AN: Blarg well this is a fan fiction I've been writing for a few weeks now and its getting to the point where people kinda want to read it but I've only got the copy in my note book and my hand writing sucks, so I figured I'd at least make an attempt at typing it up ^_^. So this is going to be one really cliché piece of crap, but people seem to like that sort of shit and so do I so here it is XD also I'll be typing this all while listening to Miyavi ^_^ this has no relevance what so ever to the story, I just thought I'd make a mention of it because Miyavi is a GOD on the guitar XD

Ayase woke with a start. Breathing heavy and a sheen of sweaty on his brow. It had happened again. He'd been having nightmares recently. Every night now it seemed. He was finding it harder and harder to get a decent nights sleep.

He glanced over to make sure Kanou was still asleep. He was. So he crawled out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. He splashed water over his face to try and chase away the remnants of the dream. He looked at himself in the mirror. He knew just by looking some one could tell he hadn't been sleeping well. He just hoped Kanou wouldn't notice it.

Ayase's POV

These dreams were really becoming a problem. It was finely starting to show on my face. I don't want Kanou to notice, he'd just worry, he's got enough work to take care of, he doesn't have to take care of me to. But I can't fall back asleep now, I've tried before but I never can.

I guess Kanou doesn't know, the reason I lived alone, the reason Tetsuo was my only family left. When my parents had been alive we didn't have any contact to the family on either side. Both families had had a falling out with each other and had strongly despised the idea of the two getting married. When they did both families disowned them.

Kanou know how my mo died. That she got very sick and couldn't get better. But my dad. He was so heart broken after mom died, he fell into a depression. One day he just couldn't take it. He had taken to many of his meds and was very belligerent, yelling and cursing, at any thing that moved, that would mostly be me. Then he had a knife. I tried to stop him, but I was to small back then, I'm still to small now I guess. But when I tried to stop him, he hit me in the back of the head. I was on the ground and couldn't move. I wish I would have passes out sooner. The image of him stabbing himself in the heart will forever haunt my mind.

I awoke with a start again. I hadn't realized I'd fallen asleep again. I'd been sitting on the couch thinking, must have drifted off to sleep. I looked at the clock on the wall. It was 4 in the morning. At least I'd gotten a bit more sleep. I need to get back to bed though, before Kanou notices I'm gone. He'd wonder.

I quickly made my way back into the bedroom. But when I got back on the bed Kanou started to get up. "Ayase? What are you doing up?" he asked in a gruff but groggy voice. Crap! I was hoping he wouldn't wake up. "uh…well…I woke up from a…dream, so I was just getting a drink of water before going back to bed." "A dream?" Kanou asked. "it was nothing, I can't even remember it, sorry I woke you" it's a lie, how could I not remember, I'd been having similar dreams every night for he past week.

Normal POV

Kanou gave a suspicious yet sleepy look. He let whatever his suspicions were slide as Ayase crawled back into the covers. Ayase pretended to go to sleep as he listened to Kanou drift back to dream land. He almost let out a laugh thinking about Kanou in a 'Dream land'. his Dreams were probably filled with money and sex. Ayase didn't fall back asleep for the rest of the night.

Kanou's POV

I was lightly roused from sleep by the feeling of a weight on the bed. When I opened my eyes I saw Ayase climbing back on. Why was he up? So I asked, "Ayase? What are you doing up?" he looked a bit fidgety. "uh…well…I woke up from a…dream, so I was just getting a drink of water before going back to bed." so that was it, but he still sounded a little suspicious. "A dream?" I asked. "it was nothing, I can't even remember it, sorry I woke you." he said quickly, he almost looked frightened, he's lying, I can tell. He does remember the dream, whatever it was. Maybe it had been a bad one.

I just wanted to hold him so he could go back to sleep peacefully. But I'm sure if I tried he'd flinch away, probably scared I'd say something like 'well, since we're both up…' and take him. I wish he knew I wasn't that cruel. Ok maybe I am a little, but I wouldn't try that right now.

He laid on his side, his back facing me. Ayase, I wish you could remember, it could be like back then, 4 years ago. I remember a night back then, you had a nightmare. And I held you while you cried for I know not how long. I remember you saying something about your father then. I've always wondered about what had happened.

It wasn't long before I drifted back to sleep. Maybe he'd talk about it in the morning.

AN: ok I think I'll end chapter 1 there ^_^ Blarg, see, I meant it when I said it'd be cliché crap XD but the cliché is good. It'll get better, and more clichéd later : P