So this is my attempt at angst. It may or may not be good. I'll leave that up to you to decide. It's told in Tucker's point of view by the way.

I can't believe he's gone. He's always been there. When I was little and I got hurt he always ran inside to tell someone I fell down or bumped my head. And I would always do the same for him. Whenever he injured himself I went to tell a teacher, or a parent, or even Jazz.

And when we were a little older he told the teacher when Jim stole my favourite baseball card. He wasn't afraid to be a tattle tale because he knew how much I loved that little piece of paper. I told a teacher when Jim went after Danny for telling. Jim got suspended and he didn't pick on us after that.

And in junior high he told me when he though that Cassie was just using me to get the new PDA I was going to give to my first girlfriend. He was right of course. I told him when I thought that Emily was just flirting with him so that she could embarrass him later. I was right too.

And in high school I always had his back for ghost hunting. He'd go out and I'd help in any way I could. I'd make up excuses, hold the thermos, and shoot a couple of ghosts down with a small ecto guns. I did anything I could to help my best friend. I'm thinking now that maybe to really help I should have told an adult. I should have tried to keep him safe. Because it's only now that I realize someone older should have known.

But now I can't run inside to get an adult to help him. I can't tell a teacher that he could get hurt. I can't warn him that he's in danger. I can't do anything because now he's gone. It was just like any other fight. His ghost sense went off, he said "Goin' Ghost" and he flew through the wall. Except it wasn't really just like any other fight. He didn't come back and roll his eyes at whatever Skulker was up to. He didn't patch up his knee and then go back to doing homework. No, because this time, he didn't come back at all.

Teacher says I should put a date on everything I write and thank the people who took the time to read it. So I think I will from now on. But the thanks will go at the end of multi chapter fics. Sorry if this note ruined a moment anyone was having. You may reread the last paragraph and go back to your moment now.

Oct. 19, 2008

Thanks for Reading