The Forgetter
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
"Cam?" Dylan called out pleadingly. "CAM?"
She heard distant voices, talking, crying…pleading?
She tuned them out because she had so much more to worry about. She just told Cam Fisher—boy with the biggest heart broken—that she loved him; how wrong!
"Please, forgive me Massie…" Cam's voice rung in her ears, Dylan ran even faster as she raced to hear more of the voices.
"I'm sorry Cam; but this had to be done. I don't belong here, and there was no other way out of this." The angelic voice murmured apologetically. That voice was the voice of the girl that had broke Cam's very heart; the same heart that Dylan was trying to mend.
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart
Staring with wide emerald eyes, Dylan's mouth was hung over. Cam was talking to a ghost-like figure.
"How come you never came to me before?" Cam begged, his eyes obviously water because his voice was cracking all over the place. "You forgot me!" Cam sobbed.
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
The ghosted figure hugged his form tightly as it kissed Cam's head. Dylan ached with regret and burning envy.
"No," the ghost-like person irresistibly chided. "You forgot me, Cam." Cam cried harder as he latched onto the figure.
"No!" Dylan's heart was shattered now. Torn. The girl that supposedly Massie, hugged Cam tighter as she shh'ed him to be quieter. To calm him. "I never forgot you!" Cam replied weakly.
"Massie" hugged Cam as he cried but she didn't say anything more; probably figuring Cam already knew her thoughts. "Cam, I can't stay with you for hours. Only certain period of times, so I'll visit you when you need me most…like times like these?" Massie suggested, her voice soothing Cam immediately.
"Why not forever?" He asked feebly, his voice broken and devastated.
"Because that would mean I was alive—which I'm not." Massie gently said, she rubbed his back much like his mother did when he was younger and got a boo-boo.
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart
"How is it possible," Cam took deep breaths. "That you can even come back?" Massie sighed quietly as she clutched her body next to his tightly. Dylan had stayed in her same spot as she watched the two sit perfectly matched on the picnic table.
"It's rare," Massie began thoughtfully. She chewed on her lower lip. "But it only happens when someone really loves a person that is in so much misery."
Cam hugged her to him as he feverishly latched his lips to hers. She kissed him hard and with as much passion as he did to her.
"I don't want to be miserable."
"I don't want you to either." She soothed.
"Then don't leave me ever again."
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
"I have to go soon," Massie admitted as she ran her hands in his hair, her other hand clasped tightly in his.
Dylan was watching so carefully with so much confusion and passion driving in her, she couldn't help but cry quietly too. Cam meant so much to her, but he was in love with Massie; and there was nothing she could do about that.
"No." Cam sternly replied, his voice wavering with disappointment. "I never want to not see your beautiful face," he wept. She cried against his shoulder.
"I'm still with you." She assured him through her tears.
Oh take me back to the start
"How will you ever be with me, unless I'm miserable?" Cam contradicted, his eyes never leaving her face and his hands never leaving hers.
She unclasped his hand gently and at first he thought she was leaving him as he quickly latched himself tightly to her. She frowned largely as she tenderly kissed his head and pulled away. She placed her hand where his heart was and smiled through her silent tears.
"I'll always be," she tapped his chest. "Right there with you." He smiled despite the pain he was feeling and agreed.
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
"Will you be able to visit me often?" He questioned, obvious pleading in his tone.
Dylan took deep breaths herself as she watched the tender loving exchange.
"I'll try. But you have to know, Cam," Cam sighed when she said his name. His eyes were sparkling again, a real look of color in his once pale cheeks. "You have a future that is very bright and full of happiness and love…I can't keep coming back to you—what happens if one day you fall in love again?" She looked disproving when he began protesting.
"People fall in and out of love many times, Cam." Cam's heart was clenching much like it did during her funeral.
"I am in love with you, Massie Rose Block. And no one else." He fiercely stated.
She grinned happily, but knew the truth herself.
"You may now, or perhaps forever…but you have a very loving future." She chided.
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Dylan left the couple for their peace and privacy, unable to take this maddening grief herself. She left the couple as they swung on the swings together, Cam pushing Massie as she giggled and talked with him.
His eyes were bright and full of brief life; the Real Cam. Dylan wanted that Cam for herself.
"So Mass," Cam began, forgetting the grief he had before by shoving it in a drawer for later. "Do the dead really come back to their loved ones all the time?"
Massie shrugged as she inhaled the earthy smell of gravel and dirt and Cam. Cam…
"I suppose, only if their loved one really needs it. They can come back occasionally. It's very magical. And normally they come back as someone else in another's body, but you needed me so much, they made an acceptation." She patiently explained, staring at Cam with adoration.
Cam nodded, his head thoughtful and curious with so many unanswered questions.
Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
"How's everybody?" Massie asked as she slowed her swing to stare into Cam's multi-colored eyes she had missed so dearly.
"They're grieving; especially Leesh."
Massie shrugged a little, a sad smile gracing her lips as she thought some more.
"She doesn't need me nearly as much as she needs Josh." Massie concluded, her eyes glazing,
"I need you," Cam couldn't resist. Massie giggled and kissed him passionately again and hugged him to her. "I never want to let you go." Cam muttered against her lips, a small smile on their lips.
Massie grinned, "I don't either. But at least I know you truly do love me." Cam pulled away, an exasperated and irritated look on his face.
"Of course I love you. I'll scream it to the whole park: I LOVE MASSIE ROSE BLOCK!!!!" He yelled so loudly, Massie covered her ears and giggled like a school-girl.
"Ah, Cam. I love you."
Cam's eyes were tender and serious. "I will never grow tired of those words coming from your lips,"
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
"I have to go, Cam." She upsettingly reminded. Cam frowned again, his grief coming out of that tucked away drawer.
"But you just got here!" He protested.
Her eyes were gazing into his, "It seems like it, doesn't it?" She mused, her amber eyes holding so much love in them, Cam was a little overwhelmed.
"Yeah." Cam agreed. His hands tight against hers.
"Go home, Cam. Sleep in your own home, and stop waiting for me now. I'll come when I'm needed, not wanted." She contorted her face to force a small last smile when he frowned. "You may find that there are many that love you; and need you. You'll find a reminder of me all of the place; no need to miss me." She bravely told him. Squeezing his hands, she began disappearing into the chilly wind. The sun was setting now and her brunette locks were disappearing. Her whole body was gone and her amber eyes were the last to disappear.
A last glance of assurance.
And then she was gone:
Just like that.
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Dragging himself home, Cam walked in his home door to find his adoring family crowded and waiting for him. He ran to them and received many kisses and hugs and sweet words.
"I love you mom," Cam reminded his Mother."
"I love you too, Cam." She desperately replied.
Not the same when Massie said it—but still important.
He finally made his way to his room and found a letter crumpled on his bed. He read it with shaking hands.
Cam,
What just had happen was not a dream of any thing. It was real and true as you are and is totally genuine.
I'm sorry I had to go, but by the time you finish this letter, you'll realize hopefully that I love you more than anything but it's time we move on…
The first day I met you was incredible.
The first time I saw you face: I knew it was fate.
The first time you laughed: You had me swooning.
And the very first time you told me you love me:
Was the best day of my life.
I'll see you eventually: Don't rush life though. There's too much to do rather than waste your time grieving. I want you to be happy. (:
I love you—to the very end.
-M.B.
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Author's Note: Hey! Sorry about this…strange, bizarre chapter.
This update was in the name of impatient reviewers. :P
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