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OK, now in my life of fighting I thought I could comfortably say that I had been able to experience every single scenario under the sun. I've had vamps try to kiss me, seduce me and yes unfortunately try to kill me.

It's a tough life but it's worth it if the reward is someone lives another day. But I did however miss on scenario. A physic pixie telling me that I am going to marry Edward.

This is the one scenario where I cannot simply just kick someone's ass and walk off, never to see them again. It's just not that simple. Not when you're actually in love with the guy the pixie has claimed you're going to marry.

Yep. Who'd have thought that my toughest challenge would be love instead of a fight?

I now know why people use the expression "Love Suck's".

"Bella I know your awake, just open the door and we can talk about this" I heard Alice say from the other side of the door I was sitting against.

When I had "blacked out" I was taken to my room. Thankfully I was left alone for a few minutes. Enough for me to wake up and barricade myself against the door.

Yep, not what you'd expect from someone with my reputation.

" Bella come on, make up your mind, your keeping me in the dark here" Alice whined.

I sighed and opened the door. However I just brushed past her and kept walking.

Stupid annoying pixie.

"Are you ok?" Alice asked as she blocked my path.

"Just fine" I grunted and then stepped around her.

I am thankful she isn't as wide as Emmet or I'd have been trapped.

"Where are you going then?" Alice followed me asking.

I rounded and faced her " gee, I don't know Alice, why don't you tell me?" I said rather meanly.

I knew my eyes had gone black but at the moment I didn't care.

" Bella your eyes are, um, well, EDWARD!" Alice practically yelled.

All of a sudden Edward practically flew around the corner "Bella! What's the matter, are you ok" Edward blabbed.

Typical, he was reading Alice's mind.

" I'm just great, I am just going out for a bite to eat is that so bad that I need the two of you to block the doorway?" I said rather blandly.

Right now I wasn't in the mood. It wasn't that I hated them, it was more that now I knew I had to leave them all soon.

I saw what was happening. The closer I got to Edward the more I'd want to stay and the more I'd be putting them all in danger.

Living here has been great.

Falling in love has given me this emotion that is both elating and terrifying.

But the message that sticks now and is always nagging on the back of my mind is, you're putting them all in danger.

If I really love them and Edward then the best thing is to let them go.

I walked past them and to my car.

I was on auto-pilot.

I drove to the cafe, ordered some ridiculously expensive coffee and cake and started a plan on how to leave.

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Later that day I got home. I was in a rather foul mood.

I was leaving on Saturday.

Today was Thursday so technically I only had 1 day and two nights to say goodbye and leave making sure they wouldn't try to find me.

" BELLA GET IN HERE NOW!" I heard Carlisle bellow.

I'd never heard him yell before so it was a bit of a shock. Wordlessly I walked through the front door.

Just as I was about to speak he said "my office, now!" Confused I followed.

However as I walked past the lounge room I saw 6 sad and angry faces. Alice had her head in her hands and was looking like she was sobbing. Edward looked pained and didn't look at me.

WAIT! He didn't look at me. Oh, what has he done?

Angrily I stormed into the lounge room ignoring Carlisle. "Edward Cullen look at me!" I practically yelled.

He glanced once at Alice and then looked at me.

"Much better, now why the hell is everyone acting weird, I have Carlisle practically screaming at me and the rest of you look, well you look strange" I ranted.

" Oh gee Bella I wonder why" Emmet stood up and walked over to me. His stance was aggressive and instantly I was on edge. "care to fill us in?" Emmet continued.

Oh shit. Alice must have had a vision, shit I didn't put my shield up. Shit. Crap.

However the thoughts running through my mind didn't crack through my composure at all. I was doing things my way.

"About what!" I said back.

"About you leaving US!" Emmet bellowed as he shoved me.

"What the hell are you on about?" I growled back as I shoved him away from me.

OK, so obviously things were becoming a little heated.

"Oh I think you know perfectly well what I mean Bella" Emmet growled back as we both stood our ground.

"Guys just back up" Rose muttered.

Though I don't think Emmet was listening.

Emmet just continued "you think that you can just leave and walk out of our lives, what about how you love Edward huh? What do you think that'll do to him" Emmet practically bellowed.

I don't know what did it. Whether it was the fact that Emmet took a step closer to me and was practically in my face or the fact that he mentioned Edward.

All I knew was that the next thing Emmet and I had smashed through a window and were beating the crap out of each other.

As I punched him in the ribs he threw a punch at my head. I quickly dodged it and side stepped past him and kicked him in the back, sending him flying into the nearby tree.

Emmet took no notice and got back up and we were punching and kicking all over again.

I was snarling at him as he managed to punch me in the ribs, he growled back when I kicked him in the stomach causing him to stumble, just enough time for me to launch him into a rock.

The rock shattered and Emmet took a little less time to get up. However I was still on fight mode.

I had been threatened and I was not backing down.

As he got up and growled I ran at him. Each of us kept fighting but it was clear I had the upper hand; I quickly grabbed his neck and the next thing I knew I was smashing him against a cliff holding him off the ground.

Still snarling I held him there. As I looked up into his face I didn't see any fight in his eyes, just pure cold fear.

"Bella" I heard someone calmly say behind me. I felt a wave wash over me but I shoved it off with my shield.

"Come on Bella you can snap out of it" Jasper was saying.

Edward was walking towards me slowly but I snarled at him. At that moment in time I wasn't Bella. I was the monster my reputation had come from.

"Bella you have to calm down, Bella we need you back, just take it easy and just relax, Emmet isn't a threat" Jasper was saying smoothly and calmly.

It made sense why he was trying to calm me down; he'd worked for Maria and trained all the newborns. I guess that is what I must have looked like.

I sighed and looked into Emmet's eyes.

Fear.

That's all I saw.

The realisation of what I was about to do. I was about to kill Emmet.

I remove my hand as fast as I could and stepped back.

I was shaking. I knew I was.

I felt all the adrenaline flow through my veins and the venom weave through my body as I started to notice how strong I was feeling.

Not that this is new to me. I mean I have been like this before, many times. But the fact that I had used it on my own family was just heart breaking.

I took another step and then another. Before I knew it I was running.

I wasn't leaving Saturday, I was leaving tonight.

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I knew I had a 10 minute start. I was fast and they would still be with Emmet for a few more seconds.

I had 5 minutes to pack whatever I could and 5 minutes to get my car and get the hell across the La push boarder line.

I ran to my room and grabbed my duffle bag.

Quickly I shoved cloths and passports, money, my laptop, phones and whatever else would fit.

I checked my watch. 4 minutes left. I grabbed a pen and paper quickly and began to write.

My Family,

Thank you so much for everything that you have done, I will forever be in your debt as you have truly shown me kindness and love that for our kind i thought never existed. However tonight you saw the real me. I must help our kind and humans from suffering fates that you can imagine, I have the power to and I can no longer pretend that evil doesn't live in this world.

I admit I was planning on leaving. I need to leave because I am living a lie staying here.

When we were children Edward I was in love with you. When you died I died. All these years the Bella you knew never really existed. When we were reunited I was blinded by such joy I failed to realise the truth. I do not love you Edward. You are a brother to me but not my soul mate. I was so overcome with joy that I thought I must be in love because I used to be. However I know now that the feelings I feel for you are no more than sisterly love. I pray that you can forgive me for taking this long to realise and for leading you along. It was never my intention.

I remember when I first came here you all said that you would do anything for me. Now I must ask you to for fill that promise. Do not follow me, do not try to find me and do not contact me. In return I will make a promise to you all. You will never see me again unless your lives are on the line.

Forgive me

Bella

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As that I put that note on the front door I left with it what was left of my heart.

I will always love you Edward I whispered as I ran to my car.

In order for them to not follow me I had to lie. I love Edward and I always will, however if he believes i don't then he can move on with his life.

If they ever realise I was lying it will be too late to find me.

I felt the Vanquish purr to life and the next thing I knew I was going as fast as the car could go. In a matter of minutes I was across the boundary line and with that I left my heart and my life.

ON NO'S,

Bella has gone and done an Edward on us!!!!

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