A/N: Okay I'm going to take a crack at writing a Jasper/Bella story! I hope you guys like the first chapter and if you do I'll continue! R & R! And if you don't like Bella and Jasper as a couple then don't read this! Edward lovers be warned...there is major Bella/ Jasper! And lonely, jealous Edward. lol
This story starts off on Edward and Bella's wedding night! It shouldn't be too mature though! THIS IS MY VERSION OF BREAKING DAWN...
Chapter 1:
We walked across the dock, and onto a beautiful white sand beach. The dark water was lapping at the sandy shore, the sound soothing in the quiet of the night. In the distance there was a cabin, with lit torches in the front by the entrance. Behind the cabin, near the center of the small, private island, there were tropical trees that seemed to tower over everything in sight. As we crossed the lonely beach towards the cabin, I took in the beauty of where we were; this was more than I could have ever imagined for myself. Living a somewhat lonely life, I never even dreamed of being in a wonderful place like this. It was undeniably breath taking.
Edward wrapped his cold arms around me and carried me back into the house. I squealed, surprised at the sudden movement and tightened my arms around his neck.
"Edward I have two legs you know." I huffed as we walked into the small house.
"I know that love, but you see thresholds are in the job description." He said winking at me and laughing when my heart thudded unevenly in response.
Stupid vampire and his dazzling abilities...
He set me on the floor and I was suddenly aware of what was about to happen; what was finally going to happen despite Edward's reluctance. Then, suddenly it was hard for me to breathe. I was about to make love to Edward. My Edward.
"Bella?" He questioned bringing me back to earth.
"I-I'm fine." I said immediately not wanting him to start changing his mind about doing this.
He had promised to try, but I knew how persuasive vampires could be...especially this one.
"Are you sure about this Bella? I mean we could wait until you were changed so you wouldn't get hurt. We don't have to do this now." He said, his golden eyes sincere and almost pleading.
Was he regretting promising this? Did he not want me anymore unless I was a vampire? Unless I was perfect and flawless, just like him and his family? It was our wedding night; why did it feel like he was avoiding me?
"Do you not want to?" I choked out finally, surprise slipping into my tone.
"Oh god Bella no! Of course I want you! I'm just...not sure if you're ready." He replied, lying through his teeth.
I felt a flash of anger, and wished more than ever that we were on equal footing so I could smack some sense into the vampire in front of me. Was he completely oblivious? After all this time did he not know me at all?
"You're not sure if I'm ready?" I scoffed crossing my arms over the navy robe that I had thrown over the small pajamas that Alice had picked out for me and packed without me knowing. Don't even get me started on her meddling.
He didn't think I was ready yet? After all we'd been through. After all I had done to make it clear that I wanted him fully and completely, he still doubted my affection. He still treated me like a child who needed looking after. Well, forget that. I'll show him that I'm some infant that needs protection; I'm his wife. And it's damn time he treated me like it.
I reached up on my toes and, grabbing the sleeves of his shirt, pulled his lips down to mine. Pressing my lips harder to his I ran my hands down his arms before tangling my hands in his bronze hair.
He stood frozen for a split second until I felt him hesitantly place his hands on my waist. Almost screaming in frustration I started pulling him forward in the direction that I thought the bed was. Then I felt the back of my legs bump into the bed and, being me, I lost my balance and started falling backwards onto the bed. Thankfully Edward realized this and maneuvered us so that he fell onto the bed with me on top of him.
My heart was beating in overtime now, but I was too distracted to care that he heard. It was happening! Edward and I would finally be together in the most intimate way possible for the first time. Truth be told I was a little nervous, but I knew Edward would take care of me. I trusted him with my life. With my heart.
"Bella." Edward murmured pulling his mouth away from mine and pressing a small kiss on my forehead, his hands brushing the small bit of skin that was visible between my shorts and tank now that my robe had come undone.
I regained my breath and peppered light kisses across his jaw before reaching up to bring our mouths back together. I noticed that Edward seemed distracted and annoyingly restrained. I tried to ignore his hesitance, but finally I couldn't take it anymore.
"Okay, What's wrong?" I asked pulling away from him and looking up into his eyes questioningly.
He rolled off me with a sigh and we laid side by side for a while in the silence. I would be patient and wait for his response. There was obviously something bothering him, and I didn't think it was because he was worried about my safety.
"You know I love you Bella, don't you?" He asked quietly breaking the silence.
"And I love you." I responded turning over onto my side and watching him.
He kept his gaze on the ceiling as he continued. "I just I can't do this. I'm so sorry for what I did, and for what I'm about to do."
My heart dropped into my stomach. This conversation sounded dreadfully familiar.
I bit my lip anxiously. "Whatever it is Edward we can get through it! We made it through James, Victoria, the Volturi, the wolves...we can get through anything." I said fiercely trying to prove to him that I wasn't a weak little girl, that I was his equal, and that we could conquer anything that stood in our way.
If anything my words made it worse. He cringed at my response and took my small hand in his cool ones.
"Bella, love, do you remember your 18th birthday party?" He asked and I nodded grimly. That was not one my greatest memories...
"Well after I...left you, I went back home and was a complete mess. I had just told the love of my life that I couldn't be with her; I was in a terrible place mentally and emotionally. In my devestation, I thought the house was empty so I went to my room to think. I was so consumed in my thoughts that I didn't realize that I wasn't alone. Alice was there. She joined me and we started talking about our relationships. And then-" He stopped suddenly and then closed his eyes.
"Go on." I said encouragingly even though my thoughts were full of dread. What could have happened to make him this visibly distraught?
"We kissed."
I sat there in shock for a second before I formed a response. "But that was all right? I mean you guys didn't..." The look on his face answered my question.
"You…and Alice?" I questioned hoarsely, my eyes wide with betrayal and pain.
"Bella I-"
"Answer the question Edward. Did you or did you not sleep with my best friend?" I said pushing away from him and looking him directly in the eyes.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
And I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces.
I pulled myself up and moved to the very end of the bed, as far away from him as possible.
Edward had cheated on me. He had gone and had sex with someone else. And not just anyone, my sister! My best friend in the whole world! How could he do this? How could they do this? And my 18th birthday was a year ago. Was he planning on never telling me? We were married now, and he finally tells me about it right before what I thought would be the most important moment of my life was about to happen.
"Bella. My Bella I'm so sor-" He started as he reached to wipe away tears that I hadn't realized were rolling down my face.
"I am not your Bella." I interrupted coldly causing him to flinch at the tone of my voice. "How could you? I thought you loved me? How could you cheat on my with my best friend?"
"I didn't mean for it to happen. I swear to god Bella it just-"
"Why did it have to be my best friend? Why Alice?" I whispered the tears flowing freely down my face.
"I'm sorry. You don't know how much I've regretted that night ever since it happened. That's why I left the family for a little while. I couldn't take the guilt." He said his voice full of sorrow and regret, his golden eyes glistening with tears that wouldn't be shed.
"Oh but you must have gotten over it since you let us be married without telling me. Edward how could you do that?" I asked, hearing the hurt and betrayal in my voice.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I thought we could get past it. I just didn't want to lose you." He pleaded trying to get me to understand.
And I did. I understood perfectly.
"You already did. Just go." I said turning away from him. I couldn't stand the sight of his flawless face. Every time I looked at him I couldn't help but picture Alice's small limbs tangled with his, her face pressed to his.
"Please don't do this. Bella I love you, not anyone else." He begged making the tears fall harder.
"Please Edward, just go. I need time to think." I said and then I heard the house door shut and I knew I was alone, for a little while at least...
I stumbled to the bathroom and didn't bother to lock the door. He'd just force his way in if he wanted to. Digging through Edward's suitcase I found the spare phone he kept there. Why he would need a spare I had no idea. I opened the phone and dialed the only number I felt I should.
"Hello?" The voice asked answering after only the second ring.
A/N: WHEW! that chapter was hard to write. There was a little Bella/Edward but not that much... I'll update as soon as I finish my other story. R & R! Let me know who you want to be on the phone! I havent decided yet!