Disclaimer: I do not own anything Twilight. Just a very sexy lead guitarist and cheating book worm.

Warning: Rated M.

Chapter Ten
Your Biggest Fan

Two Months Later

Bella POV

"Miss Swan?" The FexEx delivery man asked, getting my attention to what he needed me to sign.

"Oh, yes." I answered, quickly doing so.

He brought the large package in for me as I stared at it. I then thanked him.

"Have a nice day now, ma'am." He waved and was off.

"Thank you. You two!" I called after him before shutting the front door.

I opened the large package, wondering what it was. Inside there was a large blue basket filled with toys, clothes and other baby supplies. I took the envelope that was attached to the top.

To Bella and Kyle, it read in almost perfect handwriting across the off white paper. My breath caught when I noticed it kind of looked like Edward's. I had thought about him almost everyday. It ate at me; what I had done to him. I'd forever regret not telling him sooner. I'd forever hate myself for bringing him so much pain.

I opened it with somewhat shaky hands, noticing the stationary belonged to Carlisle and Esme Cullen.

Dearest Bella,

I called your father last month to see how you were doing. I hope you don't mind that he gave me your address. He tells me you had a little boy and are living in Texas now. Carlisle and I wanted to congratulate you on your first child. We wish only the best for you and little Kyle.

I also thought you might like to know that Edward is doing well. He's very happy at work and recently started dating a lovely young woman named Angela. I hope you take comfort in knowing that he is truly happy again.

I know things happen in life that you might regret. And I know you, Bella, I know you regret hurting Edward. Things have a strange way of playing out, but in the end you had Kyle and children are more important than any of the heartache you had to go through to get them.

I hope we can keep in touch. I'd really like to see some pictures of the little one.

Her cell number, email and address were written at the bottom and sighed, Love, Esme.

She was definitely one of the nicest people I knew. I broke her son's heart and she was still wishing me all the best. She was always so loving.

"What'd you get?" Jasper's voice snapped me out of it. I looked over to him as he entered the room holding Kyle.

"Kyle got some nice stuff... And I got a letter from Edward's mother." I told him, then handed him the letter.

He looked at me and down at the letter. Kyle grabbed for it, so I took him from Jasper's arms and held him to me, placing a kiss on his chubby little cheek. I bounced him on my hip as Jasper read.

"That's nice... Good news about Edward, right?" he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me in.

It hurt every time I said and heard his name. Of course Jasper knew that. He simply kissed my forehead and didn't go on about it.

"You gonna be late, darlin'?" he asked, putting the letter down then taking Kyle again.

"I should be fine," I gave my two handsome guys a smile and kiss, "I'll be back in a few hours." I kissed Jasper a little longer, not wanting to pull away. "Okay," I said against his lips. I had to go, "I've got to go."

"Okay, bye baby. Bye, Momma... Say bye, Momma. We'll miss you." Jasper talked to Kyle.

"I'll miss you." I gave them a wink. I walked to the door and looked back at my men one more time.

"Okay, little guy, let's see what you got here." Jasper said.

I smiled, watching Jasper talk to Kyle as they looked through the blue basket. Kyle grabbed at it with his cute little hands while Jasper helped him take the toys out. They were just too sweet for their own good.

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I went to sign the final papers for my finished novel. It actually got picked up by a publishing company. I was so amazed - and extremely happy of course. But, at the same time I thought I didn't deserve all this happiness. I had a beautiful son, a boyfriend I was insanely in love with and my first novel was going to see the light of day because for some reason they thought it good enough. I loved it and I wanted it, I just didn't think I deserved it. I knew I'd carry this around with me forever. I felt so guilty for having such a perfect life. It wasn't something that would ever go away. I knew that.

I did some light grocery shopping on my way back from the publishing company's offices before arriving home. I walked through the large house, not hearing a sound. I went to the kitchen and started putting the food away, jumping up with a scare when I didn't hear Jasper come up behind me.

"Shit," I breathed, trying to calm my heart rate as I relaxed back into Jasper's strong chest, "you scared me."

"Sorry baby," he spoke against my ear as he tightened his arms and swayed us from side to side gently.

I closed my eyes, placing my hands onto his forearms.

"I'm so proud of you, you know. We goin' to go out and celebrate?" he asked.

I turned to look back and up at him. I gave him a small nod. It sounded like a nice idea. "Sure." After all, I was proud too. I worked very hard on my first novel and had already started on my second.

I took his hand from my waist and brought it up to my lips, giving him a kiss as we stayed quiet for a little while. "Where's Kyle?" I finally asked. It wasn't his nap or bed time.

"Mom took him for the night. She said I needed to take you out." He told me. Aniela was really the sweetest mother, mother-in-law and grandmother ever.

"I think she just thinks up excuses for him to be with her." I laughed.

Jasper laughed too, "I think you're right... I think she should have had more kids. She'd have more grandkids by now. Imagine if she had more than just Kyle. She'd be the happiest person ever." He was right - she really loved being a grandmother.

"Maybe we'll just have to give her some more ourselves." I teased. I knew we weren't anywhere near ready for another yet, but I also knew I'd be with Jasper forever and I didn't want Kyle to be an only child like Jasper and I were.

"Oh, yeah?" I could heard the smirk in his low voice.

"Yeah," I smiled.

He pulled his hand away from mine and wrapped it back around my waist. His lips came down onto my neck with soft kisses. I moved my hand up to the back of his neck to keep him there. It felt so nice, I didn't want him to stop. I tilted my head to the side to give him better access to my neck.

"And when should we do that?" he breathed against my neck, sending shivers down my spine.

"I don't know..." I closed my eyes and moaned as his hand traveled to my breast and gave it a gentle squeeze, "Couple years," I tired to answer.

"Well, we should practice, shouldn't we? See if we still know what we're doing." He picked me up bridal style, making me laugh at the suddenness of it. I was pretty sure we practiced almost everyday and were pros at it.

"We should," I agreed, "Just to make sure." I smiled while looking at his perfect face as he carried me to our bedroom.

I loved it when we were both home. Jasper and the band were here, working on their next album, and my small book tour wouldn't start for another five months. Jasper and Kyle would be coming along with me. It would only for a month. It was still going to be exciting thought - it was my first time.

Jasper kicked our bedroom door open and walked over to the bed, dropping me down onto it with a small bounce. I couldn't help but giggle like a total girl. He was so much fun. I loved him to death.

I propped myself up on my elbows and watched him unbutton his shirt with a watery mouth. Fuck, he always looked good enough to eat. His hair was a mess, as usual, his lips so kissable and sweet, his eyes held my whole future and always would, even the stubble from not being freshly shaved was making me wet my panties. I loved that sexy stubble of his.

I watched his muscles flex as he pushed the shirt down his arms and stood before me in only his jeans now. His body was perfection. How the hell did I ever get this lucky?

"Undress for me, darlin'."

I quickly moved my eyes back up to his face, realizing I was just staring, so I sat up and lifted my shirt over my head.

His eyes fell to my chest with a smile. "The pants too," he urged.

"I'll give you my pants if you give me yours." I gave him a playful smirk.

"It's only fair, I guess." He nodded, undoing his belt and pulling down the zipper.

I bit on my lip while watching him step out of them. He push his boxers down next, letting his huge erection spring free. Damn it, I was going to come and he hadn't even touched me yet. He was so beautiful.

"Look at that - I ever threw in my boxers. Does this mean you'll get naked for me too?" he raised his eye brows in question.

I nodded and reached behind myself to unhook my bra. I let the straps slip down my arms and tossed it to the side. Laying back, I undid my pants, lifting my hips to push them down along with my panties. Jasper grabbed them half way down and forcefully pulled them from my body. I sat up again, kneeling on the edge of the bed to be by Jasper, facing him.

His hand came up, his fingers running through my hair while I felt up his chest with my own. I closed my eyes before he moved his lips down to mine and kissed me, deepening it with every second. My heart was beating fast, my skin already on fire. All because of him. Always.

"What do you want me to do to you, Bella?" he breathed against my lips. God, he smelt so good.

My mind raced as I imaged all the things he had done to me, all the things he would do to me. As long as it was him doing any of these things, I was loving it.

"Tie me up." I whispered, immediately felling my cheeks flush. I loved when he tied me up, but it was always embarrassing to ask. It was only the third time though - not that I was counting or anything.

Jasper pulled back with a smirk. "You like it when I have all the power over you?" he asked as he ran his fingers through my hair again.

"You always have all the power over me." I whispered back.

His smirk turned into a soft smile for a minute before hardening again. His jaw tensed and I noticed he was trying to get back in that mind set I wanted him in. Taking control of me, my whole body, mind and soul. I wanted to be his, in every way.

"Good." He placed a kiss on my lips again and pulled back, "Lay down on the bed." He instructed and I quickly did so. I felt like a horny teenager sometimes. But teenagers didn't have this much fun.

I smiled as I watched him pull a silk scarf from the drawer. Yes, I had bought it just for this. My breath came in long deep intakes as he took my hands and laced them together with the silk and tied them to our head bored, right above my head.

My breath hitched as his hand ran down from my face along my neck, chest and stomach. Oh please, touch me? I wished. His eyes ran down my body the way his hand had seconds ago. It excited me as much as his touch did.

He shook his head, his eyes moving back to mine with slight disappointed. I frowned.

"You should know better,"

My heart sunk. What the hell was he on about? I parted my lips and tried to speak.

"You know that your knees always have to be spread open for me." He tilted his head and looked back down.

I now realized I was rubbing my thighs together, needing friction. He was right; I knew that very well. I smiled and opened my legs, feeling the cool air wash over my wetness. I was aching for any part of him.

"You want my tongue or my dick?"

He was making me choose?

He waited for my answer as he kneeled between my legs and pushed my thighs further apart.

"Dick." I licked my lips before biting on them again. If I had to choose, I'd choose for him to pound me into the bed. Even just the thought made more warm juices flow.

I watched him smile as he looked down at my core and lifted my left leg up against his chest, holding my ankle. I admired his beautiful body before me as he took himself into his hand and ran the tip of his dick up and down my slippery folds. Why did he always drag it out when I wanted it the most?

My legs shook slightly as he focused on my clit.. I was throbbing by now. I wanted to free my hands and take his dick anyway I wanted. I knew that was the effect he was after. And fucking hell, he was a master at his work.

He pulled my ankle up and lifted my ass off the bed a little. I felt him slide himself all the way to my lower hole and tensed. No, not now. I felt a little afraid. Jasper had told me a couple of times that he wanted to take me that way. It turned me on at the time, but I just wasn't prepared yet.

He smirked, "Not ready yet, huh? Don't worry. I'll change that - another time." He let my ass hit the bed again.

I relaxed. I knew that when we did that, it would be planned and wonderful. But not now. I closed my eyes and smiled at the thought of experiencing everything with him. We had already been through so much. Good and bad.

He put my leg down, lowering his body against mine. I parted my lips again before his mouth reached mine, ready for our tongues to tangle with one another. I couldn't help but moan when I heard the low groan from his chest.

"Fuck baby, I want to taste your sweet little pussy so bad. You didn't think I'd really make you choose, did you?" he smirked as he pulled back and my eyes brightened.

"Oh, thank god," I breathed.

Feeling his lips against mine and his skilled tongue inside my mouth, only made me want it that much more.

He kissed me deeply again and then moved his amazing mouth to my neck, sucking and bitting. I spread my legs a little further apart, completely ready for him. His bites traveled down to my breasts, making me whimper and gasp when he bit down on my nipple, then moan as he smoothed the bite with his soft tongue.

Soft kisses traveled down my stomach. He spent a little too much time on my lower stomach than I wished for. I wanted to push his head down between my legs, but I couldn't. I cursed asking to be tied up. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but it obviously no longer was.

"Please," I whispered lightly, lifting my hips up.

His head moved to the side as he placed a kiss on my inner thigh.

"Fuck, Jasper... What are you waiting for?" I groaned in frustration.

He smirked at me before placing another kiss there and then finally gave me what I wanted.

"Oh... God..." Did it always feel this good? No, it always felt better, every fucking time.

His tongue massaged and circled my clit, making me push my hips down onto his face more. Fires were lighting in placed I forgot I had. It was always insane with him. His fingers finally started pumping me the way I liked. I was so close. My orgasm ripped through me before I thought it would.

He hummed and sucked my clit. His figured pulled out before my climax was over and he gently pushed one finger into my other hole, making me scream in surprise - surprised that it only intensified my orgasm.

His finger circled me a little and it kind of felt nice, in a different way.

"Mmm... So tight," he hummed and then removed it, licking up my come for a second.

I sighed happily and relaxed from my high.

I gave him a lazy smile as I looked up at him when he settled between my legs and reached up to free my hands.

When they were free, I wrapped them around him.

"Did you like that, darlin'?" he asked, his lips so close to mine that I could smell myself against him slightly.

I nodded without words.

He took my lips in a passionate kiss as he pushed inside me with a deep thrust. I moaned, but he didn't let my lips pull away as he continued.

It lasted as long as it usually did and exhausted me - in a good way. After a couple of minute, Jasper took me in his arms and we had a long, hot shower together.

We got ready for our little celebration dinner for my first book. Jasper told me to dress up, so I wore the new black dress I had gotten while shopping with Amy last week.

"Shit, darlin', who are you trying to impress?"

I smiled as I put my heels on and looked up at Jasper. He looked breathtaking. He had on some nice black dress pants, a deep blue shirt and black tie, the sleeves were rolled up, which made it look a little more casual. I loved his style. It was always a good feeling to be seen with him. He was the most handsome man I had ever laid eyes on, and always would be.

"Just this really hot guitarist guy. You don't know him. But what do you think?" I asked with a smile as I stood up and did a little spin. I was in a really good mood tonight.

He wrapped his arm around me and pulled my body close to his. "You'll have him wrapped around you little finger the minute he sees you... Lucky son of a bitch." He said with a wink.

I blushed and looked down, noticing he had an early copy of my book in his free hand. "What's that for?" I asked.

"I'm hoping the sexy little author of this book will be at dinner tonight. I was going to ask her to sign it for me... Who knows, maybe even get her into my bed by the end of the night. I heard she's amazing in the sheets." Jasper smirked, making me laugh. He placed a kiss on my lips and finally pulled away.

"Let's go." He took my hand and I followed him through the house and down to his car. We talked a little during the short drive to the restaurant we had been to many times. It was my favorite Thai restaurant, not that there were anymore Thai restaurants here, but it really was amazing.

I frowned when I noticed the parking lock was empty. Were they closed? "Baby, are you sure they're open tonight?" I asked, There's no one here."

Jasper POV

I tried not to smile as she asked me that. "Well, let's just check anyway. I hate to have come here and not at least checked,"

Bella gave me a knowing glance as she finally realized I was probably up to something.

Yes, I was. I was a nervous reck, but keeping it together well - I hoped.

I knew Bella loved me and wanted to be with me forever, she had told me this many times over, and I felt the same. I wanted to make her my wife, hopefully she'd say yes to my proposal tonight. She was just so happy and amazingly beautiful tonight that it would be perfect.

I walked over to her side and opened the door for her, taking her hand as she stepped out. She looked so gorgeous that she made my heart race and my hands sweat a little. I'd remember tonight forever.

Her small hand held onto mine tightly as we walked over and were greeted by the host. I had organized for the restaurant to only be open for us tonight. It was all dimmed with soft lights and our table set in the middle of the room.

"Jasper... What's going on?" She asked in a whisper as she held onto my arm before we were seated.

"I just wanted to do something special. It's not everyday your first novel is all ready to hit the shelves." I told her. I wanted her to be surprised when I asked.

And that's why I toasted to her book as we drank our wine and waited for the dinner. Of course it was for her novel as well. I was so proud of her. She deserved this. I knew she was going to be a successful woman, just like she was an amazing mother and girlfriend.

Our food arrived as we continued the conversation we had going earlier. She was radiant and so happy. I was glad. I always wanted to make her happy.

I played with the velvet box in my pocket as she fell quiet and simply smiled that pretty smile of hers over at me. Now was the time. Now felt right.

With a deep breath, I got out of my seat. Bella gave me a questioning look. "Where are you - " she stopped her question mid way as her jaw dropped when I kneeled down before her. "Oh," she smiled a little, but still looked totally surprised. Good, my plan had worked.

I gave her a smile as I pulled the box out of my pocket, no longer nervous. This was what I was meant to do; be with her forever.

"Bella, you make me feel more than I ever thought I was capable of, you gave me Kyle and I can't believe I'm this lucky to have someone as perfect as you are, loving me. You make everyday I'm with you the best day of my life. Marry me?" I didn't have any words prepared. I just knew that in the moment I'd know what to say.

Tears spilled down her face as she looked from me and to the now open box, holding the ring I had custom made, just for her; my one and only.

"Of course, baby... Yes!" She nodded and sniffled as I took her left hand and slipped the ring onto her finger. It looked perfect on her. But then again, she could make the plainest thing look stunning.

We both stood up and she hugged me tightly. I laughed happily and held her close. She finally pulled her face from my chest and looked up at me.

"I love you." I told her and glanced at her lips before kissing her gently.

She kissed me in return, then laughed through a small cry as she pulled back and looked at the ring for a second.

"I love you." She stroked my face with her hand and cupped it, bringing me back down to her height for another kiss.

I helped her sit down after a long moment of hugs and kisses.

She sighed, looking at her ring and back at me. She gave me a smile, making me the happiest man in the world, yet again.

Our dessert arrived and we shared the chocolate souffle. They didn't serve it here normally, but I knew it was her favorite so I had it specially brought here for tonight.

I pushed my copy of her novel over to her side of the dinner table, with a pen sitting on top. "I think I deserve to have the first signed copy. Don't you?" I raised my eyebrows. This was still also about her first novel. Her career was taking off and so were we. I was more than ready for the next step with her.

Bella gave me a smile before opening up the book and writing. I watched her all the while. I'd definitely never get sick of looking at the Goddess before me. She had every part of me. She fucking owned me.

She pushed it back over to me with another smile.

I opened it to see what she had written in her curvy handwriting.

Jasper,

Every one of my novels will be dedicated to you. Because, all I am, is yours.

I will always love you.

Your biggest fan.

The End