Chapter 1: Leave the Pieces

Sorry it has taken so long for me to get back to you guys with an alternate story to You said you would never leave me. I've been working hard on writing my novel and I've finished it early so I am catching up on my fanfics now. I hope you guys enjoy this, and if you just finding this story now I suggest you read the story You said you would never leave me, I believe you because it is the story that gets everything ready for this one. This is an alternate ending to You said you would never leave me. It picks up after chapter 13 of the previous story and continues as if L had never died. You said you would never leave me will still continue, but this story will be coming along as well and I'm hoping to have them finished about the same time.

L saw the hallway split. He could go into the investigation room and possibly walk into this death, he knew that was always chance of that, but he never knew what he was going to have at stake. He could stay upstairs and walk into Ellie's room. He could pack up his whole life and leave. He could take Watarai's advice and leave. He would never be able to look back after that point, and that scared him.

He chose the doorway into Ellie's room. He opened the door as she had been about to exit and caused her to fall on her butt in shock. She had not expected someone to be on the other side of the door. She looked up into L's face with shock.

"We need to go," L said.

Ellie's mouth just gaped. "What?" Ellie said as if she hadn't heard what he said or was too shocked to be completely, comprehending what he was saying.

"Each moment we are here there is more chance that something could go wrong, horribly wrong," L said.

"You're leaving the Kira case?" Ellie said confused. He was the one with the most in the case, it was like his full life, she didn't understand why having a baby was going to change that. Many of the other members had children as well, and they chose the case over them.

"Why?" Ellie said as she finally picked herself up off the floor.

"I think your life might be in danger as well as the life of an unborn," L said.

"So?" Ellie said looking him in the eye. "What makes me so different from the others?"

"I can't kill my own child, Ellie, Chief Yagami would tell you the same thing when it is discovered that Light Yagami is Kira. It's not logical." L said as he finally thought about what he had said. He wasn't thinking logically at all. He had hidden himself for so long that this time was not unlike the others. He stayed away from the danger if he could, and he found that pawns did a much better job in his place. He manipulated it was his way, but this was different. This was genuine concern for the life of an unborn child and its carrier.

Neither person saw the being floating above them, the overseer in this conversation. Rem had been watching Ellie for many days. Something was not right about the girl. She also noticed that something was different about L too. She was wondering if she could kill him after seeing this. This didn't fare well for Misa, but destroying Ellie's life didn't seem much better. This choice would have its consequences, but she decided to confront Ellie. She wanted to know what power this seemingly normal human woman, possessed and how she had been associated with deaths that she had nothing to do with physically.

"Tonight, be ready," L said as he left the room. He couldn't just walk out on the team now, he couldn't leave things broken like that. He had to do something, fake his own death if he had to. He would start over. He would be more careful, he wouldn't get mixed up with the criminals and he would certainly not mess around with the team members. He planned on working alone anyway, possibly including Ellie when she wasn't being an incubator for a child, but he knew things changed after having children and she wouldn't be the person he could depend on to be just as strange and stubbornly attempt things that could put her life in danger just to keep other's safe. No she had another person to take care of who would depend on her fully. He wondered what that was like. He couldn't remember. Nevertheless he had to chase these thoughts from his mind and leave the room to get his plan out in the air.

Ellie got ready to leave when she was approached by the shinigami.

"What is L planning?" Rem asked.

"Couldn't tell you, I never know," Ellie said looking suspiciously at Rem. Ellie began to make her way for the door.

"Is it true that you love him?" Rem asked.

"Yes," Ellie said before slipping into the hallway.

Rem understood what it meant to be in love with someone who could kill. She also knew she wouldn't be the only death god to die for a human. She knew she would have to kill, lest Misa live with a shortened life. She had planned on taking down both Watarai and L, but now something pulled at her conscience. Death gods, rarely have consciences, but Rem felt a pull to help Ellie out. L obviously wasn't going to hurt anyone, he needed to protect his family, this she could already see. She couldn't believe she was doing this, but she pulled out her notebook.

And the whole situation played out. Watarai died and L fell soon after Watarai's death. Ellie tried to revive L, and then gave a time of death. Special paramedics were called and L was taken off. Ellie stood in shock as she watched his body being put on the stretcher. She gave the paramedics the time and they nodded and said they would try to revive him as well, but with how long he was out there wasn't much hope of him coming back.

Ellie was catatonic. She felt immense pain tearing in body apart it felt. She looked at L's cell phone that was sitting on the ground. It must have fallen out of his pocket. She put it in her pocket and walked upstairs. She didn't want to be around the team members right now.

The phone rang in her pocket several minute later. Her hands shook as he pulled it out of her pocket. She didn't recognize the number so she picked up hastily.

"Hello?" Ellie asked.

"I'm here, Ellie," L said on the other side of the line.

Ellie dropped the phone. She had felt his heart stop. She knew he was dead, he hadn't had a pulse. Was she going crazy? She picked up the phone again. "If this is some kind of sick joke so help me I will," Ellie began to say.

"This is no joke Ellie. L Lawliet is dead, this is true, but I'm alive." L said.

"Who are you?" Ellie said her breath being taken from her.

"Laurent Wakatasuki," he said on the other line.

Ellie recognized the surname. Watarai had used it as his alias to meet her, Joseph Wakatasuki.

"Ellie, listen to me, you are in danger. Light is Kira. You are in danger if he ever finds out about that baby. He will kill both of you. Its already certain that there is something strange about you Ellie, not everyone sees it, but Light is intelligent enough to come to the conclusion." L said.

"I understand, time is of the essence," she said as she walked into the investigation room.

"What does that have to do with anything?" L said on the other line becoming more confused by the minute.

"I don't know," Ellie said with indecision. She already knew what she was going to do. She just hoped L would go along with it.

"Ellie, what are you thinking," L said the smirk almost being able to be heard over the phone line.

"Life is too short and I've made my decision. I accept your proposal Laurent. I will marry you," Ellie said.

Matsuda dropped the glass he was drinking from. Ellie hung up the phone not letting L have a chance to speak again. She looked up at the team members.

"Ellie do you even know what your doing?" Matsuda asked

Ellie nodded. She was having a high at this point. She wasn't on any type of drug it was like a high on life. Her emotions had been a complete rollercoaster all day and now she was ending it like this. She almost wanted to just cry and break down but then part of her wanted to just laugh until she cried. Either way she knew this would end in tears.

"Matsuda let her do what she wants," Chief Yagami said. "Who knows how long we all have to just live. I'm going to home to spend a week with my family uninterrupted. I will document this, hopefully if we don't make it someone will be able to take up where we left off."

Matsuda nodded. He watched Ellie go up the stairs. The door slammed and there was complete silence. Then the crying started. The howling of painful overloads of emotions sounded as if a pillow was muffling them. Matsuda almost jumped out of his skin. He wanted to go up and make it stop, not because it was scaring the shit out of him but because it actually made him hurt to hear her in so much pain. He got up out of his seat, but Chief Yagami stopped him.

"It's hard on all of us Matsuda, but she needs this. She is coming to terms with what we all risked in this, our lives."

Matsuda could do nothing but listen. It eventually muffled out completely but the first sound of it still resonated in his mind. He felt a chill come over his bones. There was nothing he could do. He was going to die too, but he was amazingly numb. He let the numbness overcome him.

Ellie left the next morning to go to Watarai's funeral.

"Where are you going?" Aizawa said.

"Memorial service," Ellie said. "Hence the all black, the puffy eyes, and Kleenex pocket packet."

Mogi and Matsuda nodded. She exited out the door. Matsuda got up and ignored the shaking of Chief Yagami's head.

"Ellie," he said walking into the garage.

"Yes," Ellie said poking her head out of the window.

Matsuda thought hard about what he wanted to say. He wanted to beg her not to go out and get married. Would he ask her himself? What would she think of that? She obviously wasn't in her right mind if she was thinking of getting married so quickly. He held his tongue, however. This was her choice and she needed to make it herself. He had his chance, but he had decided to wait and it seemed he had waited too long to ask her for even a date.

"Do you want me to drive you there?" he asked.

"No I'll be fine Matsuda, I'm meeting Laurent afterwards and we are making preparations for the wedding," Ellie said.

Matsuda cringed. He thought that after a funeral would be a bad time to be planning a wedding. It was like a kick in the gut to be turned down for her fiancé, but he wasn't surprised.

"Are you going to be inviting anyone on the team to your wedding," Matsuda asked.

"Yeah probably, if they want to go," Ellie said. "It's going to be really small Matsuda."

Matsuda nodded. "Well, I would like to go if you want to invite me."

"All right Matsuda," Ellie said starting her car finally. "I'll invite you."

Ellie began to pull away and Matsuda waved at her. Ellie stopped for a moment. "Actually Matsuda would you mind driving me to the airport?"

Matsuda nodded and got in the car. Ellie scooted over into the passenger seat. She had an overnight bag packed in the backseat.

"Where is the funeral?" Matsuda asked.

"Its in Britian, that's also where Laurent lives ironically enough," Ellie said.

Matsuda nodded. He didn't really want to talk about Ellie's fiancé. "Where do you plan on having the wedding?" Matsuda asked.

"Not sure yet, maybe in Japan just so I can finish off my last semester in college before I transfer." Ellie said.

"So you are going to live in Japan for a little bit longer?" Matsuda asked.

"Yeah he inherited a home in Britian, but we will probably rent an apartment in Japan so I can finish college for this year," Ellie said.

Matsuda nodded. He hated this Laurent more and more by the minute. The drive to the airport didn't take all that long.

Ellie hugged Matsuda to the point where she almost squeezed him in half. Matsuda was having trouble breathing but he held her close anyway.

"Sorry you must think I'm losing my mind," Ellie said blushing and pulling away from him.

Matsuda gave her a questioning look. Ellie's eyes welled up with tears. She should be happy because L was alive and he was going to be with her, but she felt emptier than she ever had. Her life had never turned out as expected. She thought she would be with her adopted parents for the rest of her life, but they died when she was seven, she thought she would always have her name to connect her to her mother and she had lost that identity when she was 16, she had wanted to finish college but now she was going to get married and have a baby, and she wanted to fall in love before she got married and had sex, but she still wondered if she was really in love with L or not. She wanted to believe she was in love with L because then she would still have something, but after the stunt she had pulled the night before there was no way he could ever love her for making him marry her like that. She had lost every good person she had ever had in her life.

She got into the airport and told Matsuda he could leave. She pulled a Kleenex out of her pocket and wiped her eyes and blew her nose. She was going to have to get another pocket pack when she got to Britian. "Matsuda can you take the station wagon back to the building I don't want it taking up room in the parking lot," Ellie said.

Matsuda left the airport and drove back to the building with Ellie's station wagon. He walked back into the building and sat down. He hadn't missed much. Chief Yagami and Light were packing up their things. Mogi seemed to have left already. Matsuda walked upstairs and looked in Ellie's room. Everything was the same way it had been, though he hadn't been in the room itself. Usually he just peeked in the door from time to time. He didn't want to seem like a stalker though. He finally walked into the room after standing in front of the door for several moments.

He didn't feel right being in her room without her here. He felt like he was invading her privacy or something like that. He walked into the bathroom. He didn't see much out of place. He saw a box on the floor and picked it up. Everything made sense to him at that moment.

"Ellie is pregnant," he said falling to his knees. He knew that this was obviously the reason for getting married so soon. She wanted to have someone to help her raise the baby. He wondered how she had gotten pregnant. They hadn't found any semen in the vaginal cavity after her attack. She had obviously been messing around though, he wasn't sure with whom.

"It was probably that Laurent guy," he whispered to himself again as if anyone could hear him. "She obviously knew him pretty well and he had wanted to marry her anyway so they have probably been messing around for a while. She probably just found out she was pregnant and this whole thing with the deaths of Watarai and L were just a coincidence."

He felt like Ellie had betrayed him though he knew that she was entitled to sleep with whomever she chose. He just had this theory in his mind that she had been cleaner than that. It was a stupid thought he realized. He needed to let this go and move on. He could finally just stop wishing and wondering if he had a chance and just move on with his life.

He left the room feeling more full than he had before he had entered it. He felt like he finally understood everything. It would be his secret it was obvious Ellie didn't want it publicly known. He began to pack up his own things. He would get an apartment too. He would return to the regular police force. Chief Yagami was already offered his place back and Matsuda was certain for a while things would go back to the way they had before. Everything would grow familiar again and things could heal like they should.

Ellie didn't recognize L when she was in the waiting room of the airport. He had dyed his hair brownish red that almost matched her own hair color and he had gotten some sleep recently. The circles that were once under his eyes were gone and his skin had tanned just slightly. He was still pale in all respects of the word, but he looked healthy.

"You are a very sly one Ellie Johnson," Laurent said approaching her. "I am here to escort you to Watarai's memorial service."

Ellie nodded. He held her hand as they walked out of the airport. A few passing people smiled at the awkward couple. "We look like siblings," Ellie said to him quietly. "Could you have picked some other color to dye your hair?"

"This color hides my identity the best unless you wanted to be marrying a blonde," he said matter of factly.

Ellie contemplated that and then shook her head. "Nah, this is much better than blonde."

"I thought you might think that," Laurent said.

Laurent opened the car door for Ellie. She blushed. She wasn't used to this and knew that it was obviously for show. They were engaged now. They were now acting the part.

"Nice car, I wasn't aware you could drive," Ellie said when Laurent got in the driver's seat.

"You didn't think Watarai drove me everywhere did you?" Laurent questioned.

Ellie was taken aback by his newfound ease with conversation. Usually he was very quiet and manipulative, but with his hair color went that. He was still awkward in every sense of the word, but he didn't act so awkward around her anymore.

"Almost dying sure changes a person," Ellie said looking over at him. "How exactly did that happen, you coming back to life I mean."

"I couldn't' tell you," Laurent said. "I have never believed in miracles until that moment." he said. "I felt the chest and arm pain associated with a heart attack and they paramedics were surprised they could revive me. They said that it was brought on by stress or something in my life and they thought it would be best if tried to take a break from whatever activity had brought on my heart attack. I got a chance to start over just as Watarai said I should." Laurent said.

"You suffered a mild heart attack?" Ellie questioned. She had heard of such things happening, they actually were pretty common place anymore, but usually with the person being without air and heart beat as long as he was she was sure that some damage had to have occurred. She thought the stress probably did have something to do with it, but sweets surely didn't help.

"Yes," Laurent said.

Ellie sat in shock again for a few moments. She knew what the miracle had been. Rem had spared him. She hadn't wanted to kill everyone, which was a big relief for Ellie who had assumed she was living on borrowed time. She felt like screaming out in joy, but she remembered that one person had not been so lucky, the person whom they were attending a funeral service for.

"Surprised that more of the team didn't try to join you," Laurent said.

"They are busy packing up," Ellie said. "They are going to take a break from the case."

"That would be logical," Laurent said as he continued driving. He already began to sound more like himself.

"Do you think Kira will ever be caught," Ellie said after a while of silence.

"I can't be certain," Laurent said. "I am not tied to the case or any other case right now," Laurent said. "I'm trying to change a few things in my life, and maybe I will be able to do something about it later, but for now in the current state of things," Laurent said looking over at Ellie his eyes averted toward her stomach, "We already have enough on our hands."

Ellie nodded again and looked at the road ahead. He was right about not worrying about it now. She almost felt selfish now that she had been working on the case with the Kira Investigation team to just quit because she was pregnant, but she knew it would be best for both herself and Laurent to lie low for a while and just be a normal family.

That word rang in her mind. Family. It seemed so strange now, but she looked over at Laurent and through the swirling whirlwind that her life had become since becoming part of the Kira investigation team she finally felt like she belonged somewhere. She finally felt like she had a family that wasn't going to disappear if she closed her eyes.

She let the sleep she desperately need come over her in the passenger seat of Laurent's Lexus and was awoken an hour later by Laurent.

"Ellie we are here," he said.