Just my first FanFic. I hope you all like. Reviews are appreciated. It's not the best, I know it's not. If you're not an ADDEK fan, I'd disappear if I was you.

"You just walked away, Derek. You caught me in bed with your best friend and you just walked away! I don't know what the hell you want me to do." Addison said angrily as she stared at her husband who was standing in front of her in the trailer soaking wet. He wasn't mean to be there, he was meant to be at work, but he was standing there in front of her. That look on his face which made her heart melt, and she wanted to be mad at him, she needed to be, but she found herself unable to be.

"Don't yell. At least, not yet. Let me talk. Please?" His voice was so calm, calmer than what either one had expected, but he felt calm. For the first time in months he felt calm, he felt relaxed and Derek had no idea why he felt that way.

"Go on. Talk. Say what the hell you want, it won't do any good, you've already made your choice." She stated as she stopped packing her things into the duffel bag that was sitting on the bed. She had planned to leave while he was at work,a note on the side explaining that it was best for the both of them if she just left.

Running his hand through his wet hair, Derek looked down at the floor a little awkwardly before looking back up at Addison, he could see anger in her eyes, but at the same time there was a softness to them. "In New York, I was distant. I worked all the time and I pushed you away. I got phone calls from Nancy almost every day, leaving messages yelling at me for screwing things up with you, and if I didn't do something soon, I'd lose you. I never thought I would, I always thought I'd come home and you'd be there in bed, the sheets tightly around you as you held onto a pillow. One night, I came home, and I saw that image, and I knew that you wanted me to be the pillow, that you wanted me home again."

"I always wanted you home." Addison muttered quietly, interrupting Derek.

"I couldn't come home the night after, because I had a surgery, one where I knew if I didn't do it then, my patient was going to die. I couldn't let that happen. I stayed at the hospital that night, deciding that I'd start early and get out early to see you. Which I did." Pausing, Derek let out a sigh, a pained look coming across his face as he looked back to his wife. "It was that night, I caught you with... with him. I was angry at you and him, but most of all, I was angry at myself for letting it get that far."

"You walked away Derek, you came out here without even giving us another go." Addison stated as she looked at her husband, her voice a lot more confidant than she felt at that moment.

Stepping a little closer to his wife, but not too close, his eyes remained on her, he had walked away, she was right. He had walked away and met Meredith, which hadn't been his intention, but he had met her.

"You came here, and you met her. You have a relationship with her, and then you decide to give us another go because 'it's the right thing to do' not because you want to. I don't want to be in a relationship like that. I don't want to be married to someone who doesn't want to be married to me." A single tear fell down her cheek, and Addison quickly wiped it away, hoping that Derek hadn't noticed.

"I admit, choosing you with that reason in mind was wrong. But we've had some good times, Addie. Since we decided to give things another go. I sat in my office today, looking at a photo of us from about four years ago, and we were happy. I thought about everything we used to do together, about how we had planned our life together, with every intention of things going right for us." They had been wrong, at least on some things, but maybe they could make things right, if they were both willing to try again. "It made me realize just how much I want you. Not because you're my wife and 'it's the right thing to do' but because you're my wife and no matter how much I say I don't, I do still love you."

Those words, those words that made her heart beat a little bit faster each time she heard them, just came from Derek's lips. He had told her that he loved her which was definitely more than she had expected. She had expected a fight, for them both to yell at one another and have him storming out again, but it didn't feel like that was going to happen. "I don't know whether I can trust you not to let anything happen." She whispered, feeling vulnerable right at that moment.

"I'll do whatever it takes. I mean it, anything you want, I'll do." He was serious, he wanted things to work with Addison, and he was going to try his best.

"Stop speaking to her, to Meredith." Addison knew that it was a long shot, but the least she could do was suggest it.