I'm Scared

I'm scared it might come back

I'm scared I might die

I'm scared I will leave Ella and Elizabeth alone.

I'm scared I'll miss Ella's first word, first step, first day of school

Why did this have to happen like this? Right now?

I don't understand why God would do this to me.

I don't want it to come back.

I don't want to die

I don't want to leave Ella and Elizabeth alone

I don't want to miss Ella's first word, first step, or first day of school.

I don't understand.

Why me?