Author's Note: Second chapter. Finally.

Chapter 2: Starting

Allen walked out of the room, crumpled shirt and messed up hair. He silently shut the door to the room where Kanda had his back turned towards his as he filed the paperwork. It was if nothing had happened. Allen clenched his stomach in disgust as he slowly walked down the empty hall. The school building was usually empty around this time, since it was when after school activities took place.

Allen's eyes twitched when the disgust in his stomach seemed to spread itself apart and the feeling of ants crawling around his body made him start to claw at his skin. Allen looked at his arm in panic. There was nothing there, absolutely normal. What did Kanda do to him? He didn't do anything inappropriate to Allen unless Allen blackout of ten minutes of the time he was with the long haired teenager. Allen's fingers continued to scratch and claw, as if Allen had totally lost all control of his hand.

"Stop it……" Allen whispered to himself as his hands continued its actions, excruciating pain from his arm making him want to scream out but if he did, Kanda would walk out with those mocking eyes of his.

The knife traveled about the smaller male's body as the taller male smirked down at him. Allen tried his best not to move. The knife tilted a little, dangerously sliding against Allen's creamy smooth skin. The going to cut, the going to hurt and the going to bleed made Allen pursed his lip before gasping in shock when Kanda turned him around and swung the razor back before it plunged down……

Allen was now running down the hallway as fast as he could. His footsteps echoed the empty space as he kept looking back at the room he had exited not long ago. It looked harmless, after all, no out of the ordinary stuff was around the door. It was a regular plain white door. Allen covered his mouth as he ran and ran. He felt so disgusted, he felt so violated; he wanted to throw himself into the nearest ocean to wash off all the filth he felt his body was carrying.

Kanda's eyes softened a little and he wrapped his arms around the smaller male, bringing him closer so that the boy would have a more comfortable position to finish what he had started. The taller male didn't blink as the smaller one pressed his lips against his, holding onto him so tightly. Kanda just didn't want to think that what the smaller was doing was a dream. He slowly released his grip on the razor which had stabbed a metal tag around the smaller male's wrist.

Allen then slowed to a stop. His head remained bowed as he heard the screams and cheers coming from the field nearby. He turned his head and looked at his reflection that was faintly displayed on the window. It was faint but it was there, a stray tear had rolled down Allen's cheek. Not for himself, not for his betrayal towards Lavi, but for Kanda.

Lips parted one another and Allen looked up, his eyes softened before he kissed Kanda's tears away. He allowed Kanda to hug him tighter as the taller man buried his face into Allen's shoulder.

"We're the same, no matter how you see it, Allen, two people who are in pain."

Allen's hand unconsciously traveled to his stomach and rubbed it gently. In pain? Yes, the other was right. He knew Kanda's condition before this whole thing started. Both needed something to escape reality for a moment. Both needed something that would allow them to throw away all responsibility.

Both needed a shoulder to place their heads on and cry like how children do when they were bullied and seeking comfort with their parents.

Kanda's head shot up when he heard the door that was closed from before open and turned around to see Allen, looking so lost that he could have been mistaken for a mere child. Kanda's scowl turned to a slight frown when Allen pulled a chair next to Kanda and sat down before resting his head in his folded arms on the table.

Kanda blinked at the action for a moment before he made a sign of acknowledgement and returned to his papers. The silence wasn't disturbing; it provided comfort unexpectedly for both males as Allen continued to remain silent within his arms while Kanda signed the useless forms. An hour passed, two hours passed and finally the sun outside was setting when Kanda finally done with the forms, having them filed neatly and placed in the shelves with a relieved sigh. He stood there, staring into the space between the files.

"Thank you." Kanda whispered to Allen softly as he remained at the same spot. It was barely audible but still Allen could hear him. Of course he could, they are the same type after all.

Kanda turned his head to look out of the window. He could see a clear view of the basketball court. The cheerleaders cheering, the fans screaming and shouting while the players ran about the court, Kanda's eyes drifted to a certain red headed counselor, who was playing with a huge competitive smirk on his face as he ran and scored a hoop. The crowd went wild and the cheerleaders seemed to be controlling themselves from jumping on the star.

"Isn't it sad? Without you, he still seemed to be having the time of his life down there." Kanda muttered emotionlessly as he continued to look on, hands in his pockets. The slight shuffling of clothes could be heard as he felt Allen tensed at his words. Unconsciously, Kanda smirked a little.

"It must be a pain. Your appearance makes you stand out and people think weird people are freaks at first sight. Without even knowing you, cast you aside as an outcast. Your qualities are so much better then those they are cheering for but yet you're treated like the lowest scam rat there is. You can't run to him too. His reputation might get dirtied by you if you go near him."

"You must have asked yourself so many times why you are still here even when he is grinning and smirking without a care in the world without you. Have you ever asked yourself, maybe Lavi is not acting but really having a good time? Maybe its your mind that is telling you to stay?" Kanda closed his eyes and smirked wider when he felt a pair of hands wrapped around his neck from behind and the sting of chilliness coming from Allen's metal tag.

"Moyashi, the reason why you're doing this, wanting to strangle me……need I say this?" Kanda turned himself around, facing Allen, whose eyes were wet and tears kept falling from them. The white haired boy's teeth were bearing and clenched but his face was not one of anger, but one of suppressed agony. Kanda's smirk changed and turned into one of kindness.

"Truth hurts, doesn't it?" At that, Allen's knees buckled and he wrapped his arms around himself. Kanda held him as he fell. The only sound that was heard was the cheers from below. "Listen to them; they are having such a great time. What about you? You're killing yourself over something that cannot be obtained. Isn't it unfair?" Kanda whispered into the trembling boy's ear.

Kanda then lifted the razor from before up, at Allen's eye level. Allen stared at it blankly. The blade shone and a strange feeling beckoning him to hold the knife. However, he made no movement to touch the knife. His eyes remained calm as Kanda brought the knife nearer to his cheek; it paused a few millimeters from the skin. Allen blinked at Kanda who was watching him thoughtfully before he pressed the knife forward.

"Let me cut you free."

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Lavi stepped into the house, feeling horribly guilty for being back passed midnight. Though he promised to be with Allen tonight, the team of young athletes decided to prank him by dragging him to a good luck party where all the cheerleaders were waiting to jump him. It took forever to get out of the room and he almost believed that he had gone deaf due to the screaming until he heard a car zoomed pass.

A punch of horrible guilt whammed him in the chest hard when he saw his supposed dinner was placed on the table, neatly wrapped with transparent plastic foil to keep flies from landing on it. Lavi immediately dropped whatever he was holding and ran about to find Allen. He tripped and stumbled a bit. He first checked Allen's room. His eyes widened in panic when there was no one there.

He then turned himself towards his room but then stopped at mid step. His teeth grinded together hard, there was no way the younger was there. The younger would never step in there. It would be a sad reminder of what Lavi was after all.

"Allen," Lavi started when he came out of the bathroom to see the white hair boy standing before his bed, ripped up bed sheets clenched tightly in his hands as he trembled, as if he was afraid of something. His grayish blue eyes shone with fear and disgust.

"So dirty."

"Allen, Allen," Lavi gasped as panic slowly took over his entire being when the boy was nowhere in the house. "You can't have left, right? You promised me, didn't you? Please be here. Please!" Lavi trembled as he did another round of checking. Did the boy finally have enough? Was this night the last straw?

"No, no, no, no," Lavi muttered out miserably as he stood in the middle of the living room. Something caught his sight. Something that was not supposed to be in this room, no, in this house, it was the cheerleader's who stayed over the other time. That girl's mini coat was on the side of the couch. It can only be seen at a certain angle or else it would be passed unnoticed.

Lavi touched the coat. He slowly brought it up to his face and examined it for a while. He then dropped it, as he turned away, the coat fell to the ground, in shreds and pieces before finally landing on the floor in a small mess. Lavi then felt a presence behind him. It was such a sudden feeling that it was as if the person materialized him or herself there.

He turned around quickly, just in time to see the white haired male that he was looking so frantically looking at the torn up torn up coat before slowly bending down and picking it up, slowly examining it.

"Allen……" Lavi whispered in relief as Allen gathered the pieces of clothes together and placed them to a side. The younger then turned back to Lavi, and slowly smiled a little.

"Welcome back, dinner's on the table." Allen said quietly as he stood up. As if knowing what Lavi was about to do, Allen stood still and closed his eyes as he felt the red haired male throw himself at him and they tumbled onto the couch. Allen slowly opened his eyes and looked up at the ceiling pass the messy red hair. He allowed Lavi to hug him tighter.

"What's wrong is something the matter?" Allen whispered comfortingly as he felt wetness on his shoulder and soft sobs shaking the taller male. Allen raised his hands up and stroked his head. "There, there. It's alright. Everything's alright, right?" Allen sighed in relief when he felt Lavi nodding and burrowing his head deeper into Allen's shoulder.

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"You hurt yourself today?" Allen blinked at Lavi when the other raised his hand to touch his neck area, which was bandaged around. Allen closed his eyes and shook his head gently.

"It's nothing." Lavi's eyebrows furrowed as Allen dismissed him and went to gather the information and records of Lavi's last assignment together. Never had Allen dismissed his queries, he would always give a reason for the injuries he had gotten, no mater how small or how stupid they were. Lavi pursed his lips tightly before he straightened up when Allen had finally gathered together everything and arranged them in order.

"This is all of Cecilia Lockinstein's part of the Wisteria Crush Incident. Who knew a girl like her could hack into so many computers and databases to cause so many companies to shut down?" Allen muttered in disbelief, to think that the teenagers nowadays would do anything for clothes, parties and makeup.

"Not as bad as the third Economic downturn, cost just by one of the heads' seven year old son. Amazing what you can do with computers and kids these days." Lavi shook his head as he did the last review on the records before he finally closed them all in a suit case. Lavi looked up at Allen with a satisfied smile. Well, actually, it was more of a relieved smile. He was just about to say something before he suddenly yawned, making him sound like he had just croaked at Allen. Allen chuckled lightly.

"Go to sleep. It's already three in the morning. That leaves us four more hours till we have to get up. We'll pass the stuff up tomorrow as well, okay?" Allen murmured gently as he settled the suitcase next to his bed. They were currently in Allen's room. For reasons Allen don't know, Lavi wanted to do his final arrangements in the Exceptionist's room. Allen turned towards Lavi, expecting him to stand up and to retire to his own room but blinked when the red haired Bookman didn't do the expected, instead, looked at Allen with a very lost expression. "Lavi?"

"I'm so sorry, Allen. I'm so sorry." Lavi whispered as he moved forward on his knees on Allen's bed, hands reaching out for the smaller male as if he was far out of reach. Allen's worry took over him as he moved closer to Lavi in a rushed manner and held Lavi. Lavi couldn't take it. He wanted to be with Allen, spend time with him and love him even more. But why, when Allen was staying in the same house as him, did he seem like he was drifting to somewhere Lavi would never be able to see him?

"For what, silly? There, there." Allen comforted as he patted Lavi's back. Lavi held on to Allen tighter at the gesture. Just hours ago, the house seemed so foreign and scary when he couldn't find Allen at all, he had nearly died from a mental breakdown. If one day, the house were ever to be like that again, for a longer period of time, Lavi bit his lower lip and burrowed his head into the younger male's shoulder.

If one day, you really leave me……

Allen settled the both of them onto his bed after turning off the lights. Grayish blue eyes didn't leave the scared emerald green ones as Allen slipped into the covers and kissed Lavi's forehead gently. Lavi's eyes clutched shut as the memories of desperation earlier came flooding back to him. He sighed softly when he felt Allen's arms around him.

Will I be able to live on?

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Kanda looked out of his window as the moonlight shone onto him and another person who was sharing the same bed as him. He had just stopped patting her to sleep. It was hard to get the other to sleep, as she was always afraid of the dark. Kanda sighed at the time displayed on the electronic alarm clock by the bedside.

Two hours more till he had to get ready for school. He wondered whether he should call in sick from school. He didn't see the point of going to a place to study when he would most likely just doze off due to his lack of sleep.

He sighed again as he shook his head and opened his eyes again, taking in the scenery of the room. His eyes softened a little as a certain memory came into his mind that happened not so long ago. When he was feeling that he was at his breaking point, and he was with another, who was in the same position as him.

His hand slowly raised and touched his lips gently. The lips that touched his at the time were dried and rough, due to the condition the other was in. The feeling of the roughness of a deformed hand on him gave him the shivers at first before he got used to it. The broken gray blue eyes that looked back at him, as if the person was broken beyond repair.

"Moyashi," Kanda whispered unconsciously to the moon as the hand on his lips reached out as if the touch the glowing orb in the midnight sky. "Are you still crying now? Happy about the gift I gave you?"

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Allen sat in the bathtub. The water was already icy cold and his body was shivering from the water's temperature. He looked up to see the time on the clock. Two more hours till he had to go wake Lavi up, he thought before he went back to looking at his reflection in the water.

Allen slowly touched his neck, now exposed with no bandage to cover up. A lotus flower shaped motif styled wound on his Adam apple. He fingered the wound, feeling the sting a little as he continued to look at his reflection.

"Hey, don't you think it's pretty? It was given by someone as cold as you." Allen whispered in a sing song manner at his reflection. Suddenly, a smile broke out on his face, as if he had just received the best present ever. "Isn't it pretty?" Allen asked cheerfully, his finger twirled and dug into the flesh, a trail of blood rolling down from the wound.

The boy's reflection grinned back happily, as the blood covered him from Allen.

"Beautifully suits you."

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Lavi opened his eyes slowly, adjusting to the sunlight that shone in his eyes. He hissed a little and rubbed his eyes before he sat up. He could hear the shower water on from Allen's bathroom, confirming the boy was still in the house. Lavi smiled a little before turning his head towards the suitcase. Finally, the records can be submitted and maybe, if they're lucky, moved to a different location, where there were no screamers that will kill Lavi's already suffering ears.

Lavi smacked himself awake before he rushed to get himself changed. Finally. FINALLY!!!!! The one year long screaming and woman swarming would finally be over. For some reason, Lavi felt he could hear angels singing as he quickly rushed down with Allen's and his bags. The feeling of getting the job done, though the process seriously sucked, was the best feeling Lavi could ever experience. After all, it did mean more time with his Precious.

Allen blinked at the flash of red hair that rushed past him to the living room to dump their bags on the couch and rushed over to the kitchen counter, placing his head in his hands, elbows resting on the counter and grinning like a kid who was going to the amusement park. Allen blinked again.

"Morning, Flash." Allen mused as he placed pancakes onto two plastic plates and gave it to the Bookman, whose eyes sparkled as Allen poured syrup, lots of it, onto his pancakes. "May I asked what's with the changed of mood from yesterday?"

"Well, it's," Lavi paused as he took a look at the kitchen clock. "Three more hours till I hand in my records to the Council. And that means, I can finally, oh sweet heavens yes, finally, have quality time with you!!!" Lavi grinned so widely that Allen swore he could have been a distant relative to the Cheshire Cat.

"As much as I am hoping the time past faster, Lavi, refrain yourself from sounding like you're having sex when we're eating." Allen said with a stuck out tongue, rewarded with another Cheshire cat grin. No, Allen's eyes narrowed. It was a smirk.

Oh boy.

"Orrrrhhhh, these pancakes……..hmmmmm…..the syrup……oh sweet records…..." Lavi groaned and moaned as he munched and licked his breakfast with a mischievous wink. Allen's head slammed onto the counter hard, erupting howls of laughter from the Bookman who then ate his meal normally. "It's great."

"I hate you." Allen mocked frown at Lavi before stuffing his pancakes into his mouth, masking his embarrassment. "Thank god you're pretty."

"And good in bed?" Lavi teased, pointing a fork that had a piece of pancake coated thickly in syrup at Allen. Allen made a movement to bite it but Lavi beat him to it by stuffing it quickly into his own mouth. "Ah……heaven on earth……"

"Well, as soon as you get off on the pancakes, washed them. No girls, your job." Allen muttered at the Bookman as he placed his plate in the sink. He grinned in satisfaction when Lavi's eyes bulged out of their sockets at his words. "Yes, dear, I'm serious."

"Mou~" Lavi whined as he munched solemnly on his pancakes, Allen could just add two big floppy rabbit ears on top of this man's head.

"Oh yeah~" Allen whined back, making Lavi choke on his coffee. "Yeah, I learn this stuff too." Allen smirked back at the coughing red haired male. Payback was just too sweet to pass up. "Hurry up, I'll wait for you."

Lavi blinked. It has been a while since Allen waited for him. And with a chance do so; no way was he going to pass it!! Allen flinched when Lavi suddenly started to gobble down his food. Actually, it seemed more like he inhaled his food. He washed the dishes so quickly, Allen was glad, no, extremely relieved, that he had not taken out the China. Allen also couldn't help but winced a little at the squeaking sounds of the plates before they were wiped dried and hurriedly place on the racks. Lavi then rushed over, out of breath as if he had just run a marathon before he straightened up with a huge grin.

"Done!!" Lavi exclaimed before he took his bag along with Allen's and watched Allen blink in astonishment.

"Either the house is going to explode soon or you just entered a Superhero contest." Allen mumbled as he took his bag from Lavi's hand. "Then again, you could enter the Cheshire Cat grinning contest or even the Joker Contest."

"What can I say? I'm multi-talented." Lavi winked before both males chuckled. Allen then stepped closer to Lavi. Lavi lifted his hand and touched Allen's cheek. "It's been a while." Lavi whispered as he placed a kiss on the star like scar on Allen's forehead.

"Hmmm, yeah, I have to stop you there." Allen pushed Lavi away a little, earning a pout out of the taller male. "Well, we have only fifteen minutes till first period start. Let's not ruin this going to be great day with detention. We're also Student Council's members after all."

"But, we might not be anymore after today." Lavi tried to change Allen's mind as he held Allen's body closer to his. He had forgotten how soft and huggable Allen was. "And detention could help us get a room."

"With a teacher in it." Allen added. Lavi's pout got bigger.

"Mood spoiler." Lavi groaned as he opened the door for both of them. Allen smirked back as he walked out of the door.

"Yeah. Thank god I'm pretty."

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"Lunch break. Lunch Break." Lavi murmured in a sing song tone as he wrote down the history notes from the slides on the screen. Well, it wasn't out of the ordinary. Sitting on hard chairs and copying notes for two hours, minds do wonder during those times. And for Lavi, that would be his freedom.

"What are you so happy about?" Lavi turned and grinned at a moody looking Kanda. Dark circles under the Asian's eyes and annoyed look made him look like something that just came out of Hell.

"Lunch Break in five minutes. Lunch Break, lunch break." Lavi sang as he tapped his watch with the tip of his pen. Kanda groaned quietly as he halted Lavi's hand from making another tap. The tap was making his tired and annoyed mind want to explode. It was just his luck that he was sitting with Mr. Sunshine.

"Please. Understand that I am using please here, don't make a noise, sound or anything that I can hear during these few minutes." Kanda requested as he settled his head on his other hand. He should have stayed in bed like he had wanted to. But remembering that his assignment was due today, he had no choice but to drag his feet across the house to get ready. He had nearly gotten his hair burnt when he knocked off while making himself breakfast.

"Fine, this is after all my last favor to you." Lavi resigned as he stared emptily at the screen. Kanda turned his head at that.

"What?"

"Well, it seems that if all goes well, I'll be leaving this school by the end of the week. And seeing that I only have class with you on this day of the week, it makes it our last day together. Are you going to miss me?" Lavi teased while Kanda looked at him in shock.

Just then, the bell rang. The classroom went while and the students started to rush out o the classroom, without even paying attention to the poor teacher who was trying to tell them what was going to happen for the next lesson.

"Well, that's my queue. Hope to see you around in future, Yuu." Lavi said hurried as he threw his notes into his bag, gave Kanda a little salute and rushed out of the room. Kanda sat at his seat for a little longer. He then slowly reached into his pocket and pulled out a metal tag with a knife marking in it. His eyes narrowed down onto the words written on the tag.

Allen W.

"Are we always fated to meet and leave?" Kanda murmured solemnly before he stood up and walked out of the room, going to hand up his assignment before skipping the entire day of school.

Just like last time……

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"These are the records." Lavi said cheerfully as he passed his superior the suitcase. The superior was a tall person, or was he, as he didn't seem to have feet. In fact, he looked like a floating piece of red robe with shining green eyes. Allen had always felt intimated by this presence. It gave him shivers that ran down his spine.

But for someone so intimating, he always chose the weirdest places to meet. Such as now, they were cramped up in a small cubicle in the teacher's restroom. It would have been so much better if he had chosen somewhere safer. Home would be nice.

"Excellent as always." The robe commented as the papers floated from the now opened suitcase and made circles around it. "As expected of the next heir."

"Why, thanks." Lavi smiled as he hugged Allen. "So when can we move?"

"Aaahh. Well, actually, you might still have to stay in this area, though no longer as a student."

"Say what?" Allen looked up concern at Lavi, whose gripped on him tightened a little and was starting to hurt him. The look on Lavi's face was one of frustration. Allen patted Lavi's hand to comfort him which helped, seeing that the grip loosened up a little.

"There is a family in this area that has been holding a lot of secrets. It's like a poisonous flower. It looks beautiful but will kill if you try or are close to it. We would like you to do records on this family till the time comes and we stop you."

"Family?" Lavi questioned as he rested his head on Allen's shoulder. "So what will I be, if not a student?"

"Aaah, I believe a representative that would be coming here soon would tell you." The robe said. Both boys blinked before they heard the teacher's restroom main door open and footsteps echoed in the room. A knock was heard on their cubicle, which the robe opened.

Lavi's eyes widened while Allen's breath hitched. The robe floated towards the representative's side, who was holding onto some documents. The representative's eyes widened a millimeter but narrowed his eyes in a second.

"I believed you know him as Kanda Yuu?"

Author's Note: I'm going back to school soon, which might mean another 3 months MIA but who said I will leave you guys. To work my butt of the stories will but one of the To Do list and I'll make sure that MIA-ing wouldn't be as long as 3 months anymore. Give me strength.

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