I know, I thought I was done too--but this is a great way to help with writer's block, which I've been having a lot lately (hence the zero updates. I'm so sorry).
Hope you enjoy. And don't forget to review!!
Freewill by Rush
When Quil imprinted on Claire, he didn't really stop to think about exactly...not what it meant for his life, but what it meant for...him. He hadn't liked what he'd seen in Jacob's face when he looked at Bella Swan, and he didn't want that.
But Claire wouldn't choose a leech over him. He knew that. Maybe it was some arrogance left over from his other, normal life...but whatever it was, he was sure.
Nothing could change that, not Emily, not Sam, not her mom, or his grandfather, or a thousand trillion leeches.
It was that surety that kept him going, really, when she was going through what everyone called "teenage angst," but what he knew were real. It was what kept him going when he really, really hated imprinting. Because if it wasn't for her, her her, not some weird wolfy bond he had with her, he wasn't sure he'd ever really get over the fact that he really had no choice.
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Moonlight Drive by The Doors
When Quil imprinted on Claire, his life stopped. Well, not exactly, but his life stopped...changing. Everything became fixed, the same...except when he was with her, Quil was way too bored. Especially since the stupid leeches never came anymore...after Bella Swan, it seemed that everyone's blood was just so unappetizing.
So when Claire approached him slowly, pulled him away from the others, pressed a plastic bag into his hand, crinkling ominously, looking up into his bright eyes, he couldn't exactly say no.
That's why she came to him. He was a risk-taker, always was--imprinting didn't change that--he allowed himself and those he loved to have fun, he lived in the moment (yes, start the dog jokes)...she could trust him. Trust him not to say no, and trust him to keep her safe, because, yes, she was a little nervous. Who wouldn't be?
He knew it wasn't worth it. Even when she passed it to him, and he inhaled deeply, and, because everything's so much stronger as a werewolf--what happened to Old Quil's warnings and Paul's and Jacob's failed memories?--he saw the silver-bright moonbeams shine onto her hair, even as he stared, even as she breathed and her eyes were so wide and dark it was like the whole world was reflected in them, even as his brain was convoluted and his eyes were seeing things that couldn't possibly be there, he knew it wasn't worth it.
For one, Sam would kill him. Not for what he did to himself, but for letting Claire.
Second, her mom would kill him. And her. Theoretically.
But also because, honestly? He would never forgive himself if something happened to her. And since he was so...un-alert wasn't the best word, but it would have to do, how could he protect her? A leech would laugh if it could see them now.
But of course, there were no leeches, like there never were for ages, and as she leaned in and her lips met his he couldn't really think the not worth it anymore. Now it was more of a when can we do it again?
So what if she pretended like it never happened? If she wasn't thinking straight? She was still her, and she knows what she wants, she wouldn't kiss him if she didn't want to...He could hang onto it, forever, if need be...
Even as she whispers against his lips Look at the moon Quil isn't it beautiful, look how the moon's shining in your eyes, all silver and rainbow and...I can see it in your eyes...you're so beautiful Quil, so...
He thinks, It's worth it.
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I Need You by The Kinks
Jacob always thought he needed Bella Swan. Sure, food, clothes, his dad, Quil, Embry--now the rest of the pack, Leah even...but there was always Bella. Always.
Until, of course, she got changed into his worst enemy.
So then he still needed her, but, unfortunately for him, she didn't really exist anymore.
It sucked (no pun intended) to need someone who didn't exist.
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Waiting Man by King Crimson
Bella got back from her honeymoon and it wasn't what she expected. At all.
So she went to La Push (not thinking about the fact that soon she wouldn't be able to), and snuck into Jake's shed, her heart floating when she saw his broad, bare back leaning over his Rabbit...
She ran and slammed into him, enough to send him stumbling backwards, werewolf and all.
She would never, ever, do as much as move Edward a step, just like that. Until, of course, she was long gone from him, forever. Her tears dripped down his bare, warm shoulder.
Because of course he was as warm as she'd always remembered, as solid, as human (yes, she knew he was a werewolf), and she couldn't leave, didn't want to leave...
So she kissed him and she melted and even though he knew it would hurt a thousand times worse than it already had, he kissed her back.
She knew she had a husband. He knew she had a husband. And he knew he would have an...imprint, someday.
After, they fell asleep in the car. She smiled before drifting off to sleep, smiled at the fact that this would never have happened with Edward. With anyone but Jacob. And he smiled for that same reason too.
Quil and Embry looked in, wheeled right back out again. Because even though they'd see it in his thoughts eventually, even seeing them sleeping, innocently sleeping...they smirked to each other, swallowing the nausea.
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Eyes of a Child 1 by The Moody Blues
Sometimes Quil over-thought things. But she was just so simple, at least for now, that he couldn't help it. But sometimes, he tried to look at things from her perspective, take his mind away from the spinning confusion that was his life, and it was quite refreshing.
With the eyes of a child, he could see how hanging out with a two (three, four, five) year old wasn't weird. With the eyes of a child, especially a child that happened to be his soul mate, whatever that even means, he could see why...well, he could see everything. Mostly.
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The Nile Song by Pink Floyd
Paul doesn't even know why he let his cousin drag him to Egypt, of all places. He gazed out at the river, wishing, for once in his life, that he could phase and hear the voices of all his pack members. Friends. Brothers. (And sister, he thought reluctantly.)
But then he saw her and he never wanted to leave this blasted place.
She was obviously a tourist, with her golden hair, but she looked so, simply, at home.
And he couldn't look away, he was transfixed, and he thought to Jared, as if he could hear him, that he was sorry he made fun of him because of Kim and now I get it.
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Hello Old Friend by Eric Clapton
Fifty years, more or less, pass.
Bella forgets.
Jacob imprints.
She comes back when Charlie dies (no one really expected him to live this long), just to see his grave. She keeps in the shadows, so to speak--no one sees her, no one knows Bella Swan is actually alive.
Jacob waits. He goes to the grave because he didn't forget, and even though Billy died a long time ago, he still kept tabs on Charlie.
When Bella thinks no one's watching, she sobs, but she hates it that she can't even cry for her father.
Jacob goes and Bella jumps and wrinkles her nose at the smell. Jacob's only just imprinted a few years back--he looks just the same, hasn't changed much. When he smiles sadly she remembers, just a fuzzy picture, feeling, that heat...
He cries for her, and she hugs him and tries to ignore the smell. Because she does remember...
They always say you remember your first love the most, but Bella remembers her second just fine.
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Don't Leave Me Now by Pink Floyd
He begs. Jacob begs and Bella cries and sobs but she still turns away.
He begs even more. He grabs her but never hurts her, and she can't help thinking--
No. She walks away and he runs after her, but after a while he can't anymore. So he lets her go.
He collapses against the side of his Rabbit, buries his face in his hands, nightmarish images of her, her, stone and cold and ice and vampire...they run through his head but he can't go after her anymore, it hurts too much...
He hears her scream as the ice-fire burns her and he runs and runs but he can always hear it.
DCBA-25 by Jefferson Airplane
"Let me go, Leah." She couldn't really believe he was saying this to her. It just wasn't actually happening, it was just some sick joke. He would snap out of it, he would snap out of his weird calmness and tallness...
"Please." He was begging. She didn't look him in the eye. If she did, she would let him go.
"Leah." He took her chin in her hand and she yanked away but it was like he didn't even feel her effort.
"Leah, please. Please. Let me go."
He tilted her face so their eyes met.
She nodded and the tears spilled over. He snatched his hand away before they could reach his skin.
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Do Ya by Electric Light Orchestra
"Really?"
It was just like her, this girl he hardly knew but knew he was going to spend the rest of his life with. She knew it too, this boy, this boy she just found out was actually half-wolf.
Jacob grinned, nodded quickly. "Yep."
She smiled widely. "I've seen a lot of things, but this..."
"Wait till you see this." He backed away from her and disappeared for a few seconds, before she could see him again.
"Whoa." She reached to touch his soft red-brown fur. "Whoa," she says again.
He licked her face and she laughed delightedly. "This is so awesome!"
He laughed a deep throaty wolf chuckle. She jumped on his back, completely unafraid. "I've seen a lot of things, but this is by far the coolest."
He wished he could say something to convey the happiness he felt, but nothing seemed to be needed.
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Plastic Man by The Kinks
Edward Cullen is made out of plastic, Jessica is sure of it. Why else would he refuse her? The only explanation is that he isn't really a person at all.
Probably spent millions on the surgeries, Lauren sneers with her.
If he's plastic, what is his sister?
They both glance at the 'family.'
Petroleum.
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Lucky Man by Emerson, Lake, and Palmer
Sam was always the lucky one. Leah had the pain, Emily had the guilt.
Sam didn't even have that! She saw it in his mind--or rather, she didn't see it in his mind.
So when the big fight came everyone knew someone wouldn't make it, and no one thought it would be Sam.
Not only was he lucky, but he was strong, and big, and smart, and...
It was all a blur to Leah. It was a blur to all of them. But when all the leeches were gone, dead, gray smoke in the gray sky, they looked around.
No one had thought it would be Sam. All bloody--he heaved one last breath and Jacob gasped.
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Castles Made of Sand by Jimi Hendrix
All of La Push saw Sam dump Leah. They heard the half-strangled scream, then they saw her run. They saw his shocked face.
They saw what happened after, too.
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All of La Push saw Jacob break off from Sam's pack. All of La Push who knew, at least. The pack actually saw it, though.
They saw what happened after, too.
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Everyone saw Leah Clearwater jump off the cliff. Only--how many were in the pack now?--fifteen or so teenaged werewolves knew she would be okay.
But she wasn't. And Jacob wasn't really, either.
He was going to tell her, he wasn't like Sam, he had already told that unfortunate girl he happened to imprint on that he couldn't, couldn't and wouldn't...
And then she jumped.
No one saw what happened after.
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Peace Frog by The Doors
Carlisle has always tried to stop war. Of all kinds.
At some point, Aro had to forcefully remove him when he was trying to convince Hitler that, I'm very sorry, but Jews are people too.
Just joking. But Carlisle never had any qualms against stopping human wars, when he could. No one except him really knows what he did to prevent World War Three.
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Dazed and Confused by Led Zeppelin
Bella sent Jacob into a sort of daze. Especially when he was human--oh, mostly when he was human. Afterwards he had other things to think about...when he was around her. Such as not phasing and killing her.
But sometimes he...
When her leech came back, he tried so hard...he still doesn't know exactly what he did wrong. I mean, if she loved them both, why him? It was simple, from the outside.
From the outside everything was simple.
But did she not realize how much he loved her? It hurt every day, that kind of love. She knew that--didn't she? So why would she become what hurt her most, and turn him into the worst time of her life?
It wouldn't be like that, not really. Because he had no Jacob Black to be his sun. He had no Bella Swan.
And that was sort of the point.
Sometimes he just...had enough of it. He told Billy to tell her he was patrolling, but just walked aimlessly as a human, trying to ignore the tugging he felt to go in her direction.
Sometimes it hurt too much and he needed a break. But he always came back.
She didn't.