Preface

My body was screaming at me to lie down and relax for a minute.

After all the emotions I'd been through today; Happiness, mild annoyed ness, excitement, unbelievably happy, horror and finally rock bottom/ sadness it was no wonder I felt so exhausted.

I couldn't lie down or relax because if I did then I would breakdown and cry and scream, none of which I had the time to do right now.

Right now I needed to go, to get out of Forks.

I grabbed my suitcase which I kept, out of sight, under my bed and opened it. I went over to my wardrobe and started to get random clothes and just stuff them in.

Tears streamed silently down my face, I was powerless to stop them. I couldn't believe I was so stupid, I fell for it, fell for him. All this time he was just lying to get me into his bed. The thought made me nauseous. I felt sick, I was just a little play toy a thing to keep him amused for a couple of months.

The worst part of it was… I was in love with him. I was still in love with Edward Cullen and I knew that if he came to me now and said he was sorry and that he really did love me and nothing like this would ever happen again I would believe him and forgive him and everything would be as it was before.

That's why I had to get out of here away from forks. So that I was far away from him.

I finished putting clothes in my suitcase and before I went down stairs I got some paracetamol from the cupboard in the bathroom because god knows I was going to need it. I already felt the begin of a headache coming on.

I went downstairs, grabbed a bottle of water and pull my phone out of my clutch bag that Alice gave me. I speedialed Charlie's number and prayed he would pick up.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Hi this is Charlie's phone I'm not here right now so leave a message after the beep" came Charlie's guff voice.

I sighed and said "Hey dad's it's me I'm not going to be home when you get back" I took a big deep breath and continued "I'm going away to the house in Phoenix for a while I don't know if I'm coming back, so call me when you get this message if I'm not answering you know I'll be on the plane so…yeah. I'll talk to you soon, love you bye"

Trying hard to stop the tears coming down my face I grabbed the documents I needed, some cash for the plane ticket and I put a long black trench coat over my prom dress. I swapped the high heel's Alice made me wear for a pair of converse trainers.

Making sure I had everything I took one last glance around the place I'd called home for the past 17 years of my life and walked out the door.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight

Hi this is the bet the new and inproved version I told you it would be be out this saturday ;]

I hope you like it and I might update on Wednesday or Thursday if the librarys open cause it might be shut cause of the October week

My other story will be updated on Saturday if the librarys open * Its the October Week NO MORE SCHOOL TILL NEXT WEEK YES !!!!*

Emz