Around 1 I left my house running. I did not know to where I ran I just knew that I felt like I was smothering in that house. There are a few drawbacks to living in a house full of vampires. I kept seeing myself in Bella's room. I saw myself creeping up to her sleeping form and biting down softly on her neck. Without realizing it I found myself sitting in a tree outside her window.

'Stupid.' I thought, even as I watched her. I tried to pull myself away though it was useless. I was drawn to her. My own personal demon sent to lure me from all I had known was right. But with her it was not a matter of right and wrong but simply of my desire for her. I fought, but lost the fight. The most I could get was to hold myself in place on the branch. She was exquisite. Everything about her drew me closer to her sleeping form, still I resisted. Her hair formed a dark fan on the whiteness of her pillow. Her pale face held a slight sadness in it that made me want to go and comfort her. Where had that come from? I had not felt something like that in years. I was a monster to be here watching this fragile human sleep. Yet I could not leave. I surprised myself by this. I could not imagine my life without this human. I had not even had a chance to talk to her and I still loved… had I just said that? Loved? I was not capable of love. For so many years I had managed without yet this human had waltzed into my life and rearranged it without a second thought. I had finally convinced myself to leave when I heard it.

"Edward." Her voice sounded amazing saying my name. I was again routed in spot. Had she seen me? That was going to be hard to explain. I waited for her to shout her father's name.

'Well chief swan I'm terribly sorry but I am a vampire who wants nothing more than to drink your daughters blood. Sorry about showing up in the middle of the night to spy on her while I decided if I should kill her or not.' Ya that would go over well.

Then she rolled over and sighed. My name was mumbled again and then I watched. I left early the next morning in time to go home and change. I would get to see more of her today and with that thought I smiled a little.