Disclaimer: I don't own D. Gray-Man

Rating: K+

Summary: Only a single ray of light was able to help him.

Day 6: Caged

My Ray Of Light

I was conflicted.

It wasn't the normal confliction that you found inside of a person, the kind where you wondered who you really were, what you would really do.

The kind of confliction I was experiencing was much, much worse.

It was Lavi, or Bookman.

The choice was steadily becoming more and more difficult. Every day, the Bookman inside of me grew stronger and stronger, clouding my visions of my friends, shoving them aside, taking over me.

The person named Lavi was steadily beginning to disappear. I could tell the old man was happy with this, I could tell he had been wanting this for a long, long time, but I had a reason I didn't want to be completely erased.

Because I was Lavi. No matter what anyone said anymore. I may have been training to become Bookman, but this one person, this one entity called Lavi, was someone else entirely. He was not a Bookman, he was not emotionless or detached, he was alive. Lavi was different. I was different.

And slowly, the other me, the one who should have always possessed this body, was beginning to take control again.

I was steadily losing the will to fight him off, beginning to just let him take over. Why not, after all? It wasn't like I was the real host of this body. I was just a creation, just another name for another alias, for another fake life. I didn't really exist.

But to one person, I did.

Even when everyone had turned their backs on me, even when I had almost tried to kill him, even when I had made it clear to him that I. Was. Bookman. he still believed in me. he still believed in Lavi. He didn't care about the person who was trying to take over his body again. He cared about Lavi.

As I was steadily being shoved into a cage, a tiny little area with the rest of the people who had been shoved away as one of the forty-nine aliases, a single ray of light poured down over me, unlike the others.

And this ray of light wouldn't leave.

Allen. Walker.

Caged: Fin

A/N: So yeah. It's super short, but this is all I had time to write. I haven't watched anime in over a week and I'm starting to get really twitchy, so I kind of just want to get this out and done with. I mean, I guess I should explain what happens after this little musing of Lavi's (which is all this is. He's sitting in the library staring down at a book thinking, just so you know).

Kay, so, Allen comes in, and they kiss, and Lavi decides he'll keep on fighting the Bookman inside of him. Oh, and the Bookman doesn't win. Lavi decides to stay as an Exorcist and dies and old man with Allen after they successfully defeat the Earl. The end.

Poor Bookman, having to find another successor when he's already so old…I feel for him…