Summary: Rogue's power is back and she once again feels like an outcast. But when a Cajun comes along and makes her feels a little bit normal she thinks her life is getting happier. That is until a certain old crush returns to the mansion. One that doesn't see Rogue as a "kid" anymore.

Couple: WolverinexRogue

Rated: M, for language, violence, unnecessary drama and sexual content and talk.

Disclaimers: I am not the genius that created the Marvel Universe if I was I believe my life would be complete. However this storyline is entirely my own.

Almost Lover

Chapter 19: I'm Sorry I Love You.

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With a wistful sigh I wipe the sweat from my forehead, my matted white bangs sticking to my face from the perspiration. Letting out a tired grunt I slouch down onto the ground watching as Gambit moved to sit beside me. Yes I know, why aren't me and Gambit all awkward and all? Well when Logan and I came back Jubilee had been acting a bit strange and today I realized why.

She and Remy were dating.

I'm not upset at all or confused; I think it's the sweetest thing I've ever witnessed. They seem perfect for each other and both of them seem real happy. Gambit and I are fine; he understood that I had to be with Logan, he understood that I never meant to hurt him.

"So, cher, ya' gonna' tell the Remy what's wrong or does he gotta' beg?" Giving me that special smile he turned to look at me. I shrug casually and focus on the other wall. I don't want to tell him about the fight I had with Logan… It was stupid and it didn't matter.

"Aw come now ma petite, tell the Remy what's wrong."

"Nothin'… Just me over thinking every little thing…"

"Like….?"

"Am I over reacting to the fact that Logan and I don't do anything but… fuck?" God I sound like a whore.

He frowned thinking about, "Jubilee and Remy have sex…"

"I know but I bet you take her out right?"

"Remy hasn't…"

"What?"

"She doesn't seem like she cares if the Remy does or not 'sides it's not like Remy don't spend almost all day wit' 'er ya' know?"

God that was true! She and Logan were always around each other so a date would just be pointless right…? Crap why had she been freaking out? "Okay but… let's say he fucked another chick."

"While wit' cha'?"

"Well no… but he was tryin' to um… get me?"

"Hm… Dats different wit' different people cher. Like wit' Jubes if we weren't together and the Remy had sex wit' another chick she wouldn't care but yer… yer different." Yeah she was fucked up in the head apparently. "Did ya' tell 'em it bothers ya'?"

"No…"

"Well, petite, men we can't read minds. 'Cept Xavier he could but ta' rest of us can't cha' know? So how can he apologize for sometin' he had no idea pissed ya' off?"

"It should be obvious!"

"Did ya' act any different after ya' found out…?"

Oh shit. "Um… no…"

"Well there ya' go."

"Ugh." Grumbling I smack my head against my palm and he sighs giving me a side hug, "I really didn't come here expectin' for ya' to take up for 'em…"

"Remy knows cher, and Remy is sorry an' maybe he is wrong but…"

"Ya' ain't… I don't think so anyway."

"So whatcha' gonna' do now den?" Gambit asked softly giving me a sweet look. I pondered it before letting out a low groan. The only thing I could do… talk to him. This was going to be so hard. Our relationship wasn't exactly talking if you didn't notice… mainly touching and kissing… we used to talk though… before… I dunno before he found me attractive I guess.

"Try not to murder him… and try to fix this."

"A'ight then, Remy's gonna go find his mall rat." Gambit announced before standing. I smile and stand as well. His and Jubilee's relationship was really cute actually… the swamp rat and the mall rat. I smile at the idea before giving the Cajun a swift hug and heading upstairs, hoping Logan was in the room.

However when I opened the door the scene in front of me broke my heart. "Logan…" He looked up before going back to packing. Packing. No fucking way. No he wasn't leaving- He couldn't be leaving! We have one fight and he jets? Why would he do that? "Yer leavin'?" No "Are you running away again?" or any of that shit… I wasn't the little girl begging for his attention but I sure as hell wasn't going to let him leave.

"Yeah." He pulls the duffel over his shoulder before looking at me closely.

"Why?"

"Well we're fightin' and-"

"And what? Yer just gonna' give up on us? If there even is an us!? I thought you had more guts then that Wolverine! I mean come on! We deserve more attention then that! Sure we fought and stuff but come on every couple does-"

"Marie." I ignore him.

"If I didn't fight with you that'd mean I didn't care. That'd mean that everything you do to me doesn't affect me in anyway. That knowing you were with that women didn't break my heart- That knowing that yer leavin' doesn't make me wanna' cry! If we didn't fight it would mean I didn't love you!"

Oh shit.

His eyebrows rise.

Oh shit, shit, shit.

I DID NOT just say the "L" word just now did I? Oh no.

Oh fuck.

Fuck my life… I just ruined everything.

He stares at me blankly and I clamp my mouth shut. Dammit! Me and my big mouth! Could I never shut up? Shit!!

There was another long pause before finally Logan clears his throat, "Storm is sendin' me on a quick mission to pick up a mutant… I'm comin' back." Oh.

Oh well then…

I giggle escapes my lips and a swallow. That was just smart of me wasn't it? I embarrassed myself just because I didn't hear him out? Well fuck my life… I laugh suddenly and it surprises him before he frowns, his eyebrows staying raised. I start to giggle hysterically and I can't stop… Quickly I back for the door. I fumble with the door knob before stumbling out of the room. He steps forward.

"Marie… wait-"

"W-w-well um have fun ya' know… and be safe and… take yer time… don't get hurt… same as be safe but still…" Crap I'm stumbling over my words! I knew he could smell the embarrassment and shame on me which only made things worse. Way, way worse. I swallow trying to calm my mind and slow my beating heart but it doesn't work. He reaches out and I stumble back until I'm up against the hallway wall. Thank god no one was around… Actually maybe not… then they could save me!

But from what? My own stupidity… yeah actually that…

He takes two more steps with his long legs and then he's there, towering over me with his large frame. Suddenly I feel like that stupid little kid again… After all this I went through! Stryker, Victor, those sex games… One little slip up and one little look from Logan and I'm this stupid blushing kid again! Dammit. "Marie." Stop saying my name please… just walk away… back into the room.

I close my eyes and he touches my face, his rough fingers brushing the soft skin of my cheek. Thank god I wasn't crying… that would really suck. "I'm sorry." My eyes pop open when he says that and I stare, wide eyed, at him my pulse speeding up rapidly. Naturally I thought he was talking about the love thing… and that he was turning me down. I mean of course he didn't love me right? He couldn't… not me… But I didn't want to hear him say it… I didn't want to hear him tell me he didn't love me…

It would hurt too much…

And then, sadly, I'd probably cry.

"I'm sorry for what a jackass I am and how… it's hard for me to emotionally be here for you. I'm sorry I don't do romantic shit like take you out for dinner by candle light or buy you big boxes of chocolate and huge bouquets of flowers… I'm sorry I don't tell how much you mean to me all the time… Hell I'm sorry you love me 'cause god knows I don't deserve it." Not true.

"But."

Dammit "buts" were never good.

"But despite what an unromantic asshole I am… I do… I do love you." Holy shit. My green eyes fly to his face and my lips part as I take in a swift breath. He did not- He did not just say that?! But he did!! He said he loved me!!!

Suddenly I feel it, my heart, instead of the break I thought it would endure, it soars up and into my throat making it hard for me to speak but nonetheless it was wonderful. My stomach got a bit queasy and as fucking cheesy as it sounds my legs got wobbly. He loves me.

"Ya' know… it would be nice if you said something so I don't feel like an idiot."

Oh!

I try but my heart in my throat stops me and I swallow a soft nervous laugh bubbling up again. He gives me a worried look but I give him a nervous soft smile, "S-sorry." I swallow my heart before taking a breath, "And you aren't."

"Aren't what?"

"An unfeeling asshole who doesn't deserve my love." He frowns before laughing awkwardly, "What?"

"I tell you I love you and you mention that."

I smile grabbing his fallen hand, "Yeah well… it's true."

"What? That you love me or that I deserve it?"

"Both." He smiles and cups my face, before his lips capture mine. I greedily kiss him, my hands going to his flannel shirt to grab onto for dear life as he kisses my breath away. His tongue slides in and we wrestle, his hand moving to my back to push me closer before we hit the wall a bit hard. But nonetheless it's ignored his tongue and lips much too distracting. He leaves me then and rests his forehead on mine. "Logan." He gives me a soft grunt and I would have smiled if I suddenly wasn't feeling desperate.

"Fuck the game, okay? You win just take me." He grins before slamming his lips against mine once more, his hands moving down to cup my ass. I respond by jumping up and wrapping my legs around his waist, kissing him back hard, my hands leaving his chest to yank him closer by his hair. He tries to chuckle against my lips but it turns into a growl as I grind myself against his crotch.

He pulls us back from the wall and without looking skillfully walks us backwards into the room. He leaves my lips to molest my neck with his teeth and tongue as one of my hands leave to explore his toned hard body, his hand running over my curves and breasts repeatedly. Without skipping a beat he maneuvers us so I'm pinned on the bed when he lets us fall. We both groan at the contact of our bodies before his hand leaves my breasts to fumble with his jeans.

I pull back enough to kiss on his neck and shoulder, pushing away the flannel to bite him. He growls out and nips at the body part closest to his face which happens to be the side of my right breast. I gasp in surprised pleasure and arch a bit before sucking on his neck. He grabs my face then before crushing his lips back on mine, molesting my mouth with his tongue once again.

I wrap my legs back around his waist once his jeans are finally kicked to the side. I feel his penis against my crotch and smile. Gotta' love the man for never wearing any underwear. I rub against him again and he hisses out in pleasure, thrusting against it. I giggle and pull back my red whisker burnt face staring back up at his. Absently I remember his mission but that thought flees the moment he's pulling up my shirt to bite my breasts. He licks the nub of my nipple before biting down and I yelp out in pleasure, lifting up into him.

'snikt'

He slices my shirt and bra off and I thank god they weren't anything expensive. As if reading my mind he raises an eyebrow at my pants and I just shake my head. Then with an animalistic and hot-as-hell smirk he slices the pants as well, ripping them down and off. How he did that so skillfully without cutting me I'll never know. His claws are gone then and he's back at my breasts his fingers moving down to tease me.

I glare and quickly grab his shirt in bunches before ripping it off, destroying the buttons in the process. He just chuckles and chunks it to the side. I sit up but he growls placing his hand on my chest to push me back down. Then he pushes my thighs apart and gets on the floor. I of course know what's going to happen before it does but it doesn't stop me from taking it a quick breath.

He smirks again before touching my clit. I gasp and arch up as he pinches it and moves his fingers against it. Little breaths of pleasure escape my lips and I know I'm blushing like mad. His fingers move then to push two inside of me. I gasp out before moaning loud as he thrusts his fingers, his mouth finding my clit and his tongue flicking against it continuously. I grip his hair tight and moan in pleasure as he works his magic, his fingers pumping me, earning a small moan each time. I feel an orgasm rising and shake my head, pulling at his hair until he pulls away giving me a questioning look.

"I-I want… ya' inside me, Logan." I pant out, licking my lips.

He grins not about to let me down before getting off the floor and on top of me, kissing me hard. I feel his cock against my entrance and swallow knowing it's going to hurt. My nails dig into his back as he starts to push inside of me. It was painful, extremely, mostly considering how huge he is. But I bear it, kissing him as he does, my nails cutting his flesh before he growls out in pleasure and heals. He's all the way in and kisses me again before pulling out to the tip then as I frown thinking he's leaving he slams into me.

I yell out in pleasure and he growls slamming into me again. It doesn't take me long to find the rhythm of his thrust and I move with him. This gives me a growl of praise and I smile kissing him again before he goes to my neck, his body moving into mine fast as he slams into me hard. My moans get higher and I know I'm getting even closer.

Then with one final slam I scream out his name and orgasm. I tighten around him in pleasure and he growls out, moaning as he releases inside of me, tucking his head into the crook of my neck as he slowly moved us together to ride out our orgasms.

Eventually we come down from our high and with a grunt he rolls off of me, pulling me on top of me. I stay silent, stuffing my face into his chest. I had no idea what to say. "Damn Marie." I smile before lifting my head.

"That was good?"

"That was fucking great." I smile. Good it wasn't only me then.

Absently I feel him play when my hair and smile lifting my head to look down at him. "I didn't lose control."

He grins, "No, no you did not."

"I wonder if I can control it now…"

"Probably." He laughs before stretching his large arms over his head, "And all because of the Wolverine." I roll my eyes but can't help but smile when he gives me a sexy smile.

After a moment of thinking I sigh toying with his dark chest hair, "You know it's funny…"

"Hm?"

"For a while I was worried we'd just be 'almost lovers'."

He smiles, not a smirk but that special smile that he only gave me, "For a while there… so was I."

THE END.

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