Ok – so this is my first shot at this. From reading other stories, I know the drill.

I own nothing. Not affiliated with GH or ABC studios. Just the story in my head at the moment. Please read and comment. Let me know if this makes sense and if I should continue.

This takes place after Jason and Elizabeth "ended" things once again after Jakes kidnapping. But can two people who love so hard and as strong honestly walk away from each other and move forward?

Moving Forward

Chapter One

"Stone Cold, you can't ride your bike...." SLAM

The door at Penthouse # 2 of the Harborview Towers quickly was shut while Spinelli tried to offer his master sound advice on the current weather conditions and why he couldn't possibly ride his motorcycle.

Jason Morgan carried himself to the elevators as fast as he could possibly walk.

"Shit!" He cursed as he read the sign on the elevators "Out of Service." As he made his way down the stairs to the parking garage, he quickly realized his cyber companion was in fact correct. The winter weather in Port Charles was off the charts for this time of year and there was no way that he was going to be able to drive his motorcycle. But he needed to get out and feel the wind against his face. He needed something to distract him from his constant thoughts of what he so desperately wants and needs... his family.

Jason decided to take a walk through the park to try and clear his head. He may not be able to ride his bike, but he certainly was feeling the wind against his face. The arctic chill racing through most of New York was unusually bitter compared to most winters. The weather channels were even cautioning everyone from leaving their homes and the weather conditions were favorable for a blizzard.

As Jason rounded the corner of the park he noticed the newly laid blanket of snow that seemed to cover anything and everything it could. Snow. How could something so insignificant send his thoughts to one thing so significant. "She smells like snow."

"Jason, snow doesn't have a smell" she quickly said without thought.

Jason stopped mid step when he heard her voice. Instantly there was a hitch in his breathing. Sitting on the park bench was the one person he never expected to see, the one person he desperately ached for. "Elizabeth."

She stood without hesitation as she always does when he would call her name. Elizabeth Webber was the one thing in Jason's life that wasn't in his life at all. He looked at her and hoped that he could contain how not unhappy he was to run into her. Sure they decided they would never contact each other, but it isn't like they planned to meet in the park. He quickly scanned her in front of him, noticing every little detail. She was wearing a blue wool coat that came down just above her knee and a scarf peaking out at the top of the jacket. Her porcelain alabaster skin tinged slightly pink from the cold air rushing through. Her chocolate locks sprawled down past her shoulders with the one strand she constantly tucks behind her ears. Her lips appear paler than normal. God he could get lost in thought just staring at her lips, so plump and luscious asking to be kissed..by him and only him. Her eyes, normally the darkest of sapphire, just looked gray and sad. Something was missing. Was she ok?

"Jason, are you ok?" Elizabeth asked as he had obviously not heard a single word she had just said.

"Sorry, I just had something on my mind" He quickly added, trying to hide his embarrassment of obviously staring at her too hard and too long. "How have you been? How are the boys? Boys, where are the boys?"

"Do I get to answer a question or are you going to keep throwing them at me?" She paused, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap. I have just been so crazed lately. I'm fine, the boys are fine. They are with Grams for the night. She feels that I have been cooped up in the house too much since... since everything with Jake and Cameron, and she insisted that I have a night to myself. What a night to pick. New Year's Eve. I hadn't been away from the boys for a single second and with the house being so quiet, I decided a walk through the park would be relaxing.

"Elizabeth, I'm so sorry that you and boys have had to go through this. I wish that there was something that I could do." She held her hand up and stopped him before he could continue. She motioned for them to sit on the bench. Surprisingly she felt more relaxed that she had in a long time. She always felt relaxed around Jason. She quickly snapped back into reality.

"Jason,you have to stop apologizing for this. While I hate what Sam and the boys and I had to go through, this was not your fault." They both sat there in silence, neither of them sure they should be sitting there, sure of what to say or not to say. After what seemed like forever, Jason cleared his throat.

"Did you and the boys have a nice Christmas?"

"It was alright. With everything that happened, I almost forgot about Christmas. Grams brought over their gifts on Christmas Eve so that they could open them the next morning. So I spent the evening while they slept setting up the tree and stocking and decorations. And with Lucky was busy dealing with Sam, he didn't get a chance to come by until a few days after Christmas. I also might add that mysterious packages showed up on my doorstep from Santa on Christmas Eve. You wouldn't know anything about that would you?"

"I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't have, but I ordered them for the boys before... before our lives went to shit." Jason rubbed his face and stared off into the park, then noticed that it had started to snow.

"Please don't apologize for the gifts. You gave our boys a great Christmas when I almost gave them nothing. Cameron absolutely loved his Chuggin' Charlie train set. I can't believe you found that for him. I should however hurt you for the full music set you bought for Jake. Between the drums and the keyboard, I can't get a moment of peace. What made you think to get him that?"

"You did."

"Excuse me?"

"Do you remember the afternoon you asked me to come to the studio and help you paint the walls? Um, while you were bandaging up my foot, you showed me pictures of Jake playing with instruments. You said he loved music. So when I went home, I made a few calls and.. and now you have your own little musician at home." He couldn't help but smirk, the thought of Jake banging on the instruments and his mother facial expressions during all of it. Jason wondered if she had meant to say "our boys"?

They sat in silence a bit more, neither knowing where to go from this conversation. They fell into conversations so easily. Jason glanced at Elizabeth and his breath had caught in his throat. The woman of his dreams, the love of his life looked like an angel sitting next to him. The snow had begun to fall slightly faster than before and she had snowflakes in her hair. Her cheeks were the only thing that had color in them and her eyes had softened since the beginning of their conversation. No longer were they gray and sad, but their bright color of sapphire. And what was even more beautiful was the few scattered snowflakes resting ever so lightly on her beautiful eyelashes. Before Jason could even take notice of what he was doing, his hands had cupped her face and took inventory of the emotions splashed across her face. He ever so gently brushed the snowflakes off of her. The intensity between the two of them was electric and painful.

"Jason?" She asked quietly. "I'm getting kind of cold and wondered if you wanted to walk with me to get a hot chocolate or something? She coyly asked trying to break the tension between them.

"Elizabeth, I can't."

"I'm sorry. I've kept you from where you were going. I'm sorry." Her eyes darted, not sure what to do.

"Elizabeth, I would love nothing more that to spend the rest of the day with you, but we can't, we decided... not to see each other anymore. For the safety of you and the boys."

"Until you said something, I hadn't really thought about what we had decided. I'd like to talk to you about what happened with the Russians. I have heard your side, but I need to you to hear my side, so that we can put it behind us."

Elizabeth, Jake was kidnapped and I almost got him killed. That is not something we can "put behind us". Jason snapped at her. Quickly he realized how upset at her he had gotten. "I'm sorry. I know how scared you were. I was scared myself. The thought of Jake in trouble or worse was a feeling I don't think I could ever endure again. I took a risk going into the Roadhouse they way I did. If Sam hadn't..."

"Stop it. Stop blaming yourself. I want to forget that night. I have to. I need to Jason, do you understand. I haven't left my home or the boys since you and Sam brought Jake back to me. I took time off of work. Thankfully Epiphany understood why I couldn't leave them. I don't sleep, I watch the boys sleep. I have gotten to the point where the boys sleep in my bed and I watch them, terrified if I go to sleep I will relive that nightmare all over again and wake up and all of you will be gone."

"Wait, Elizabeth – wait I don't understand." Jason really didn't understand, what was she referring to "all of you will be gone?"

"Don't you get it Jason. Not only did I almost lose Jake, but I could have lost you as well. Has it never occurred to you that you could have died in the explosion? What would I have done if I lost the both of you? PLEASE..Please walk with me to get something to drink, so that I can give you my side of the story."

Jason could not refuse her request. He called Spinelli to let him know he would be back in a bit and to stay in. Spinelli informed his master that alas, the fair Maximista had demanded his company to her tiny abode. If she was going to be snowed in, she was not going to be left alone with Lulu and Johnny pawing at each other. Jason told Spinelli to be careful and to call when he got into trouble.

As Jason and Elizabeth walked along the piers, drinks in hand, hers hot chocolate and his black coffee, he listened to her in detail recount the events of that devastating evening. Most of the details he new already from Sam when they went to search for Jake. But to hear them from Elizabeth's point of view broke his already damaged heart. Normally in these situations, emotions are checked at the door, but this time it was his child...their child. It was difficult to keep his emotions at bay as he listened to Elizabeth recall killing the Russian and then finding Jake missing. He had no more control of his emotions at this point then she did. They both had tears in their eyes with the uncertainty of what could have happened to their son.

Elizabeth let a slight sob out that she thought went unnoticed. But with Jason, nothing goes unnoticed where she is concerned. Jason's first instinct took into effect. He gathered this petite woman into his arms. It never seemed to amaze him at how perfectly she fit in his arms. A tear traveled down his cheek as he knew, he shouldn't be here with her like this. They agreed. Why couldn't they stay away from each other? Why couldn't they move forward with their lives without one another?

After what seemed like forever, Elizabeth leaned out of Jason's embrace and just stared into his eyes, looking for some sign of what to do next. How many times had she gotten lost in the cerulean blue eyes that he would cast her way. Not wanting to do what her body and heart yearned to do, she quickly turned away from Jason not noticing she was at the edge of the pier.

"AAGHHH! JASON!!!"

"ELIZABETH! Hold on, I'm coming."