Note: I don't own Let Dai, of course.

This is set after the end of the series and I wrote it because I was disappointed by the lack of full on smex  Enjoy.

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Everyday

The terminal tanoy is familiar to me now; the indistinct and jumbled message is like a whisper from a lover half-awake in the morning. I tell myself that I wait here everyday because I've got nothing better to do but really I'm unable to think clearly anywhere else.

The family doesn't speak to me and even if they did I'd probably just burn down the house. I want to feel the power I used to; the absolute high of rebellion but this really sucks; even violence feels empty without him. I'm used to physical pain but no-one has ever been able to get to me like this. It's torture. I'm not the type of person to retreat but this time all I can think about is finding a way back. It hurts that I can't.

I absent-mindedly finger the scar that he gave me and a dog-faced woman scowls at me from across the room. I flip her off. Like anyone cares enough about the old bitch to fly across the world for her.

The truth is I don't even know if he'll come after me. I mean, I know he'll want to, I trust him that far, but will he ever be as free minded as me? Can he throw off all the people that he knows to chase after me? He loves his mum and his narcissistic friend and that Yooneun girl. I hate them all if they stop him coming to me.

Another plane roars overhead and I suddenly feel sick. I wrap my arms around my own waist, the way he used to when I was being mean. I can feel my wallet in my pocket and I would take out the picture to look at it but I can't. I'm afraid that if I let myself see it once the pain will double. Then I'll have to carry it in my hand all the time to feel whole. What will happen then if I hold it so much it starts to crack and fade? Please make him come to me.

I'm being selfish but I don't care. All we ever needed was each other but while I tried to keep us separate from everyone else he was always inviting them in like I wasn't enough. How could I be? He could have had a much better life if I hadn't snared him. I ruined everything for him and I'd do it a thousand times over. Maybe he wouldn't and that's the difficult part; this time it's his choice and I can't sway him. I hate the word 'love.' People say it all the time and I can't stand it but there is no other word for what Jaehee and I have.

I guess I'm stupid, like my father says. Even if he never comes, I will everyday just in case.

Gate 3 is letting out now and dog-face stands up to meet a girl who has flown in from England. They hug and kiss and smile. I wonder what would happen if I just started killing people right here? If I started breaking people's arms or bludgeoning dog-face with my stool. Would be on the news where he might see it? I'm tempted to do it so that he'll be reminded of me: Of how he hated me and pitied me and how he loves me.

I don't have the energy. At least I think that's why I hesitate; today feels different and sluggish like everything is moving in slow motion. Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"Dai." I can't move. I recognise that voice but I've heard it call my name so many times only to turn around and be alone.

"Look at me." He sounds hurt and angry with me for leaving him. He always gets my feelings wrong. I bet he thinks I'm playing a little game or that I haven't suffered without him. A businessman walking by gazes directly over my head confusedly. The waitress at the bar is also curiously glancing in the same direction.

"Please, Dai." This time the voice is begging and the hand on my shoulder trembles. Is this real? I straighten up on my seat and slowly reach up to my collarbone. My fingertips feel hot as they come into contact with his delicate skin and I gasp in shock. This is real; it's actually happening.

Slowly I turn around and realise why everyone is staring. Jaehee is standing there; luggage cast aside and rivers of tears flowing from his beautiful eyes. Seeing him breaks my black heart, just like I thought it would. I try to think of a way to stop him crying but we're together and that only means more pain and frustration.

"I was waiting for you." I say bluntly, "Let's go for a ride." Picking up his backpack I drag him along by the hand, not wanting to let go of him in case this is a nightmare. It's happened before: I've been reunited with him and loved him so hard only to find that it's just the world's sick sense of humour. This time I'm not waking up; if this is a dream then at least it'll be whatever I want it to be.

"Dai, I can't…" I feel him pulling away from me and I grab him by the arms to stop him leaving.

"I hate those words." I yell, "Don't tell me what we can't do when I've waited so long for you." To my surprise he's smiling even though we're getting weird looks from strangers. He blushes slightly and tugs me out of a side door into the brightly-lit parking lot where we're alone.

"That's what I mean," he says shyly, "I can't wait. I want you to hold me now." I feel the temperature soar and I swallow hard thinking how I must have misheard but not caring. I grab his shirt and pull him into me fiercely kissing him for all the time we've been apart. My hands roam his body, re-familiarising myself with it, and I slide my fingers up under his shirt tenderly. He mimics my movements and I bite down on his tongue as his nails dig into my back. This is everything I've missed: the longing, passion and closeness I've not been able to share with him.

I pull away first, a little smug that he looks so dazed and dishevelled, and I head towards my bike.

"Come on Jaehee, I know a place that's just a couple of minutes away." He grins, all worry and bitterness replaced by joy. We climb on my bike and blast through the streets. He's holding onto me tightly and I suddenly need to laugh. I haven't for so long but now it's taking over. Jaehee kisses my neck softly and my elation devolves into desire. A couple of minutes away never seemed so far.

End of Part One

Okay, that's it for tonight. Don't worry. There will be another chapter soon with all the naughty bits in but it's late and I've got work tomorrow.

Hope you like it so far.