sorry for getting grounded but anyways, I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

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I shook my head trying to shake the disturbing thoughts away. the mental picture refusing to leave, taughting me with my own lifeless corpse...

I sighed

its not that I wanted to die..... its that I dont want to be alive...

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EPOV

"I-I-I did this to her" wait this must be wrong. Alice is just messing with me, soon everyone is going to jump out of the bushes and yell surprise. But I know they wont.

"Yes Edward you did. And if you don't go and fix your mistake we all are going to be in trouble." alice said urgently

"Alice....." for the first time in my life I felt....unsure "what am I going to say to her?"

"I don't know what to tell you Edward, its your mistake." she gazed sympathetically at me "but I guess just tell her what your heart says."

"I don't even have a heart."

"Its there, Edward, you just need to listen. C'mon we need to go." she pulled me towards where I assumed her car was parked.

"I think Ill walk, I-I need to think..." it was just all too much to take in, even with my super human mind.

Its not that I didn't want to just run to her and get her out of that horrible place, because that's exactly what I wanted to do right now. But if I just go and try to help her, she wouldn't even look at me.

I mean, what are you supposed to say to the love of your life, after you've just run out on her and just left her hanging? I'm pretty sure they don't have any books covering that particular subject.

I gave a frustrated sigh. Why did I have to be such a complete idiot!

I hurt her. I hurt her so much, and I can't do anything to make it up to her. I just wanted her to be happy. She didn't even have a chance.

I have two choices.

First, I could leave let her forget me. In time id be nothing more than a distant memory. It might take a while but eventually shed forget. They always do.

Second, go and try to fix the mess I made. Try to pick up all the broken pieces of her life.

I could go the easy way or the right way....

"God Dammit!" I picked my pace and started running towards the distant lights.

so which way is he running?? dun dun dun wait and see