A/N: Long time no see, guys!! XD

I'm sorry for leaving for about six months. XD I'll complete this baby, I promise. Thanks to everyone who helped me get this far! :D

-: Chapter Ten: The Psychotic Wars: Gula :-

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning,
Is a little later on,
Regardless of warnings,
The future doesn't scare me at all,
Nothing's like before...

-- "Simple and Clean" -- Hikaru Utada

I am the keeper of the chaos Keyblade.

I am the one who makes sure darkness is not overtaken by light.

I am the keeper of darkness.

My Keyblade is one of the darkness.

My voice rang through my head as I swung my Keyblade to the left of me. I didn't want to fight Kaori! She was my sister! I had traveled for so long... So long trying to find her! I wouldn't fight her—I wouldn't! I gasped for air and my knees wanted to buckle. It was only a matter of time before my Keyblade overtook me. I was fighting with my body now. I-I wanted to cry! I... I couldn't cry. It was like the Keyblade was absorbing my tears. That Xigbar guy smirked at me, fear reverberating through my body. Maybe Kaori remembered me? She looked afraid too.

"Well, whaddya know? Another Keyblade brat!" Xigbar exclaimed with a playful smirk. "And she knows you, Nuri! You must feel lucky!" I didn't understand why he called her Nuri! She didn't... She didn't remember me... Nuri looked at Xigbar, snarling. She extended her hand... Darkness formed from thin-air and then a giant feather-like pen fitted into the palm of her hand. It was slender and had a really jagged tip. I feared for my life.

"Look, you've got three seconds to tell me who the hell you are," Nuri began. "Why does your name sound identical to mine?! Tell me. This is the first mission I've been on and I will turn you into a Heartless myself!" My Keyblade throbbed at the sound of her voice. I couldn't let my guard down. "Xigbar, you shut the hell up."

"Aww, are you gonna fight without me?" he said playfully. "You think you can handle this chick on your own, dude? I wanna go back to the castle so you," he paused, pointing at her, "go take her down and I'll round up some Heartless for old Xemmy. Sounds like a plan?" Nana, the Heartless on my head scowled. Nana was my 'guardian' of sorts. She was all black and had yellow, glowing eyes. Just like any other normal Heartless. She also wore a crown on her head. I loved Nana. She protected me from danger and traveled with me while I went to go find Nuri. But now... Nana had a frown on her face. Well, at least I could feel her frowning. Because my Keyblade was one of the darkness—and because I was the protector of darkness—I could understand Heartless when they spoke.

"You're going to l-leave me?" Nuri stuttered. "You can't leave me." Her eyes trailed all around Xigbar. "We're on this mission together, aren't we?" I'd..." She paused, grasping her pen with both of her hands and taking a deep breath. "I'd like it if you stayed with me is all. Don't go making jokes about that either, Xigbar." So she loved him? Who was I to intrude on their relationship? I was nobody... If I fought Nuri now... She could have been hurt! Hurting her was the last thing I wanted to do! My lip started quivering. Xigbar slowly sauntered over to my sister, cupping her chin in his hands.

"You can take care of yourself, Trixie," he breathed, and then he walked away into a cloud of darkness. It was only us two now. She stared into space for a while, probably shocked that he left her like that. Almost immediately after, her grip tightened on her weapon. Nana jumped off my head and walked on my shoulder.

"You can't fight Nurixie now, Ruri!" Nana said. "You must run away from her!"

"I can't," I yelled back. "My Keyblade! The Keyblade! There's something wrong with it!" Nuri gritted her teeth and looked like she was going to kill me. We were talking too much. Eventually we were going to have to fight. I would have rather died than fought with her. "Nuri! I can respect the fact that you want to call yourself Nuri, but you're my sister! You have to come back to me! Why don't you remember me?!" I yelled. She snapped at me.

"I don't know who the hell you think you are, Ruri, but I'm going to turn you into a Heartless now. Today, in fact! I don't take any crap from anyone, and I won't take stuff from the damn likes of you!" She rushed towards me, planning to impale my whole body with her pen. My Keyblade pulled my whole body to the left. We were in Traverse Town so she ended up hitting a building behind me. She tried to pull her pen out of the building but it was stuck there. "You think you're so damn smart, Ruri?!" She growled in rage. "Who the hell are you and why do you haunt me?!"

A tear rolled down my cheek. Why was she doing this?

"I'm your sister, Kaori! Please, I can save you from the darkness!" I grabbed my Keyblade with both of my hands and—against my will—swung towards the confused girl. She hissed in pain and the back of her coat ripped, stained in blood. She jumped away from me, trying to touch the wound on her back. "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you, Nuri! No... Kaori is your name! Your name was never Nuri in the first place! I have to make her remember Nana, I have to!" Nana looked up at me and walked towards me in her weird, Heartless walk.

Nana had dressed me up for my journey. She dressed me in a black and green top that had a pink Heartless sign on in the back of it. I wore black shorts and belts all around my arms. The belt around my shorts was unfastened and hung down on the ground. My hair was in a side pony-tail, my purple locks hanging down to my waist. One of my shoes was a gym shoe... The other was a boot. I wore the Kingdom Heart's symbol as a pin in my hair. "You know what Ruri; I'm done offering you mercy. I'm going to kill you, not turn you into a Heartless after all! Out of all the people Xemnas pointed out that had a Keyblade, how did he miss your ass?!" She thrust her arms out to her sides and two swords quickly appeared out of nowhere. She grabbed them both. She looked at me and smiled. "Here's to a quick death. If I kill you, Thanatos can't fuck with me inside of my head anymore!"

She stormed me again and my Keyblade immediately took action. It was embarrassing... Other Keyblade wielders could control their weapons while I... I couldn't even grab it the wrong way. I blocked her first attack—she tried to cut me on the arm with her long-blade. Recklessly, she came at me with her thinner sword. My Keyblade foresaw that and blocked her other attack. It was draining my energy away. Pretty soon, it was going to render me useless. My Keyblade didn't need me as a wielder! It could fight by itself but every time I tried to get rid of it... It would just appear in my hand... Sparkling. "Why won't you just fucking die already?!" Nuri roared, arrows surrounding me. I gasped.

"Nana!" I shouted. Nana exploded in a ray of red light. Now she stood in front of me, tan-skin, mid-back length red hair, purple sweater-dress that had zippers thrown all over it. She also wore purple boots and her dress had the Kingdom Hearts symbol in the middle of it. Nuri staggered back, amazed. She soon collected herself and ordered her arrows to strike me and Nana down.

"Go Valor, Ruri!" Nana ordered, turning around at me. Her Heartless antennae bounced with her.

"But I... I don't know how to! That one time we did it... The Keyblade did that! The Keyblade does everything I do, and it doesn't want to go Valor with you for some reason." Too late, we didn't have enough time to talk about our situation. The arrows came down and I didn't even have any magic to rely on. For some reason, Nuri stopped the arrows and Nana turned back into her Heartless form. "You're... You're not fighting me?!" I gasped. "You remember me! You really remember me Kaori, I—!" I couldn't remember a time when I felt so much more happier than what I was feeling right now. I dropped my Keyblade—something I hadn't been able to do in a while. A smile covered every inch of my face as I dropped onto the ground. Kaori remembered me! She couldn't fight me! I was her sister! I wanted to hug her but my legs were frozen with joy. I just couldn't stop crying.

After all this time, I had finally gotten through to her!

I covered my face with both of my hands and cried as hard as I could. Nana was trying to talk to me but I couldn't hear her over my loud sobs. When she realized I wasn't concentrating on her, she bounced on my head and started to rub my tears away with her antenna. I heard footsteps and I was expecting Kaori to hug me, but she seemed to only walk straight past me. Didn't I make her remember me? I looked up, my face stained in tears. There was some woman standing right in front of Nuri. She had white, puffy hair that almost made it look like she had an afro. I could only see one of her amber eyes; the other one was hidden underneath a wild bush of her hair. She pointed what seemed like drumsticks in front of Nuri's face. So she didn't remember me?

Why, why did she forget who I was?! Why couldn't I make her remember who I was? I cried harder inside the palm of my hands. I only wanted to make her happy! I would have given anything to Kaori if it meant that she would tell me how proud of me she was! I knew Kaori would never be proud of anything I did.

"So, you finally decided to show yourself," Nuri hissed. "Shit, out of all the times you picked to show up and fight me..." No, someone else was trying to beat my sister up? I had to protect her! I stumbled clumsily on my feet and... No, the Keyblade picked me up, dragging my body around as if it were some kind of dead body. It wanted to protect Nuri from that tall, intimidating woman. It brought me closer to the white-haired woman and then I stopped in between the two. The woman looked at me, her amber eye cold and full of wrath.

"You must be Ruri," she said sardonically. "Pleasure to meet you. Now if you excuse me, I am rather busy. I did not come here for you or Nurixie." Her eyes trailed towards my sister. "Get out of my way. I will kill you, orders or not!!" The white-haired woman seemed pretty mad. I was so scared that I ended up crying again. And then I stopped.

Nuri had thrust her sword through my stomach. I brought my hands towards the wound in my stomach and gasped for air. Before I could fall over helpless, Nuri took the sword out of my body, blood spattering on the ground. "K... Kaori...?" I said, coughing up blood. Was that really her? Or did someone else...? Who had stabbed me?! It wasn't Kaori! She'd never do something like this! I hit the ground face-first, my Keyblade disappearing. I was going to drown in my own blood...

"Stop calling me Kaori, bitch," she hissed. She twirled her longsword and walked around my body. "Ira, is it? How ironic that we'd all appear in the same place!"

"Graanuah!!!" I screamed. Nuri had stepped on my back, adding pressure to my wound. Nana tried to heal me with her Cure, but if wasn't enough. Ira tilted her head a little to the left. Why was Kaori doing this? She loved me... Didn't she?

"Now where were we?" Nuri snarled, her teeth showing. "Thanatos and I have a great what?" Ira unfolded her arms, grasping a drumstick in each of her hands. Ira, even through all of that white, wild hair had a dainty purple flower placed in it. She wore purple bandages around her chest and a bandaged skirt with pink boots. It must have been her Traverse Town outfit.

"I'm busy," Ira warned. "Don't make me tell you again."

"You're busy? Busy?" Nuri shot back. "Too busy to fight me? You weren't at the castle!" I had forgotten that Nuri still had her foot on my back and she pressed down on it making me scream in pain.

"Are you using that young girl to get me to fight you?" Ira rolled her eyes. "I best be on my way, goodbye, Nurixie—"

"You're not going anywhere!" Nuri thrust her hand forward and this grey mist shot out of her hands. Ira moved her arms in an 'X' motion and smacked the grey misty substance back in from of my sister. I thought the mist was going to hit Kaori and me... Nuri moved out of the way and picked me up with her. Ira clutched her fists. "You made quite the erroneous mistake, Nurixie! You truly are Thanatos's failed experiment!" Ira ran up to Nuri and my sister dropped me hard on the ground. I thought they both hated me... And I didn't know why they were both taking so much care making sure they didn't step on my body. Nana was on the sidelines trying to prepare a Curaga spell to heal me. Ira hit Nuri's arms with her drumsticks and Nuri's swords fell coldly on the ground. She couldn't move them because her arms had gotten turned into stone.

"Shit!" Nuri cursed out loud. Ira 'hmmped' and aimed to finish Nuri off.

"You are so fluky... Thanatos wants you breathing..." Ira frowned. "I will break you, Nurixie. I mean really, you crawl under my skin. I wonder how you would fare without hands!"

"Curaga!" Nana shouted. A flower appeared over my head and it rained down on top of me. I slowly got back up, grabbing my head. Nuri looked at me through the corner of her eyes and Nana hopped back on top of my head. "Now we must go to Hollow Bastion... Leon might know how to get your sister's memories back."

"Memories?!" Nuri hissed. "Memories?! I don't have memories!! I'm a fucking Nobody who was cursed with half of a damn heart!"

"You are also a pain in my side," Ira added. She was going to turn around but some man appeared next to her. He had shoulder length light-brown hair with blonde streaks in it. He looked very intimidating and wore a red coat that wasn't buttoned up. I could see his whole chest and he had plenty of muscles. I blushed a little. He had a red bandage over his left eye and a cross tattoo under his other eye. He wore baggy black pants and had a smirk on his face.

"Babe, you're taking too long. Should of known you were out messin' with Carrot Top over here!" Ira immediately looked towards the shorter of the two, her eyebrow twitching. "What, why are you looking at me like that, babe? Time to go before the commando goes crazy."

"Stop calling me that, Avaritia," Ira said. Nuri smirked.

"Oh, so you've got yourself a date? That's why you wouldn't fight me?" She paused. "Wait one effin' minute—did this guy just call me Carrot Top? I'm going to kick your ass!" Ira was going to say something but that Avaritia guy picked her off her feet. "Where the hell do you think you two are going?! Someone is going to die today, and it ain't gonna be me! Stop running away from me damnit!" Nuri tried to move but her arms were too heavy. She needed a Soft to help her get out of her stoned state. "I'll see you again, Ira!! Don't think you've beaten me!"

They disappeared and it was only Kaori and I. She looked so distraught and her face was so red. Her black coat was stained in blood. My blood. I still had a big wound in my stomach but it wasn't gushing out blood anymore. I dug in my pocket and took out a blue, circular vial. I loved my sister and I hated to see her like this. I slowly walked towards her and tried to take the top off of the bottle. "What the hell are you doing?!" she spat. My eyes started to water. I'd give anything for her to say my name... To say it like she remembered me...

"I love you Kaori... I was traveling so long to find you and it hurts me to see you in pain. I'm the youngest..." I managed to get the top off of the bottle, tears falling from my eyelashes. "I have to take care of my sister even if she doesn't remember me..." My belts clanked together as I stood up and pressed the opening of the bottle against her lips. She glared at me but soon parted her lips for me. Carefully I poured the Remedy inside of her mouth. "You should travel with Nana and I and we'll save you and Ira from the darkness. My goal was to find you... And I've already achieved that so I guess I need to help out the worlds... Will you help me protect the darkness? Not all darkness is bad..."

The stone around Nuri's arms fell and she frowned at me. "Xigbar!" she yelled. She turned around and Xigbar was floating upside down in the air. She yelped and fell backwards on the ground.

"Goddammit Xigbar!!" she yelled. Xigbar let out a chuckle and helped her up even though she was too busy cursing to notice him helping her. In an outburst of passion, Xigbar ravenously pulled her close and bit her lip, kissing her. "Xigbar—mmfuh—I'm—mmm—going to kill you!" she said in between kisses. And then they disappeared within the darkness too. Ira belonged to an organization, and so did Nuri.

I almost had Kaori today, even if she didn't remember my name. She didn't look like Kaori either, but she sounded like it, she really did. After Nuri was taken away from me, I just collapsed onto the ground.

"Nana, Ira and Nuri can work together with me, right?" I sobbed. Nana just patted my head. Before she could answer me, I started coughing up blood again.

It was my Keyblade.

It was sucking all the energy I had out of me.

At this rate... At this rate... I would... I couldn't...

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!" I screamed, digging my fingers into the ground. "Please, someone... Help me..."

When you walk away, you don't hear me say,
please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin' me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go...