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It Ended with a Bang Chapter 15: All the same

Deidara stretched her arms, and soon after rolled over on her side. The thing that frightened her was when her bare skin brushed against someone else's flesh. Her eyes blinked open to see a man with an orange mask covering his face, and black hair peaking out. Her memories of last night filled Deidara's mind, causing her to blush. A deep ache in her heart humped in her chest. She sat up, and covered her face with her hands.

"What did I do, un?" she mumbled in her palms, which were licking her. After taking a few breaths to calm herself, she glanced over at the masked man. Every tension in her body melted away when she laid her eyes on him. She finally put her trust in someone.

"Maybe…it was okay," she whispered, automatically letting her fingers twirl through his locks. Her fingers became curious when they started trailing down to his mask. 'Well..He let me kiss him, why can't I see his face?' she questioned in her mind. She started to lift the corners of his mask; she lift it far enough to see his closed eyes. This is when the white lids opened revealing red eyes. Deidara instantly jumped back, landing on the room's floor in the process.

'Those eyes I've seen them before…'

Tobi groaned before sitting up. He fixed his mask over his face while doing so.

'Those eyes..Were red…they look like those of an…'

"Morning Senpai!" Tobi cheered while turning his face towards her.

'An Uchiha. Those eyes that belong the same type of person that killed my father.' She growled in her mind. On the outside, her hands clenched into fists and began to tremble.

Tobi climbed off the bed and crawled to her till he was eye level with her. However; his voice was not that of "Tobi". "What is it Deidara? Didn't you have a good time last night?"

Deidara's immediate reaction was to shove him out of the way. She ran into the bathroom, locking him out. On the tile floor she sat as she hugged her knees tightly to her chest. She could feel the wetness prick at the edges of her eyes.

'He knew how much I HATE Uchihas and he still let me—HE TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME!' she screamed in her head, causing the painful thoughts of yesterday to replay in her mind and making the joy she had melt away. It almost reminded her of the other time a man toyed with her now damaged heart.

~About 4 years earlier~

It had been about one year since the spunky Deidara snuck her way into the Rock village by pretending to be a boy, highly supported on her birth certificate. She was able to settle somewhat into her new town; although so far she wasn't making much of a statement as a ninja. She remained in a genin squad lead by a ninja of a higher level.

Today was a different day though that changed Deidara's whole life around…

"Alright," a senior ninja spoke to the three genins in front of him, including Deidara and two boys who tend to reject Deidara's presence completely. "You are getting a new leader. I would like you to meet Yukio."

At the sound of the name, a young man that was only a few years older than Deidara appeared. His warm chocolate eyes grazed over the group as he brushed a strand of rustic hair out of his face. "Nice to meet you," he grinned, flashing off an incredibly white smile that caused Deidara to blush.

She gripped onto her sleeves while cursing herself for even thinking that the boy looked remotely cute. She mentally fought back her girlish urges. 'You just think he looks nice, un. Nothing more.'

They learned the mission was simple enough; all they needed to do was pass on a scroll of information to a nearby outpost. Easy enough, right?

On their way there, the team made a quick stop to freshen up. Deidara watched awkwardly as the two other teammates talked amongst themselves.

"Hmmm, excuse me?" she muttered to only receive a conjoined glare. She didn't try any more after that and decided to sit by herself. But it wasn't far after a wrenching pain throbbed through her chest. 'Shit, un. It hurts!' She glanced around to notice the others were currently busy, so she snuck away from them. When the close was clear she started unbinding herself and felt the relief pulse through her body. Before she had a chance to relax anymore a voice interrupted.

"Comrade?"

Deidara turned in horror as she revealed herself to none other than her leader, Yukio. His eyes were focused mainly at the blonde's bare breasts, glinting in the moonlight. She thought he was going to yell. Hit her. Tell. 'I'm going to go to prison...' she whimpered in her mind as she chewed her lip.

In one flash, Yukio's hands tenderly cupped her face, and his lips parted in a promising whisper. "I'm not going to tell."

Her eyes snapped open, quickly roaming into his to search for an answer. "W-why, un?"

"You are a strong ninja. I watched what you could do with your clay," he gently took her hands and traced the mouths upon them. "And your precious gift."

The blonde couldn't help but lean closer to the boy who made her feel secure. No one had ever complimented her like that and she just knew it meant something. The growing beats of her heart could not lie to her.

So, many months passed with Deidara's trust in Yukio standing strong. To Deidara's gratefulness she even gave credited of her mission accomplishments to Yukio. He was desperate to travel up the ladder of being a higher ranked ninja and Deidara was glad to contribute. She worked hard to heighten Yukio's rank; she even sometimes saved his ass a few times. In return to her being loyal, Yukio gave her the best feeling of all: love. He would tenderly crease her and whispers of nothings that almost made Deidara forget her dreadful past.

All was good, and that morning when she woke up her happiness increased. A small note was stuck on the door of her current tenet. Excitedly, she ran her fingers along it and whispered the inscribed words:

Deidara,

Please meet with me at my quarters. I have something very important to tell you.

With love,

Yukio

"With love? Love?" the blonde whimpered as she crumbled the note close to her heart. For once in her life everything was okay.

She could barely contain herself, so she leaped upon roofs of various buildings just so she could reach him faster. Her breath came out briskly as she rapped her red knuckles on the door.

'This is happening'

'This is REALLY happening, un!'

Her head snapped up and out of her thoughts when they door swung up. Something in the back of her mind screamed something was wrong when she noticed Yukio's beautiful smile was replaced with a nasty sneer.

It was too late to react when she felt a rough hand, no his rough hand, pull over her mouth and yank her into the room.

"Yukio!" she screamed while her high-pitched voice while kicking him.

In pure anger, he jerked her ponytail up causing her legs to dangle above the solid ground below.

"What are you doing, un!" she yelped out while scratching at his hand, but not too hard. Her heart was telling her not to hurt, not too bad at least.

A low cackle burned her eardrums, "You stupid girl! I see why they don't make girls ninja's now. They are so easy to trick."

"T-trick?" Her voice cracked as a pain in her chest vibrated. The tears forming in her eyes were held back in sheer well.

He laughed darker, harder. "You still don't get it. I. Used. You."

"But, you said you loved me!" she screamed out; she was still hanging onto to her last sting of hope. The last thread that held her heart together was so close to snapping, but he could help her. She didn't want to believe that he didn't care anymore.

"How could I love a monstrous freak? Have you seen your hands?" he growled, "They defy nature itself."

Her face went numb. Nothing held back the flowing tears anymore.

"I'll do the world a favor by turning you in, and then I will finally be a Jounin." He shook her like a useless rag doll. "Guess you were good for ONE thing."

Snap.

The thread had broken and her heart was in pieces. It hurt: the pain throbbing from her chest throughout her body. She became completely numb; she saw no point of moving anymore.

'He doesn't love me'

'I'm a freak'

'Who could love me!'

Intensely, anger flowed throughout her veins allowing her to move again. She didn't release her hands from his throat even when she heard his helpless breathes. With all her strength she whipped him against the nearby wall. Her hands dug into the pouches at her side, gobbling up the clay.

An insane, broken smirk shined across Deidara's lips. "You fucked with the wrong person, un!"

She stuffed the clay bombs and left before she could turn back on herself, because after all, she still loved him.

She still loved the bastard that used her and broke her heart.

Behind her, a fiery explosion boomed. Derbies and charcoals spread every which way when the whole apartment complex went. Also killing other members who lived there.

There was no way Deidara could stay in the Hidden Rock Village anymore. To do that she would have to reveal the truth, and even then who would trust her.

She was considered a monster.

So, she left her dream of becoming a ninja and became rouge.

~About 4 years later~

Totally hatred burned in her eyes; the hatred for Yukio, but most of all Tobi or whoever he really was. She couldn't believe that she let herself fall into that same trap again.

Sucking it up, Deidara walked out of the bathroom while ignoring the hyper-ness of the comrade she no longer trusted.

"Senpai~!" Tobi squealed while yanking on the sleeve of her jacket. Without a word, Deidara pushed the man over and continued to button her Akatsuki coat over her bind chest.

"Senpai…?" Tobi whimpered on the ground with n innocent tilted head.

"Stop wasting time. We have Junchiriki to take care of, un!" she fired before leaving the hotel room.

Behind the mask Madara sighed, "She knows, damn."

Soon after, he got up on his feet following Deidara closely behind just as always, but this time he knew the journey together had taken a turn for the worse.

Deidara was going to be even more standoffish than usual.

-End of chapter, to be continued-