Ok, as promised eons ago, here is the Tanya outtake. This is the way the chapter was originally going to go but as you read you will see why we changed it. Connor's powers were an issue so they were altered and so was Tanya's fate. We hope that you enjoy this little snippet.
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EPOV
Being with Bella these past few weeks has been wonderful. Breathing her in day after day, I no longer needed air, I needed Bella. It had become so quiet since the family had left taking our new friends to Denali. Carlisle wanted to see if Eleazar had ever heard of anything like this happening before. With them gone Bella and I didn't have to worry about being interrupted all the time.
Bella had left that day for some classes. She said that she would have to stop by the store. She wanted to make something special for dinner. The life that I had been blessed with was amazing. I couldn't wait for Bella to be my wife. So it was with this train of thought, I found myself upstairs lying on my leather couch, listening to my iPod, my eyes closed in relaxation.
I don't know how long I laid there before I felt someone watching me. Figuring it was Bella, I laid still to let her think I was asleep, waiting for Bella to come to me. I could feel her walk closer, stopping next to me; I reached out and pulled her to me in the same moment that she landed, crashing on me. It was then that something registered in my mind; I felt cold where I should have felt warmth. I snapped my eyes open only to see Tanya lying on top of me. I was sure my face mirrored hers, lined with shock.
"Tanya I'm so sorry," I stammered out "I thought you were…" she cut me off.
"No wait," she said quietly while I sat us up. "When I overheard Carlisle, I couldnt believe it. I had to see for myself," she said as she reached for my cheek. I reached up and grabbed her hand.
"Yes it's true. I'm alive," I offered her a warm smile as she stared unblinking into my eyes.
"And human," she whispered. "Your eyes... thier like green embers. Their beautiful," she said completely in awe. She shook her head; I imagined getting her thoughts together.
"Uh thanks. So are you planning on staying to see Bella?" I asked getting really uncomfortable with the situation. She jumped, almost like she was shocked by something.
"Well I wanted to talk to you for a while...if that's ok?" she asked wringing her hands together. I guess I wasn't the only nervous one. I knew why I was, I just wondered what caused hers.
"Tanya of course," I said smiling, hoping to take some of the edge off, "you know you have always been a friend to me." She smiled at me and reached out to take my hand. As her fingers took mine my mind got foggy. I couldn't seem to think straight but I felt a tightening in my stomach. As my mind was lost to the haze I remembered something long ago, from my younger days as a vampire…
"You know of my tendencies with human companions?" Tanya asked with a smirk.
"How could I not," I replied, wincing at the scene running through her mind, "you can't seem to think of anything else." I could see with perfect clarity, as if I was Tanya. I could see her looking down at the human male, consumed with passion.
"Well there's more to the fact that I love for them to warm my bed, it's that they are easier to seduce than a vampire" she said with a sly smile on her lips. "Now if a certain vampire were willing to partake in such activities…" she said seductively. The face of the human in her mind went from one of a stranger to a very familiar one, mine. "Then I wouldn't object," she finished.
The memory sent ice through my veins, with the realization, I grabbed Tanya's wrists. "Tanya what are you doing?"I asked her, using a firm voice.
"Ahhh, so I can seduce you now." The smile that played on her face was doing anything to help my betraying body, I could feel my erection throbbing. "You know I've always wanted you Edward," she said while moving her lips closer to mine.
I couldn't pull away. I knew it wrong, but why did I want to pull away? I wanted her, I wanted to feel her inside and out. Our lips connected, mystical, magical, it was a siren's call I couldn't refuse. She grabbed my hair, pushing me down on the couch as one of my hands tangled into hers. The other wrapped around her waist, trying to get her as close to me as possible. I felt her cold tongue reach out and touch my lips. I opened my mouth without hesitation to feel the cold of her tongue against mine. Something in the back of my mind knew this was wrong, but every time I tried to pull away my head would just get foggy again. I let out a moan as I felt her hand slip down to the button on my jeans, and my hands reached for her shirt. We quickly discarded our clothes and they were scattered on the floor. Before I knew what was happening, I was sitting on the couch with Tanya on her knees in front of me.
"I know she's never made you feel like this," she said, stroking me. When her tongue darted out to lick me from base to tip I let out a moan and my eyes rolled into my head. "See, I knew it. I can sense all human fantasies. Who knew that the gentleman Edward Cullen liked to have his cock sucked?" she mewled out before taking my swollen member into her mouth. I didn't move, I didn't make a sound, I absorbed everything about her…the way her tongue would massage the sensitive skin under my head, her lips as they slid up and down the vein, and the way her venom was causing a tingling sensation, making me more aware of her every movement.
I reached out to wrap my fist into her hair, guiding her in her ministrations. The friction of her mouth was driving closer to my release; I felt it coiling in my stomach. I was right on the edge, starting to fall over when I got a flash behind my eyes of a beautiful brown eyed girl. "No!" I cried as I somehow pulled Tanya away.
"What's wrong, lover" she asked in a husky voice.
"I…can't…do…this." I strained to get the words out.
"And why ever not? Let me please you," she said while moving to straddle me, her hands running up my chest. I clamped my eyes shut hoping that it would come to me.
"I don't know" I whispered. The haze was still blocking me. I felt her shift, followed by cold fingers as they grasp me at my base. I opened my eyes startled at the frigidness. I grabbed her hips as she slammed down on my cock. Once I was inside of her the tingling from before intensified tenfold, "Oh… oh god," I grunted out. It was the most erotic thing I had ever felt. She started rocking her hips against mine, sliding up and down. Her hands tugging almost painfully at my hair.
"Does it feel good," she panted out.
"Yes, don't stop," I grounded out. I tossed my head back, getting lost in the slick folds of her walls as they contracted around me. I could feel the coiling in my back returning. "Ugh…" I moaned, getting closer, and again, I saw the girls face. I knew that face, I knew that girl. I worshiped everything about those lips, the things they would say, and the kisses that set my soul free. Those chocolate orbs, I could see into her, read her thoughts through them. The thing I remembered the most were those cheeks. They would vary in shades between ivory to blood red, depending on the situation. I knew her, my Bella. "Bella" I cried out. Tanya halted mid stroke.
"What did you say?" she said narrowing her eyes at me menacingly. I gave her the hardest look I could.
"Get off me now! This is wrong! What did you do to me?!" Taking a chance on her being distracted I pushed her off. She fell off and I scrambled as far away from her as possible.
"Listen to me lover, you want me, I know you do," she sneered at me while picking herself up.
"Tanya, hear me and hear me good. This is not me. It was wrong. I love Bella!"I growled. She sauntered over to me while I tried to get my boxers on. For every step she took, I took two. I was still struggling to get my underwear back up. I was mentally cursing the damned things when I heard the most wonderful sound in my life, and yet my heart stopped.
"Back off Tanya!" I turned to see Bella standing with her fist clamped tight against her thighs in the doorway. I started to go to her but she held up her hand, stopping me in my tracks. "Tanya I think you have worn out your welcome. You need to go," she said through her teeth.
"Bella I'm sor..." I tried to explain, but she was livid, either at me or Tanya, I didn't know, but I didn't want her upset, not because of my weakness.
"Later," she said without looking at me. She eyed Tanya with a cold look. I felt myself shiver from it involuntary.
"Who are you to tell me to leave, child?" Tanya growled.
"I am Bella Cullen," she said with dignity, "this is my home that you are defiling, so you're no longer welcome here," Bella said calmly.
Tanya tossed her head back with a tinkling laugh. "Well it's not for you to say. Edward wants me to stay don't you?" Tanya said starting to come towards me. I raised my hands, shook my head and stepped back.
"Well that says it all," Bella said walking over to me. I felt her hands run through the sides of my head as she pulled me down into an explosive kiss. I could feel the passion spread throughout my body, like an electrical current. She leaned back and smiled a radiant smile.
"He loves me. You may have controlled his body but his heart is mine," she said still staring into my eyes. "You can never have his love," she finished saying, before turning her attention back to Tanya. The growl registered a second after I saw Tanya leap toward Bella. I didn't have a chance to stop her, as she grabbed Bella by the throat. Seeing her feet dangling in the air, I ran over to Tanya, trying to pry her hands loose.
"Tanya let her go!" I screamed while jerking on Tanya. My human strength was no match for a vampire. I would have done anything to have the power back. My eyes fell on my love struggling to breathe. I could see it in her eyes, the light was fading, and she was dying.
"No!" I cried, "Tanya please, please let her go." I pleaded; I knew I couldn't do anything; I was as helpless as a kitten compared to Tanya. "She's the reason I came back. You can't take her from me, I love her." I sobbed.
"Why can't you love me?" Tanya asked beseechingly. "We would be good together, so good. I could make you happy, if you just let me," she said with pain in her eyes.
"No, just like Bella said, you can never have my heart," I said looking at Bella. I could see the immense abundance of love for me in the dwindling light of her eyes. "I love you," I said not breaking the eye contact with her; I wanted to be the last thing she saw. I was quickly going through ideas in my head of how I was going to follow her. I was pulled from the distressing thoughts when several things happened at once. There was loud exploding sound coming from downstairs, in the same instant I saw Tanya fling Bella through the glass wall in my room. "Bella!" I heard someone scream. I started for the door barely noticing that Alice had Tanya down on the ground.
"Go to Bella Edward, I've got her." She grunted out, struggling with Tanya as she thrashed around. Rose came bounding through the door to help hold Tanya down. I ran downstairs and out the back door to see Carlisle kneeling down by Bella. Ally came running to me and gasped at the sight of Bella then took off inside. Emmett, Jasper, Timmy, and Wyatt all stepped back. I fell to my knees beside Bella, looking to Carlisle pleadingly. I didn't have to be a mind reader to know what the fallen expression on his face meant. Sobbing, I leaned over Bella, resting my head on her chest.
"Edward I'm sorry. There's too much damage. I can't do anything." I closed my eyes as Carlisle's voice spilled into my ears.
"Bella love, don't leave me. I didn't come back just to lose you. Please love fight for me. Please!" I implored through my tears. I sat up cradling her to me. I saw the empty look in her eyes; I knew she was slipping away fast. "Fight for me Bella! Fight dammit!" I screamed at her, shaking her limp body. I felt a cold hand on my shoulder.
"Give her to me Edward." I looked up to see Connor with a look in his eyes I couldn't describe, haunted I would guess.
"I can't let her go." I buried my face into her hair, reveling in the sweet smell of her strawberry shampoo.
"I can help her but there's not much time. Her heartbeat is very faint and if you don't give her to me now she will die." Before I could even think Jasper spoke up.
"Trust him Edward" he said in an assuring tone. I nodded to Connor and handed over my love to him. Connor took Bella inside to lay her on the couch. We all stood back as his hands were held out, one above her chest and the other above her legs. We all gasped as a bright light started to glow from each hand. I saw the cuts and bruises disappear in front of my eyes. I felt Alice wrap her arms around my waist. Instinctually I grasped at her, trying to hold myself together.
"How is this possible?"I heard Carlisle say somewhere behind me. I was too entranced by the scene playing out in front of me to care.
"Her heartbeat is getting stronger." Esme said in disbelief.
My breath hitched when I heard the sound that held me to this world. "Edward?" Bella asked hoarsely. Connor moved out of the way as I ran to her side.
"I'm here love. I'm so sorry about before. That wasn't me. I couldn't stop." I knew now was not the time to ease my conscience, but I couldn't let her go on believing that I was unfaithful. I took both her hands in mine, not knowing what kind of pain she could still be in.
"You fought it." She said pulling her hands to cup my face, "I heard what you said to her. I know what Tanya's powers are. I know who you are, and that wasn't you." She leaned in carding her hands in my hair. Her lips met mine in the most earth shattering kiss, the kind of kiss you feel in your soul. We were interrupted by that pesky pixie sister of mine jumping in and hugging both of us. We laughed at Alice's familiar antics.
"I'm so glad you're ok. I'm sorry we didn't get here sooner," she said shaking her head and standing, "I knew she was coming here but only decided last minute to seduce you. As soon as I saw it we took off here." She said while shuffling her feet. "Then while on our way here I saw her throw Bella. We tried. I'm so sorry," she said covering her face with her hands. Bella and I both reached for her hand, bringing her back in for another hug.
"Alice I'm ok." Bella said with an encouraging grin. "So Connor," Bella said, "do you want to explain why I'm ok when I know I shouldn't be?" Bella ask as everyone turned to him.
"I didn't know you had a power" Emmett said leaning in.
"He doesn't like to tell people," Jasper said with a smug look.
"Ah funny thing..." he started, running his hand up his neck, "umm I can heal anything with a heartbeat." Connor said, his eyes darting around the room. I noticed he almost looked ashamed.
"Connor you have no reason to be ashamed son," Carlisle said with a humble look. "That is a power to be proud of."
"Well it's not so much I'm ashamed it...."he started to say but was interrupted by Ally and Rose coming from the back yard.
"Tanya's in a fire pit out back," Ally said pointing toward the smoke outside.
"Should we be concerned about the others?" Rose asked, walking to Emmett's side.
"I've already called them. Kate is upset but she knows Tanya hasn't been in her right mind since Edward..." Esme's eyes locked on me for a second, "well you know."
"Ok so back to Connor, what the hell dude?" Emmett bellowed.
"It's simple. If certain vampires found out about my power, how long do you think I'll have my freedom?" He said hesitantly.
"Connor you know your secret is safe here. I owe you that much, brother." Connor looked at me, a grateful smile on his face.
"Thank you Edward," he paused, "brother." He said, still grinning. My attention was drawn back to Bella, as she was trying to get up. I helped her steady herself as she walked towards Connor. She wrapped her arms around his waist and sighed. "Thank you, brother." She said. I saw him bend down, and whisper something in her ear that I couldn't make out.
"Well whose all up for a good weekend hunt to celebrate?"Carlisle suggested, everyone shouted their approval and started heading out the door, leaving Bella and myself to talk. I walked up to Bella encasing her in my arms as she waved everyone off.
"Love we need to talk. I have to know that we are ok." I said into her neck. There was no way I was letting this go. She turned and smiled.
"Everything is fine Edward. I know you love me. I know that you didn't want to do…" she waved her hand in front of her, "that." She ran her fingers through my hair, tugging me into another passionate kiss. She tried leaning away but I wasn't having any of that, so I moved to her neck. I started sucking on the sensitive spot behind her ear, lapping up her delicate flavor.
"Edward, love," she giggled.
"Mmm" I replied while running kissed up and down her neck and jaw.
"Can I have a talk with you?" She said huskily. I knew I was winning from the sounds emanating from her mouth.
"Can I just listen? I'm kind of busy." I said while my hands were running up and down her back.
"I just need to tell you something," she said while grinding her hips into me.
"Ok but hurry because I want to finish this upstairs," I said while picking her up. She wrapped her legs around me as I started toward the stairs. I planned on making love to Bella for the rest of the night, having her call out my name over and over again. Bella was kissing on my neck, driving me insane, as I got to the top landing. She yanked my hair, pulling my ear to her mouth and licked it once. The sensations of her breath on me were sending an electric current straight to my groin.
"I'm pregnant." Never had those words sounded as sexy as they did when falling from Bella's lips.
We hoped you liked this and we didn't want to rip off Charmed and try to explain how Connor was a white lighter so that was one of the big factors in changing the chapter. The epilogue should be posted some time this week.