roxas and Axel sat side-by-side in the back, Namine sat in the front and was the closest to the desk besides Marluxia, who may or may not have actually had a desk of his own since he was always leaning on Vexen's.

When the class was finally full, Vexen turned to the chalkboard. "Today, we will be discussing genetics." The class groaned, there were very few people who enjoyed anything about reproduction that didn't involve the actual process. "I'm sure you all remember the basic discussions from previous grades, such as how you would get traits from your parents." A few students nodded in response, but the majority were currently building daydreams to distract them for the hour long class. "However, sometimes traits arrive that never truly came from either parent. The most common way for this to happen is through inbreeding." Roxas's head shot up and the lesson suddenly became interesting... very interesting indeed.

"If two parents are closely related, whether animal or plant, then inbreeding occurs." Vexen wrote down key words on the blackboard, which were written down by dedicated students and simply memorized by Roxas. "Recessive genes that would typically go unnoticed appear in the offspring, such as a low fertility, a higher chance of genetic disorders, facial symmetry, smaller adult size, a weaker immune system, and a low birth rate." Vexen nodded and continued, "Due to natural selection, first-generation inbreeding offspring usually die before being able to reproduce. However, in cases such as on islands, they will adapt to become a new race or species. It is for this reason that royal families in the past attempted to keep their blood 'pure'." The class continued on and Vexen continued with how inbreeding had built the separate species of creatures and such.

When class was out, Axel stretched and walked next to Roxas, who wondered if his friend spent the entire class sleeping. "Pretty powerful stuff, eh Roxy?" Roxas sighed and remembered that Axel was pretty much a genius... meaning he could sleep through all the classes and still know what was going on. "Though if you ask me, Vexen seemed a little obsessed with inbreeding," Axel laughed, "maybe his mom is also his aunt?" Roxas resisted to urge to glare at his friend, who continued, "That stuffs pretty nasty. I mean, could you imagine doing Namine?" Roxas really did glare at Axel this time, but that was mostly because he did exactly what he asked him to, and he didn't like it. Or, more accurately, he did like it and he didn't want to.

The two continued to English, which they shared with Larxene, Demyx, and Marluxia but no Namine. Professor Saix was at the front of the classroom reading through his papers. Marluxia grinned at Axel, "On a scale from one to ten, how hot is Saix's scar?"

Axel shot Marluxia a look of disgust, "For my sake, please keep those thoughts to yourself." Roxas sighed, how did he become friends with these people again. "Go ask Larxene, you girls should get along better."

Marluxia shot Axel a knowing look "Larxene isn't into older men. She prefers someone her own age, preferably someone she already knows well." Roxas looked up at Axel in curiosity, who seemed clueless to the subtle hints, "You mean Larxene actually likes someone?"

Roxas sat down at the desk and banged his head on it, was his friend really this dense? "Maybe I could help her get him?" Axel grinned and Roxas exchanged a look with Marluxia: the answer to that was yes.

"Settle down students," Saix stood up with the expressionless face that everyone had grown to know, or know and love in Marly's case. "Now, I hope you all finished your poetry from yesterday, correct?" The students nodded half-heartedly and Saix continued, "Is anyone interested in sharing their poem?" Marluxia's hand shot up and Saix glanced at it for a second, "Does anyone other that Marluxia wish to share?" When no other hands rose Saix sighed, "Fine, please read your poem to us."

Marluxia winked at Saix, who just sighed. "From day to day I search these halls/ Wanting to find that man/ Everyone says I can't do it/ But they're wrong: I can./ I can't keep my eyes off you/ Everyday in class/ I hope you drop a pencil/ So that I can stare at your bum." Marluxia grinned and the class shot him looks of stupor.

"Marly... 'bum' doesn't rhyme with 'class.'" Demyx sighed and threw a pencil at Marluxia's head. "I believe the word you were looking for was 'ass', which about sums you up in one word."

"Detention for you Demyx," Saix wrote down a grade for Marluxia, "and he is right Marluxia, you need to improve your rhyming." Marluxia muttered something about humor and Saix continued, "Roxas, would you please share your poem with us?"

Roxas sighed and pulled out his paper. He really didn't like reading in front of people. "How long have I loved you?/ How long has it been like this?/ Why is it so many years ago/ Everyday we would kiss/ But circumstances have changed/ Though you still live in my heart/ The chains that continue to bind us/ Are the walls tearing us apart." Roxas blushed slightly when he felt everyone's stare, "What?"

Axel gave a low whistle, "Damn, who knew my boy was so deep?" Axel shook his head slowly, "That was another level completely."

Saix nodded, "Detention for you too Axel." Saix wrote down a grade, "Excellent work Roxas. May I ask where the inspiration comes from?"

Roxas looked down and muttered, "Someone close..."

Sensing his friend's embarrassment, Axel decided to tease him, "I had no idea you felt that way about me!" Axel grabbed Roxas and pulled him into a headlock, "You don't need to hold back just because we're friends!"

"Axel... get off me before I rip your fucking head off!" Roxas glared at Axel, who glanced to see is Saix decided to detention Roxas. He didn't.

"Awww, come on! He said "fuck" for fuck's sake!" Axel complained.

"2 more detentions Axel," Saix gestured at Axel to get off of Roxas. Axel murmured something about a teacher's pet and sat down. Saix continued, "Would anyone else like to share their poetry?" When no one else raised their hand Saix picked on his own, "Since you seem to enjoy taking Axel, why don't you?"

Axel sighed and stood up, "Rice Crispies and milk/ Over a month old/ And when I call my buddy/ His response is cold." Axel sat back down and smiled at Roxas, who was able to figure out pretty quickly when he wrote this... masterpiece.

"Axel, your poem needs to have an actual purpose, while subtlety is good, you need to be somewhat more direct." Since Saix seemed to on a roll with that particular group of friends, he picked Demyx next to read.

"Hold on to your pants people, cause this is gonna blow you away!" Everyone looked back and forth and wondered if that was a warning or the poem. "A wandering musician/ A pure blooded princess/ A tavern wench/ All three bound together/ By the sweet song's aroma/ And love's cruel stench." Demyx smiled, knowing full well he got an A on this poem, no surprise since he did write his own songs.

"Larxene," Saix looked at the blonde, ignoring her glare. "Please grace us all with your poetry."

Larxene swore under her breath and stood up, "I hate you all/ I hope you die." Larxene crumpled up the paper when she was done and tossed it into the basket, making a bulls-eye. Everyone would have laughed at her poem if they didn't know she wasn't joking. Saix wrote down Larxene's low grade and called on people one-by-one to read their poems, but since no one else was an important part of the story they won't be mentioned.

When the bell rang to release the students Axel wrapped his arms around Larxene and Marluxia's shoulders and grinned, "We failures aren't going to hang out with geniuses like you!" Axel pretended to snub Roxas and Demyx, and pulled Larxene and Marluxia to auto-shop, not noticing Marluxia's smirk from the also unnoticed blush on Larxene.

"I'm going to band," Demyx smiled at Roxas, "You'd be surprised by now PO'd Prof. Valentine can get." Demyx ran off to band, taught by, you guessed it, Vincent Valentine.

"Roxas," said blonde turned to Saix, who was looking at him, his amber orbs seeming to dig into his soul. "May I speak with you for a second?" Roxas nodded and walked up to the desk, "I can tell from your poem: you seem to be interested in a 'forbidden love' aren't you?" Roxas turned red and tried to say something, but Saix held his hand up for silence: "I'm not criticizing you, simply warning you. The tale of Romeo and Juliet is seen as romantic, and justly so. However..." Saix's eyes glinted and he continued, "do not forget that they died painful deaths, as punishment for their sin. Today, such a romance would not be considered forbidden, and perhaps your own love story could go through that same change. Do not forget, however, that such a love only has painful consequences, so do not act rashly on an impulse."

Roxas paled and ran off. Saix couldn't know about his feeling for his sister, but his words still rang of the truths they held in Roxas's ears long after he reached his Math class with Prof. Zexion.