Sorry for the long wait, I had really bad writers block and I was waiting for it to end very impatiently. Thank you everybody for sticking with this story even though there was an incredibly long wait. The song for this chapter is called Monster by Skillet, I think it fits very well and you should defiantly listen to it while reading this chapter! I fought with Alice over this but she always gets her way and I ended up doing something that I hope I don't regret later…I think it turned out really well I just hope you think the same…so here the next chapter finally!!!

Bella's pov

I sat on the damp forest floor quivering in silence, staring at the broken and limp form of the deer that I had just fed off of.

It disgusted me greatly that I had to kill in order to survive. I really was a monster and I just had to accept that fact.

I took great caution when hunting. I limited how much I was aloud to help myself to and how often I was aloud to even feed. Yet every time it was hard. When I felt the sensation of warm blood trickling down my throat I lost control of myself and when I finally gained control again I always felt dirty.

That was how I felt right now. I was disappointed in myself and utterly repulsed at the same time. Every time I finished hunting it took me a little while to calm down.

Off in the distance I heard a grandfather clock chime seven times which meant that it was now 7:00 at night. I still had some time to spare before I had to return to the castle and endure my shopping spree.

I have no idea why but just the idea of shopping repulses me greatly. I guess that in my human years I had some bad experiences with shopping or something.

I tossed the nonresponsive deer carcass off to the side for some other animal to eat later on and heaved myself up off of the ground.

Now that I knew there was sometime before I needed to return I decided to take a walk.

While walking I began to let my mind wonder. Now that I was a vampire, so many new opportunities opened up for me. I could watch as civilization grew and fell and see all the technology progress.

With my extra gifts I could help many people and maybe when I became a bit better at resisting human blood I could become a doctor. But no, that could never happen. I didn't even look old enough to pass as a collage graduate so there was no way that I could pass as a doctor.

Okay so doctor was defiantly out but maybe I could find something else helpful to do.

Oh and my gifts were another thing. I really want to experiment with them…maybe Aro will help me after I get settled in or maybe make a friend or two. It would be really cool if I could find a buddy that would be a vegetarian with me. We could be like accountability partners or something of that nature.

I had just made it past the last of the trees and now I could see the first signs of civilization.

I was pacing along the edge of the road just listening to the sounds of life and happiness. As I saw a group of teenagers walk by and laugh carelessly, I wondered if I could ever be like that again. I had no idea who my previous friends or family were and even if I did, it wasn't like I could go back to them like this!

Whoa where did that little anger tantrum come from? I hated this part of being a new born. Aro had told me that I was exceptionally controlled for a new born with thirst and what not but it still bothered me that I didn't have full control over my emotions yet.

I felt so weak and vulnerable which was not acceptable in the vampire world. If I was going to survive in the Volturi then I needed to be strong and act like I had a back bone.

Even though Aro was like a father figure to me I still had my doubts. There was this feeling that the only reason that he kept me was for my powers. For right now though, I was okay with that. Just the feeling of being wanted was enough for me at the moment.

Oh and Jane was another problem. I had a feeling that she was used to being the most favored and the highest feared on the Volturi and when I showed up she felt threatened. I really hated that she felt so angered with me that she felt the need to thrash out and act so rash. Maybe if I went out of my way to be nice to her then she would thaw out a little bit and actually warm up to the idea of being my friend.

I shivered at that thought. How I could I even want to involve myself with that vile little creature.

The sudden realization brought me to a halt. Was I really that much better than her? I mean I had to kill to survive just like her which was just one of the down sides of living, or shale I say existing in this life/ after life.

After all if I hated it so much then why couldn't I just bring myself to end this insanity forever? Was it because I was holding onto something in my past knowing that the moment I gave up all would be lost forever?

Thinking about my past brought me back to the present and I realized that it was time for me to start my trek back to the castle.

To say I was taken by surprise would be the understatement of the year.

I was tackled to the ground from behind and flung back into the cover of the trees. It took me less than a millisecond to respond, thanks to my vampire senses, and I sprang to my feet sinking down into a ferocious fighting stance.

I knew that my attacker had to be another vampire from the smell and just the lone fact that it was able to take me down. I must have been really deep in my thoughts for someone to take me by surprise like that.

"Bella, Bella calm down it's just me. You have to listen! Victoria is after you, and she's going to be here in a few seconds, you have to tell me… Are you prepared to fight?"

The vampire talking to me now was extremely short, almost pixie like, and she had short black hair which spiked out at the ends. My mind was spinning around erratically trying to find out where I had met her before and how she knew my name.

"How…how do you know my name?" I questioned.

"What you seriously don't remember? Oh you don't…oh well that's not important right now but what is, is getting you safe and back to Aro so that he doesn't freak. I will ask you one more time, are you prepared to fight?" the pixie shouted at me while grabbing me by the upper arms and rattling me around like a can of spray paint.

"Yes" I answered back blandly, turning around to face the approaching danger.

For some strange reason I trusted this vertically challenged vampire with my life. And that's when I first realized it, the reason why this vampire was so different. She possessed the same strange golden eyes that I had meaning that she also stuck to the strict animal diet.

Before I even had time to think about this fact the danger had reached us. The evil called Victoria had come to a screeching halt not even fifteen feet from me and this strange vampire standing protectively by my side.

Victoria had fire red hair that curled into bouncy ringlets. She had a baby face that was also pale just like the rest of her tiny figure which marked her as a vampire. She was beautiful of course… weren't we all, but the most bone chilling part was her blood red eyes that seemed that they were staring straight into my soul.

As soon as I made eye contact with her, she turned her lips into a ferocious sneer and a vicious snarl ripped free from her chest rumbling all the way up her throat corrupting the silence of the night.

"What do you want with me Victoria?" my voice rang out strongly, shocking both Victoria and myself.

"Why I seem to have some unfinished business to take care of my dear. Oh all of the things that I plan on doing to you starting with killing off your little friend over there. Don't worry this will only hurt a lot!" Victoria replied. Her voice shocked me though because instead of sounding ruthless and evil it sounded like it belonged to a blonde girl with dimples that was popping her pink bubble gum and twirling her hair.

Without a second thought my survival skills kicked in. The vampire next to me sank into a lower crouch as Victoria herself was coiled as tight as a spring ready at any moment to launch at us.

"Freeze!" came the sound of my commanding voice that was the result of me using my mind control.

Victoria froze having absolutely no choice in the matter and the pixie turned around very slowly to face me with a shocked and surprised look on her tiny little face.

I couldn't take the chance of this sadistic vampire killing off me and my new friend so I thought with great resentment for killing another…'Rip apart'.

After another moment she screeched, so loudly it was agonizing, and slowly started falling apart almost as if an invisible force was acting against her.

I yelled to the pixie "Quickly now get a fire started and help me through the pieces in!"

It took her a second but she finally snapped out of her daze and followed my orders. I didn't feel that I needed to use my mind control on her because after what she had just witnessed I don't think that she would refuse anything that I told her to do.

We made quick work of the clean up process and soon there was not a trace left of what was once known as Victoria.

I turned around to thank this mysterious vampire for the help and advanced warning but she was no where to be found. For a second I thought about following the trail that she left but I thought that if she left in such a hurry like that then she must not really want to be found.

When I finally got over the shock of the surprise or not so surprise attack I realized that it had gotten gradually darker and that it was probably time that I got on heading home before my "father" started to worry about me.

I took off running in the opposite direction of the pixie and made a beeline straight for my room which was in the back of the castle and had a great view of where the forest and the city life met.

Without a moments hesitation I jumped through my open window on the thirteenth floor only to come face to face with Aro.

"Where have you been young lady? You were supposed to be back here two hours ago so that you could get to know Heidi and Gianna before going on your shopping trip!"

"I'm sorry but I ran into a complication." I replied.

"Oh do tell sweet heart!" he answered in a caring voice.

"Well you see this really short really weird pixie like vampire rammed into me telling me to be prepared to fight because this person named Victoria was coming to finish me off and a few seconds later she did come and then I used my powers and finished her off and then…then we burned the pieces. When I turned around to say thank you she was long gone and I didn't feel like chasing after her so I just came back here and that's when you found me and asked me what happened." I huffed out in one giant breath talking at vampire speed.

"Oh well that all in the past now so no need to dwell on what once was. Let's go, follow me, we need to start the introductions!" Aro exclaimed, turning around to face the door wrenching it open in the process.

He came face to face with a smiling Heidi.

"No need. I'm here to meet the all famous Bella! Gianna will be up here shortly. She just had some business to take care of." Heidi proclaimed with the smile evident in her every word.

She bounded past Aro and came right up to me. She stopped not even five inches before me and then took me in for a bone crunching hug.

"Aro has told me so much about you! It is so nice to finally meet you…Oh we are going to have sooooo much fun on our shopping trip!!!!! Gianna is coming too, she is a little weird at first but once you get to know her it will all be fine! You have to show me some of your powers, everybody has talked so highly of you!!" She exclaimed at a very high speed and even with my enhanced hearing I almost missed it all.

"Ill leave you two alone now, It seems you have some catching up to do." With that Aro ducked out of the door and left us to the company of each other.

"Umm… Hi Heidi right? It's nice to meet you too." I answered shyly.

We made small talk for a few minutes until Gianna walked into the room and gasped when she saw me.

"You, It's you… I have waited so long for this moment! Your eyes, their different, your different, this is what I have been waiting for! Tell me what does your diet consist of?" She immediately started spewing questions at me.

"Dude Gianna chilax you're going to freak Bella out." Heidi told her.

"No it's fine Heidi; Gianna has the right to ask. Yes I am different. I feed off of the blood of animals instead of the usual diet of humans. That is why my eyes are golden in color instead of red." I stated calmly.

"Can I live off of the blood of animals too? I'm really tired of taking peoples lives and as you can see my eyes are pitch black because I have been starving myself." When she looked up at me her eyes were pleading.

"Of course you can silly! I was actually thinking about finding someone else who wanted to exist the way I do." Was my response.

"Okay guys I really hate to ruin the mood but we have some shopping to do!" Heidi interrupted us.

"Do we really have to?" I asked, trying to find a way to get out of the impending doom that was sure to come.

"You know it!" They both shouted at the same time.

"Okay be that way! Let's go then and just get this over with." I exclaimed glumly.

We walked arm in arm down the thirteen flights of stairs, bid ado to Aro and continued out the doors into the now buzzing city.

Thankfully it was indeed overcast so we didn't need to cover up like crazy.

We all had on black, red and silver tennis shoes, black shorts, and red shirts with silver designs on them. I guess you could say that we were ready to tackle the long day ahead of us.

Little did I know that the whole shopping trip was centered on me and the two girls by my side were just there to ensure that I got my fair share of clothing and accessories.

We ended up going to a strip mall that was all outdoors. There were a total of three blocks of pure shopping and stores. It also held some of Heidi's favorite stores including Gucci, Prada, Saks Fifth Avenue, Bijan Boutique, and very surprisingly Hot Topic.

Twelve hours, forty four bags, and thousands of dollars later we started our trek back home.

"You know you guys it's not too late to go back now. We could return some of this stuff. I really don't need all forty four bags…" I argued for the umpteenth time.

"Nonsense Bella! You are a part of the Volturi now and you deserve all of this stuff, plus it was Aro's orders." Was the answer every time that I mentioned the unneeded amount of stuff that they bought for me.

We walked up to the gates of the castle but were stopped by Demetri.

"Can't go this way girls. You have to go in through your window Bella. Aro's strict orders, sorry." He said in a tone of indifference and boredom.

I wasn't in the mood to argue so I just turned around and made my way to the back side of my home so that I could jump into my window which was conveniently left open.

I launched myself up through the open window, landing with a soft thud as always.

Heidi and Gianna didn't come through the window after me as I expected, I guess that they just decided to stay and talk to Demetri for a little bit (which was fine with me).

I had something to talk to Aro about. I wanted to tell him that Heidi and Gianna had spent way too much money on me today and it was unacceptable.

I descended the staircase to find Aro when I was met by the sounds of shouting.

My curiosity got the best of me and I ended up turning the corner and looking over the ledge to see what it was all about.

I was met with the sight of a tall lean retreating figure that had a very weird color of bronze hair. He was absolutely fuming and I could tell that there was nothing that could stop him now.

A few seconds later that strange pixie looking vampire yelled "No, no, Edward don't! Please stop, you don't know what you're doing!" with that she took off after him in a panicked frenzy.

When she mentioned the name Edward something flickered inside of me but I couldn't pin point what it was exactly.

Wow this day has been extremely strange and I could not wait for it to be over but first I had a little situation that had to be handled and it included my little friend Aro.

With that I continued down the hallway to have a little talk with my "father figure".

Maybe tomorrow would be different…

Well there it is, I hope that you enjoyed it!:) Please leave a review and tell me what you think…lots more twists and turns to come:)))