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Part Three

Bella POV

The house was almost the same as I remembered it. It was just missing some of the personal items. I imagined that although most of the furniture remained here their bedrooms were a little more empty. It didn't actually surprise me that most of the furnishings remained here. If they really were the same coven from the Quillette legends then they probably came and went several times over the years, just with big enough gaps so that no one would remember them. I guess they just packed up their personal belongings and took them with them. It wouldn't surprise me if there was still clothes in all the wardrobes either.

Alice ran to hug me the moment I came through the door. Even Jasper had given me a very brief hug. He still looked uncomfortable around me though. I saw a light on in the kitchen and moments later Esme came out to embrace me. She hugged me tightly and kissed my cheek.

"We're so glad you're alright, Bella." She said. I saw Carlisle coming down the stairs. He smiled warmly.

"Welcome Bella." He said. "It's good to see you again." I felt a something wash over me. I warm loving feeling. I briefly wondered if it was Jasper but then I realised it was the feeling of being here, with the Cullens...like we were one big happy family. Although that wasn't exactly true, it felt real enough.

"It's good to see all of you as well." I said. "This is a surprise."

"Well Esme and I arrived back about an hour ago. Rosalie and Emmet will be here in a few days I think. They were living separate for a little while." He explained.

"They were having some alone time." Esme added. I blushed slightly understanding exactly what she meant.

Edward had allowed me to greet everyone else until now. He came up behind me and put his arms around me. I wanted to shiver from his coldness and sigh from the comfort. I had missed this.

We all sat around the front room almost as if they had never left. Edward played to us on the piano, Esme brought me out some cookies. I vaguely wondered when they had the time to go and buy food. I assumed they must have done it on the way here or Alice had already taken care of it. It occurred to me that they did little things like that just for me.

Suddenly Edward jumped up from his seat.

"No." He said firmly, looking directly at Alice and Carlisle who had been talking in the corner.

"Calm down Edward it was mearly another option." Carlisle said. The funny thing was they were looking at me and I suddenly felt like I had missed something very important. I looked around for an explanation.

"They were discussing whether it would be better if you were a vampire." Edward said. My heart skipped a little. That's what I wanted, wasn't it? I couldn't help but think of Jacob. I knew he would find it very difficult to talk to me if I was a vampire. I think he would come round at a while but it would be harder. Then again at least I wouldn't be such a risk all the time. Victoria was still out there somewhere. She had sworn revenge and escaped the wolves when they had followed her. Would she come back for me like Laurent had? Somehow I already knew the answer to that, probably just because I knew what my luck was like.

"Edward it was just an idea we're not planning on condemning her soul just yet don't overreact." Alice chided. "I saw her Edward. One of us. I just don't know when or where. It was very vague."

"I want to." I said quietly. They all looked at me, including Edward who looked furious. "By all accounts...I should probably be dead by now. What happens when my luck runs out?"

"I will protect you." Edward said.

"Don't you want me to be happy Edward? Don't you want to be with me forever?" I asked.

"Of course I do but...is a lifetime not enough for you?" he asked, coming to me and holding my hands.

"You cannot expect me to grow old and die while you stay seventeen forever Edward. How will I ever be happy that way?" I whispered.

"You cannot give your life and soul up for me." He replied firmly.

"I want to. If you won't I will make one of the others." I said. They all looked a little sheepish. "Carlisle would do it." Edward flashed a look at Carlisle and then after a moment back to me.

"Traitor." He muttered. I assumed he meant Carlisle but I did wonder if he could mean me. "Bella you have so much to live for. Be with Jacob if you want to just don't ask me to watch your life be taken away. I would even share you if that's what it took."

"Edward that's not what I want. This isn't about him or you. This is about me." I said. "I don't want to be the only one who gets old. I don't want to be the one that needs protecting all the time. I don't want to be waiting for another vampire who isn't a "vegetarian" to come along and think of me as a nice snack. Can we vote on it?"

"No." Edward growled.

"Carlisle?" I asked.

"Yes." He said, throwing Edward an apologetic look. I glanced to Esme.

"Of course. I would love for you to be part of our family Bella." She said. Edward growled.

"Yes" Alice said. Edward was staring at Jasper as if desperately begging him. From his look I knew Jasper was undecided.

"Jasper?" I asked.

"For your safety and ours...yes." he said.

"No!" Edward shouted leaving the room. I wondered what Rosalie and Emmet would vote when they got here.

"I would advise waiting until you finish school though Bella. For the sake of secrecy." Carlisle said. I nodded slowly. I could wait that long.

So I wouldn't be the only one getting old. I would be able to protect myself. That thought was quite empowering. Now I just had to choose my future. Was it going to be with Jacob or Edward. Although there would be a larger complication with Jacob if I was a vampire. I certainly wouldn't be welcome in La Push anymore.

Edward POV

I saw her standing in the doorway. I knew she was coming of course but I still stared at her like she was the most beautiful thing in the world. To me she was. I wasn't sure I could convince her to change her mind, but I was sure as hell going to try. I walked towards her and took her hands, leading her into my room.

"I'm sorry Edward." She said.

"But you're not changing your mind." I replied, not really asking. I brought her to the couch and curled up on it with her.

"It's safer for everyone." She said softly. "And it's what I want." I kissed her head, losing myself in the scent of her hair.

"Isn't there anything else you want? To settle down, get married have children?" I asked. "You have a whole future to live."

"I can live without those things. I've never really had a great desire to have children or get married." She replied calmly. "There are things I will miss I am not denying that, Charlie and my mum for one. But a future of avoiding death is not a future at all."

I lifted her chin and kissed her. I could think of no other way of convincing her except the one thing I knew she wanted. The one human thing I knew she wanted. I just hoped I wasn't overestimating my control. Luckily I had hunted this afternoon while waiting for her to come here. It was the only thing that could distract me from her.

I felt her kissing back eagerly and so I kissed her harder. I knew she was waiting for me to pull away so I did, but only to lean her back on the couch and then I pressed my lips to hers again. She gasped in surprise and I could tell she was confused. I slid my tongue into her mouth and heard myself groan. She tasted even better than she smelt. I leant over her and ran my hands up and down her body. I ran my hand up inside her top stroking the skin at her sides. I pulled away again knowing that she at least needed air. I looked into her eyes but didn't move my hands from her.

"I wish I knew what you were thinking..." I whispered. "You have to tell me..."

"I'm thinking, please don't stop." She replied. She was nearly trembling beneath me and I knew it wasn't because she was cold. I didn't move. I saw resolve in her eyes and she reached her hands up to my chest. I felt them run down my stomach and back up, tugging my shirt with them. I let go of her to allow her to remove my shirt. Her warms hands running along my bare chest we incredible. I leant down to kiss her again. I could smell her arousal. It was nearly as intoxicating as the smell of her blood. I kissed down her neck but I wanted more of her skin…

Bella POV

This was incredible. So incredible I almost didn't believe it was happening. I had wanted this for so long. I still expected him to pull away at any moment and start apologizing.

Edward POV

My Bella. How could I not have realized what I was missing all this time.

Bella POV

I woke up in the morning and I was cold...I could feel Edward's arm draped over me. I had the feeling that something was missing and I didn't like that feeling. Edward was awake and I knew he knew I was awake. I sat up slowly and he lifted his arm away to give me more space.

"Good morning beautiful." He said.

"How can you say that?" I asked, feeling my hair stuck up in all directions.

"You're only human Bella." He replied, smiling widely. "I'll go make you something to eat so you can get yourself sorted, any requests?"

"No just anything will do, thanks." I told him climbing off of the sofa realising I was still naked. I lifted the blanket to cover myself. Edward leaned over to kiss me briefly before leaving the room.

I went to his en suite to shower quickly. I found plenty of clean soft white towels hung in the bathroom and wrapped myself up in one. It was huge and covered me from my shoulders past my knees. I snuggled in it for a while before I put my clothes except my ruined bra on. I straightened my hair as best as I could. I turned to leave the room to see Alice in the doorway.

"Don't you dare." She chided. "Here. You will wear these." I looked at the small pile of clothes she held out to me. I noticed a hair brush and some make up on the top.

"Alice, I couldn't..." I started. She pushed the pile into my arms.

"Sshh! I won't hear it." She replied. "Learn to accept gifts already!" She turned and left before I could protest anymore.

I began to investigate the pile of clothes. She had my size exactly right, even my bra size. I stripped back down and replaced my clothes with the new ones Alice had given me. The bra and underwear where black and fairly simple with just a few flowers and vines stitched in black cotton over the cups of the bra and front of the underwear. Alice had obviously resisted the temptation to get something daring that I would be embarrassed to wear.

Next was the pair of black jeans and loose royal blue top, which hung off my shoulders and hung loosely around my figure. I had to admit she had a talent, the top was slimming and flattering. Then there was a large black belt with a large silver buckle and a black beaded necklace.

I was definitely grateful for the hair brush as I managed to tame my hair, but I wasn't so sure on the make-up. I did use it however to put a light coat of grey eye shadow and mascara on. I knew it wasn't the effect Alice was aiming for but it was hopefully enough not to offend her. I did feel bad that I didn't properly thank her.

When I entered the kitchen I went straight to Alice and hugged her.

"Thank you Alice." I said.

"Do you like it?" she asked, smiling.

"of course I do, you're brilliant." I replied. She beamed at me. I looked at Edward who was just pushing some omelets onto a plate for me.

"You look stunning." He said. "but you always look stunning, and I am biased."

I sat to the counter and started to eat. I kissed his cheek to say thank you. Suddenly there was a loud bang. The funny thing is I was the only one who looked surprised. I looked at everyone else and they hadn't moved. I almost thought I had imagining it.

"Emmett." Edward said, not even looking up from his book.

"Emmett and Rosalie are here already?" I asked.

"I'm sorry we can go again if you want." Emmett said, in his loud booming voice.

"No, I'm sorry, I was just surprised." I replied. "Carlisle said it would be a few days."

"Me and Rose has a fight so we decided we may as well come here straight away." He told me, as if it answered everything. Rosalie didn't even come in to say hello. She just disappeared upstairs.

"He means since he isn't going to get any he may as well come see us." Edward murmured, a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. I blushed heavily.

"But apparently you are!" Emmett shouted, followed by roaring laughter. "Can't say I blame you Edward, Alice has done a pretty good job." I didn't think I could blush anymore than I was, my skin was hot and I must of been the colour of a tomato. This only seemed to make him laugh harder.

That afternoon

I had left the Cullen's house just before lunch because I told Edward I had promised to visit Jacob and explain everything. He seemed to understand this and let me go no questions asked.

I found Jacob at the beach. He hugged me to him and in that one second, feeling his body heat, I remembered every moment we had spent together. I really had to stop doing this.

"Bella?" he asked. "You ok?"

"Yeah, sorry I'm fine." I said. I looked up at him. How could I leave my Jacob? I couldn't choose between the two. How could I? I loved them both. "Hold me, Jake. Keep me warm."

He was more than willing to oblige. We just stood there on the beach for a while. His arms were wrapped tightly round me keeping me warm, his face buried in my hair, my face pressed against his chest.

Author's Notes: Bella is finding that both choices can offer her passion and love. The decision is becoming more and more difficult. Keep reading. And review. Also if you have any twilight fics or your own that you would like me to read and review leave a review and tell me which story i'll be happy to r&r x