Coming Home

Six long years since I took his last breathe. Six long years since I have heard his deep sinister laugh that can mean so many different things. Six long years since I have seen his beautifully devilish face. Six long years since I have felt his firm satin skin.

Eight years since I have felt his tongue against my own. Eight years since I have heard him say my name in the throws of passion. Eight years since he has looked at me with the eyes of love.

I know I should hate the man that destroyed everything. Hate him for taking away Aeris; hate him for taking away our light Zach. Hate him for manipulating me to give him the black material but I can't, I won't.

Ever since the moment our eyes met I knew I would forever be his. I am Sephiroth's puppet. I belong to him mind body and soul. When I had to take away his life the first time I felt broken. I wondered if the man I fell in love with all those years ago would ever come back to me, even if only for a moment.

I know he won't and I will never see the man that holds my heart ever again. I still remember the first time we ever kissed it felt as if the planets aligned and made everything okay.

It was a cold and unusually damp night when I was walking home from Tifa's that our souls became one. Even from over 90 kilometers we knew each other were meant for each other.

I remember not being able to breathe as if nothing would get me functioning until I heard his voice or felt him. He quickly crossed the distance that stood between us and before I knew it our lips were pressed together.

I can still feel his strong arms lifting me up and carrying me into the nearest alley. I can still remember the way he took control without even asking.

I was his and he knew it. The first time we saw each other again after tat fateful night is when I joined Shinra. I will never forget the look of shock.

I'll never forget how hard Zach tried to get us together claiming we were made for each other. We couldn't stay away from each other, Sephiroth and I would meet every night on top of the training building. We would lie under the stars and make sweet love with each other.

The night before he lost his mind is one I remember clearly.

"Cloud do you realize how much you truly mean to me? I would do anything to be able to be with you forever but if something to happen I want you to remember that I love you as much as I can… I may not be able to always say and do the right things but I do love you with my entire existence."

I could feel him run his glove covered hand down my bare chest and it sent shivers down my spine. We spent so much time together all those late nights I felt as if we were one.

"What's going on Sephiroth you never talk like this so why tonight before we have to go on the mission tomorrow?"

I knew there was something but he never told me that night instead he showed me over and over again that he cared about me. He took me to his apartment which was extremely rare. He had low jazz music playing in the background and deep red roses every where.

He must have had help from Zach, even though I love Sephiroth he was never really the harlequin romance novel kind of guy. Sephiroth grabs my hand and leads me into his bedroom. His room is eloquently manly it was accented with red, black, and cream.

We sat down on his bed and he slowly began to remove my uniform. Once my coat and undershirt is removed he takes a few moments just to look at me. Then he does the one thing I never expected, removes his gloves.

All the late nights that we have spent together he always kept them on, but for some reason he chose tonight to be special for us. He runs a bare finger down my pectorals as speaks again.

"In all my life I never imagined something as amazing as you. Skin so soft, face of an angel. I will always treasure the gift you have given me Cloud."

I knew I should be worried but the passion took over. I interlaced our fingers and pulled him on top of me. We made love over and over again savoring each touch, each kiss as if it would be our last. Turns out we were right.

It was so long ago the last night we spent together. I go over each thing that was said to each other, those words keeping me sane.

When Rufus asked to help him I wanted to laugh in his face. Here was the man who stole my memories and destroyed the man I love.

I ended up agreeing and of course was once again the hero. My mind and body is tired of playing the role that was forced onto me.

Thousands of men and beast have died by my blade and my hands. I have days, years trying to remove the blood from them but it seems to never work.

I can still remember before my blade sliced through Sephiroth this last time he used his last breathe to say "I forgive you." Was the pain that evident on my face?

So here I sit 2 months after I killed him, looking down at the grave of Kadaj a mere boy who never stood a chance for a normal existence. I cannot stop the tears any longer as the pain of everything is running through my mind.

I damn for her tentacles reaching out and destroying more innocent lives. Why did she have to come in and ruin Sephiroth and me, she murdered Kadaj, and caused so much pain across the planet and for what?

"For whom do you mourn Cloud?"

For a simple second I could not breathe could it be possible that he is back again and so quickly. I put my hand on the hilt of my sword ready to kill the love of my life once again.

"I asked you a question Cloud who are you mourning? The boy whose body I took over or do you cry over me?"

I am afraid to respond for if I say the wrong thing it could be the death of me. I am tried of fighting for a planet I no longer believe in. I am tried of Tifa attempting to make a happy home with me, but how do you tell someone you are in love with the greatest murder ever known to man.

I throw caution to the wind as I answer him honestly.

"I cry for you, for having to hurt you, and for trying to hate you. I cannot do it Sephiroth, I have attempted to but even after everything I still love you. If you are here to kill me just do it, I want this feeling to end. I am empty, broken and alone life is worthless without your love."

A weight has been lifted from my shoulders as the truth is finally out. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I look down to see his porcelain skin. His hand is no longer leather clad and I am lost in the feeling of him touching me.

"It is over Cloud. It is time for you to come home."

I look up at him and fall in love once again. His face is warm and loving, like the last night we spent together. Could this be happening, is the man I love back?

He helps me stand and I get a full look at him. Not a single stitch of leather on him, he is simply dressed in black slacks and a red satin shirt.

"What do you mean it is over Sephiroth and I no longer have a home; I have killed it twice."

He gives me a small smile and for the first time in 8 years I feel warm.

"Jenova is eliminated all of her cells are destroyed. Aeris and Zach have ranted your wish; I am as I was before, human. I am the driving force in this body not mother. Love me again and allow me to love you."

I grab my blade and thrust it into the ground. Even if death comes to me I will not use that sword again. Sephiroth looks down at me and his small smile has been replaced with a grin.

I throw my arms around his shoulders and within a few milliseconds my legs are wrapped around and my lips are locked onto his. Our kiss is more then mind boggling it is more intense then earth shattering well hell it is the perfect moment I have ever felt.

Our tongues duel and our bodies cling to each other. His hands are reacquainting themselves with each of my curves and I couldn't be happier. He pulls away from our kiss and just looks at me.

"Welcome home Cloud."