A/N: My first ever TPOBAW fan fic~ About time. This IS one of my favorite books.

Dear Friend,

Something weird happened today that I wasn't sure if I should mention to you or not. I don't know if Patrick would want anyone to know or not, but I'm a little confused by it…

We were parked and just listening to a tape when Patrick asked me if I was still masturbating and if I ever thought about Sam. I told him no, I tried not to, and then he got this strange look on his face and asked me if I ever thought about boys. I told him no, I didn't, and that I tried to not think about anyone I know. He just laughed real hard and asked me if I had ever thought about him. I told him no, I wasn't gay, and he told me it didn't matter what a person looked like on the outside.

I don't know if Patrick really thinks this or not because he was drinking real hard again. I'm glad Sam didn't see him like this. He started to cry real hard about something soon after that. I'm not sure, but I think it was about Brad again. I put my arm around his shoulder until he stopped crying as hard. He leaned on me, but I let him. I wanted him to feel better.

After a while he stopped crying completely and just laughed again and told me that if I ever needed someone real to masturbate to, he didn't mind if it was him. Patrick is confusing at times…

Love always,

Charlie